posted August 12, 2013 01:13 AM            

So, some possibly related current life details. I'm not fluent with Astrology but I'm learning. I have Exalted Mercury, in Virgo, in the 12th house. Mars and Venus also are in this house. I have Gemini moon. Mercury is my most powerful planet.

Since coming to this site, I've been learning a lot. Tonight just buzzing around the site I ran into a thread about past lives with some tips about when clues about it come up. I did a little more research, just feeding my Mercurial need to learn.
Later, I was upset and feeling regret about something totally unrelated which I'll put in another post. I was tearing up.
While those feelings were fresh, WWII just came from out of NO WHERE and popped into my head. It's done this before and I've just thought it was some weird thing with my crazy mind. I've always had an interest in WWII. I never went out of my way, but if I stumbled across it somewhere I was very keen to learn about it and imagine what it must have been like.
So when WWII popped into my head THIS time... emotions followed. Regret being the most prominent. I was crying and I really had no idea why! I was crying for WWII, for something personal to me, but I really didn't know. I knew it was something the honestly, I didn't want to know or think about it. If I was to know it I didn't want to tell people about it. I'm telling you all because I think you have the best chance of understanding. Over the next hour+/-... more details kept coming in. Eventually, they were quite vivid. I was at the gym and really thought I might have to leave. Even now, it's very emotional and it's just the weirdest thing to me. I've never had any experience like this, or psychic energy.
Many people immediately think Hitler, the Holocaust, etc. But there are many things. If you REALLY want to know about some of the most unbelievable acts imaginable, look up "Unit 731"
Anyway, this is my "flashback".

I was a solder of the Allies - the "good guys". We were at a small town. There was heavy damage to this town. Some tanks or something had fired explosives there, I'm not exactly certain. We were kind of the, clean up crew you might say. Basically sent in to check for civilians, of which most have evacuated anticipating the coming violence, or told to do so to allow a makeshift base to be set up. I'm not certain.
(Some of this is just feeling by the way where details are a bit blurry but I get the idea.)
I was told to go check some small building, or some general area. I really can't see the surrounding area.
This is what makes me get all emotional.
The next images that I see are in one of the buildings I was to check. An Elderly man lying on the floor. Whether he has a leg injury or is just naturally disabled in some way is unclear to me, but he's unable to get up.
The next details, I really don't know much about. I can't see anything.
All I know is for reasons that are a complete blank to me, I killed that man. I killed him in some cruel manner. In that life, I hadn't told anybody. It was a secret that I had taken with me.

I feel weird to be telling you all this like I'm some kind of freak or might get accusations of making things up.
But the emotions are just INTENSE... .wow.

posted August 12, 2013 02:59 AM            

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Originally posted by Kerosene:
Good for you!!
It's a great feeling to get an idea of your past lives!!!!

yours sounds very thrilling, I've only gotten hints and ideas.
Nothing so blatant.

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Thanks!
There's a sense of relief from discovering it and I feel good now but holy cow. I feel SOOOO exhausted! Like I had a HUGE emotional fight or break up with a gf. Which I don't have one, but just I'm just wiped out.

posted August 12, 2013 03:09 AM            

Cause everybody do have a glimpse of their past one way or another..

I had my moments too and there are few people whom I know have it. Especially WW2 my twin friends always have dreams of it and they say that they were once a part of it too like its their past life. Both of them are Cancerian with a Virgo Moon.

Its Cool to know something from your past.

posted August 12, 2013 03:49 AM            

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Originally posted by minerva1987:
Wow Zander916..
It is intense and surreal ...
And your not a freak for pouring out !

Cause everybody do have a glimpse of their past one way or another..

I had my moments too and there are few people whom I know have it. Especially WW2 my twin friends always have dreams of it and they say that they were once a part of it too like its their past life. Both of them are Cancerian with a Virgo Moon.

Its Cool to know something from your past.

What did you learn from it? Something that relates both your past and your present.

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It's very very early. So it's yet to be seen if my current feelings are more permanent.

It was a big release. I feel like an inner struggle was put to rest. Almost like it had been calling out to me for a while, waiting for me to "get plugged in" and receive it.

posted August 12, 2013 04:20 AM            

Anyways I see a tall man walking towards me.

I was very happy to see him as if he was someone I knew in real life... but I never met him... yet I had an idea who he was.
The child got up and ran towards him

When I woke up I felt very sad....

