posted September 01, 2013 02:10 PM            

So, I've had a pretty dysfunctional love life...It could be because of the venus/uranus and venus/neptune contacts in my natal chart. My last relationship was chaotic. It was on and off for a year yet we always would come back together. The sex was amazing... we had to have to each other no matter what... even if it meant getting freaky outside. This was the only guy that I'd allow myself to experiment sexually-we did things that I never thought I'd do or even like, but with him I loved everything. However, he was controlling and manipulative. For christmas break I went back home for two weeks to be with my family (5 hours away) and he told me this, "You better come back after those two weeks or I'll be very upset with you." I wasn't expecting him to say that but yet I wasn't surprised. I'm a strong willed independent Leo girl, but it kind of turned me on to have someone try and boss me around LOL. When we would fight he would be really mean and try to say things that would imply he didn't need me. I remember once I blocked his text messages for a few days because his intensity was getting to me (this was early in the relationship). I needed a break from him and to clear my mind. Well, after a few days I missed him and I texted him to apologize. His response was, "No big deal, I've moved on anyways." I was like ouch. But being a leo I responded with, "lol good luck." Then he called me a few days later to apologize and he admitted he missed me and that he just was upset with me for blocking him. He's a virgo and yet I found him to have way more pride than my leo self. When I was with him everything was good, I felt loved and happy but when we were apart things just fell apart. It was like we couldn't sustain a relationship that well unless we were in each other's physical presence and it wasn't possible since we led very different lives. But neither one of us could nor wanted to let go of the other. Things got really bad when I decided to leave him for good because I was exhausted. He kept trying to talk to me but I would ignore him and so at 3 am he tried to break into my apartment. He managed to get the window screen off and then he slid open my window. I freaked out and told him to leave or I'd call the police. He was sobbing (drunk) and he just needed to be around me and I wasn't letting him. I looked at my phone before the break-in and I had about 30 missed calls. I left my phone on silent so I wouldn't be bothered.

SO, that is the inspiration for this post. In our synastry chart we have mars trine pluto and I think it really affected us. I started a playlist of songs that I could relate to mars trine pluto in relationships and would love for you guys to post your own songs.

Here's what I have so far:
Rihanna-we found love
Christina Aguilera-Walk away
One republic- Apologize
Britney Spears-Criminal
Adele-Set fire to the rain
Telepopmusik- Love can damage your health
Florence + the machines-Seven devils
Rihanna-Stupid in love
Craig Armstrong-This love
Lady antebellum-Need you now
Coldplay-Princess of China
Amy Winehouse-Back to black
Leona Lewis- Bleeding love
Justin Timberlake-What goes around

Here are some contacts in my synastry chart with this guy:
mars trine pluto
sun square pluto
moon square saturn
moon square venus
moon square neptune
moon conjunct ascendant
moon square mars
venus opp saturn
venus square ascendant
venus conjunct mars
mars opp neptune
saturn square ascendant
mars opp sat

I hope you guys find this post interesting and I would love your feedback, especially on the songs!

posted September 01, 2013 03:59 PM            

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I once saw a sign that said "sin is death" but if "all deaths are suicide (linda goodman)" and suicide is sin, then shouldnt "death is sin" be more appropriate?

posted September 01, 2013 05:22 PM            

And sorry, I am the absolute worst when it comes to picking out songs that match aspects lol

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I once saw a sign that said "sin is death" but if "all deaths are suicide (linda goodman)" and suicide is sin, then shouldnt "death is sin" be more appropriate?

posted September 01, 2013 05:48 PM            

So, would this aspect be the reason for all of the intensity and obsession? There were times that I felt that the only way I could end this relationship was through moving away. We also have some time of mental connection-- If I start thinking about him a lot or if something dramatic happens to me he will contact me out of the blue.

I feel so cheesy now for making a playlist, LOL. I did because I had so many emotions and feelings going on that it was my way of venting. Now, I need to make a pluto square moon playlist lol. I'm going to post some lyrics from a song that describe to a T my relationship with this guy.

What do you do?
When you know something's bad for you
And you still can't let go

I was naive, your love was like candy
Artificially sweet, I was deceived by the wrapping
Got caught in your web and I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed and devoured completely

Ohh, and it hurts my soul 'cause I can't let go
All these walls are caving in, I can't stop my suffering
I hate to show that I lost control
'Cause I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need
To walk away from
Yea yea
(I need to get away from you)
(Need to walk away from you)
(Get away, walk away, walk away)

I should have known that I was used for amusement
(For amusement, ah)
Couldn't see through the smoke
It was all an illusion
Now, I've been licking my wounds
(Licking my wounds)
But the venom seems deeper
(Deeper, deeper)
We both can seduce, but darling you hold me prisoner
(Prisoner)

Ohh, I'm about to break, I can't stop this ache
I'm addicted to your allure, and I'm fiending for a cure
Ohh, every step I take leads to one mistake
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need
Oh, I can't mend this torn state I'm in
Getting nothing in return, what did I do to deserve?
The pain of this slow burn, and everywhere I turn
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
Yea, yea
(I need to get away from you, need to walk away from you)

Every time I try to grasp for air
I am smothered in despair
It's never over, over, ohh ohh
It seems I'll never wake from this nightmare
I let out a silent prayer
Let it be over, over, ooh
Ohh, inside I'm screaming, begging, pleading no more
(Ooh ooh)
Now what to do, my heart ache's been bruised
So sad but it's true, each beat reminds me of you

posted September 01, 2013 05:55 PM            

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I once saw a sign that said "sin is death" but if "all deaths are suicide (linda goodman)" and suicide is sin, then shouldnt "death is sin" be more appropriate?

posted September 01, 2013 06:11 PM            

Only time will help you get over him. Being a Scorpio sun, mars, and Pluto it takes me a very long time to get over someone and with you being touched by Pluto, you're naturally going to still have feelings for him

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I once saw a sign that said "sin is death" but if "all deaths are suicide (linda goodman)" and suicide is sin, then shouldnt "death is sin" be more appropriate?

posted September 01, 2013 06:27 PM            

My last two relationships had pluto/moon aspects and I hope the next one does not. I can't handle it anymore lol.

posted September 01, 2013 06:30 PM            

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I once saw a sign that said "sin is death" but if "all deaths are suicide (linda goodman)" and suicide is sin, then shouldnt "death is sin" be more appropriate?

posted September 02, 2013 12:27 AM            

I have mars conjunct pluto with my boyfriend.

posted September 02, 2013 12:58 AM            

Intense, sexy, destructive, unforgettable.