posted August 29, 2013 01:36 PM            

If you want to talk about it and don't have it, that is cool.

I am feeling there are 2 things with this. One is that the person seems to be able to "go on" with it but doesn't get to root causes of his issues and they come out in other ways.

The other is that this person may not understand other people who "wallow" in their pain/process it in a more overt fashion.

I admire the people who can " move on" in a way but if they "move on" but the pain comes out sideways as an illness, one bad relationship after another, addictions etc etc, then I would not want that.

Anyway, all opinions are desired, as usual.

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posted August 29, 2013 02:49 PM            

I also have Chiron in 12th House and what I noticed is that I have this tendency to " evade/overlook" my deepest issues by burying them somewhere no one could ever, even for an instant, see or notice them .

When I was nine/ten, I was sexually molested by an older male cousin, more than once.
Back then, I did not understand what was he even doing to me and thought nothing wrong of it.

posted August 29, 2013 05:45 PM            

That does not sound like you are hiding anything but have made peace with it.

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posted August 30, 2013 06:24 AM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Thanks Silver

That does not sound like you are hiding anything but have made peace with it.

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I think I do.
We actually have a good relationship with each other but I always feel some sort of an apologetic gaze in his eyes whenever he looks at me.
I know he's a very nice guy deep down and he's always been overly gentle in his dealing with me.
His mother once told me that I bring up a soft side of him no one else does.

posted August 30, 2013 08:22 AM            

If your Chiron is in the 12th, do you think you are hiding other things?

How do you feel the Chiron in the 12th, SF?

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posted August 30, 2013 08:53 AM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Well, it is wonderful you made peace with this.

If your Chiron is in the 12th, do you think you are hiding other things?

How do you feel the Chiron in the 12th, SF?

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Ever since my early teens ( 14/15), I've always suffered from this terrible feeling of not belonging which I try to hide. It started as an unexplainable feeling of confusion then it devoloped into a mental/emotional state of being lost and it ended up with me becoming isolated by choice and constantly angry at the world.

I am what most people could call a "social outcast" and it isn't because I can't communicate well or because I don't know how to make friends. It's because of personal attitudes towards religion and politics.

I grew up a firm agnostic in a very religious family, society and country. I was taught that I must accept everything the way it is and never question anything but I obviously disappointed everyone by doing so. I thought for myself and apparently that's a crime in my society.

While teens in other parts of the world spend their adolescence having fun and getting to know themselves, I spent it fighting an entire dogmatic system of belief that's feeding poison to the youth of my country.