This was the most vivid dream i've ever had.
I've never felt so evoked by a dream.

posted August 12, 2013 04:49 AM            

That's more like self discovery and self acceptance...

I had mine, being a very mean warrior prince...
I've always have a thing for antiques, plus my parents loves collecting such items. Very old age. So way back before any real technology. A Hindu. But yet merciless towards my victim. That's the thing that made me sink when I found out. Judging then and now. On how I get treated with what I was previously. Then again No matter how disgusted I was when I first found out, I American to accept that that was past and the reason came know about it was to accept myself as I am and grow inwardly... Tough yet we gotta renew.

Kerosene

posted August 12, 2013 12:16 PM            

Synchronicities came into my life - A LOT! Then i happenned to meet a guy. We met and clicked instantly, i felt that i can tell him so much about myself, and he told personal things as well. On that day transit Uranus was on his Sun, exactly squaring my natal Uranus. As i later found out, transit Sun was exactly conjunct our composite Uranus, LOL. So i went home and got to sleep. And there it was - a dream.

I was at my own country, but in the beginning of 20th century. All was there - the clothes, vehicles, everything. I was another woman, and there was my husband. I knew exactly what his name was, what my name was. I knew the age gap between us, i knew we had one daughter. I didn't love him, though he was very much in love with me. I woke up and i knew the man from my dream was this guy i just met. It touched me very deeply. Some time later i was walking home and got a sudden vision, of my past-life husband doing a work he did at that time - drawing a plan. I got a glimpse that he was an architect, and googled his name and architect. Thank google!I found him. It turned out he was a somewhat famous landscape architect in the capital of my country, a great amount of parks are done by him. I say - somewhat - because he was not mentioned in any of our school books or like that. There was no chance i would know about him before. And even if i would have known his work and his name, it would explain the following: I wanted to find out what was the name of his wife, etc. To my surprise, it was indeed the same as from my dream. The age gap was the same - and it's not like common - 3 or 4 years, it was 13. They indeed had one daughter. Now i even found their relatives, they still live in my country - it's a granddaughter of her sister. And the same house she lived in her childhood! I plan to go there, though i haven't decided on what to tell and what to say, why i even have such an interest.

Other interesting facts, regarding astrology.

My draconic Sun is the same sign as her natal Sun. His draconic Sun is the same sign as my past-life husbands natal Sun. My natal Moon conjuncts her natal Moon exact, with her ASC exactly conjuncting my IC. I didn't find his birthtime, but i know this guy's birthtime, and his natal Moon exactly conjuncts my past-life husbands natal Sun, his Venus exactly conjuncts my past-life husbands natal Mars, all of this is exactly on my DSC.

Moreover, when i took a look at our composites, i almost fell of my chair. In this life we have our composite Sun on Capricorn 12, which makes it conjunct this guy's natal Jupiter and DSC, and my Neptune by a degree. And guess what?! Our past selves in their composite had Sun on Capricorn 11!!! I mean, it's like it has moved a degree between our lives. And i'm not even talking about Moon-Pluto conjunction both of these composites share. As this emotional bondage and pain has been transfered to this life as well.

posted August 12, 2013 12:28 PM            

We were a group of worshipers who traveled from place to place, putting on shows that honored the sun. Singing, dancing and plays. It was a divine experience for us.

I also know I spent a recent past life in the tropics where it was similar, only with manual labor followed by singing and dancing so happiness and relief can enter the life through these activities. I know I have always been a performer/artist in every past life.

My past lives fuse relief and peace through performing and the arts. I might have even practiced spirit healing.

I have three twelfth house planets/and the sun, three are close to the ascendant, Leo Venus is in house ten in good aspect to these three ascending planets, which is why I think I performed/made people happy. I have Pisces north node in the sixth house trine Neptune. Chiron is in exact trine to Venus. Saturn trines the sun. The moon is opposite Neptune, too.

Also, strangely, the moon and Saturn rule my MC and IC - they are both in the same sign - Taurus and in house eight, considered an esoteric house and very spiritual/powerful.

Venus and Uranus are in good aspect - they rule my first and fifth houses and are in the tenth and twelfth. This suggests I was personally involved in performing and spiritualism in a past life (house twelve.)

Mercury/Jupiter/Uranus are all conjunct in house twelve - they rule houses three, five, six, nine and twelve. These are associated with traveling/performing in front of people/communication/religion/spirituality/healing.

posted August 12, 2013 01:40 PM            

You have better past lives than the portion I'm aware of from mine!
I think it came through so intensely because it was a powerful, moving event in that life. I'm kind of curious about why I did that. He was a tall, thin man. Still had a full head of short hair, and a thin mustache. He was terrified when he saw me as if he knew what was coming.
Despite the morbid recall, this morning I still feel good. Something has released, bringing more peace.

Those are all interesting though!

@Kerosene - I have NO psychic ability that I'm aware of. So this means very little in my eyes but I just keep feeling that in that life you are a past relative of yours. I have no idea why I think that but I do.

@Selene - If you follow through with that you should definitely tell us about it!

posted August 12, 2013 01:53 PM            

I love visual arts like drawing/painting. Anything that involves this and telling a story, I love. I have been creating my own since I was old enough to hold a crayon. I enjoyed drawing and making up stories to go along with what I drew which is, basically, a comic or graphic novel. That's what I am into these days more than performing. I am not a professional or anything, it's a way to relax. A hobby, like astrology.

I must sit out in the audience during some of my lives (like this one) but I am still connected. I go to the movies once a week, have been to countless concerts, read a lot of books, watch a lot of television. I encourage others in their dreams. The pendulum swings back and forth, you know? Creativity is still important to me, like always, I just like for everyone to have their turn!

posted August 12, 2013 02:17 PM            

Whew! I feel good now! My bouncy, goofy, imaginative self is back. I was in the kitchen only a moment ago, putting something on the stove and did a little dance from the fridge to the stove! LOL!

I don't get to do it often but I seem to enjoy watching others paint or draw. I used to watch Bob Ross a lot as a kid.
For me, I keep thinking writing. I've been told over and over that a love for writing is in my birth chart and I do enjoy it. I just don't feel that my vocabulary is strong enough. Or, what am I trying to say here... ? I know that I make wording mistakes and put things out in a complicated and strange way sometimes. It makes it difficult to follow I think.
But I could come up with some stories!!! I think Romance stories would be fun. For some reason I'm not always romantically expressive, sometimes, but not always. It's in there though! I could whip up some stories.
Then maybe something more on a world scale.

Well I'm rambling again. lol Stupid Mercury...

posted August 12, 2013 02:33 PM            

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posted August 12, 2013 08:20 PM            

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Originally posted by Zander916:
I have had some deep thoughts come to me this afternoon at work.
I would like to make a new post later, which would probably be lengthy. It would just be an outpouring from deep within me.
It would be some views on astrology, this site in part of it, and life/society, the impact and potential impact on me personally and also society.
Recognizing that I'm extremely communicative, I have a real concern of being annoying or bothersome as I've been known to inadvertently do that to people. So I want to see if anyone objects. I don't want to litter the forum with nonsense.

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You are not annoying or bothersome in the slightest! Don't worry about that! You seem so warm and sweet to me! People will respond to this so please don't worry. I would write more, and sometimes I do. It's just that, every once in a while, I type a few sentences and my mind blanks I just cannot think of anything else to say about a subject. Sometimes, I do later, that's why you see me editing sooooo much, it's an annoying habit of mine, if you want to talk about bothersome qualities a person has, I bet my editing is up there on the list. It's only because of these blocks I mentioned earlier.

posted August 12, 2013 09:32 PM            

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I'm in my house but I'm anxious to get out. There's someone in the living room and he's not welcome, but he's there - either a soldier or officer who's taking over the residence. Just before I leave, I say "danke" which is thank you in German - though I know that it's not my native language. But I gather that he's letting me leave with my life, so I should thank him. I leave the house and see vehicles that look like large trucks and they're filled with bodies/casualties of the war. By how skinny they all are, they must be holocaust victims. Unfortunately, I barely get on the street before I'm being riddled with bullets. I get the feeling that the person in the house decided to change his mind after all. I could feel the bullets hitting my body but there's no real pain - it's just a sense of acceptance as my consciousness leaves the body.

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This past life awareness explains my extreme repulsion for guns and weapons of war as well as my distaste for war in general. I'm also becoming aware of another past life which involves war and the possibility of having been a 'comfort woman'. Whenever I hear about sexual abuse of any kind, I get numb, emotionally sick and I keep having to fight feelings of powerlessness.

I've never really believed in getting past life readings from psychic's because who knows whether what they say is true or not and if it's not and you end up believing it, it could have negative consequences. As you elevate your consciousness, you'll become aware of the past lives as your higher self/guides see fit to disclose them.