posted November 19, 2013 07:41 PM            

Mars 12th?

Do you feel repressed anger/aggression? No clear way to express it?

Does it build up and then explode out at inappropriate times? Over reactions to rather insignificant things?
Maybe even staying calm during larger issues but no clear way of controlling it?

Hidden sexual obsession?
Hidden sexual habits?

I have twelfth Mars and these are issues that I face.
I even have urges and "visions" of doing some really horrific things as an outlet to release it.

I also have an 8th Jupiter aspecting Mars which maybe brings 8th house sex/death into it with the effect of "expansion".

posted November 19, 2013 07:52 PM            

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Originally posted by 12muddy:
My mother has mars in the 12th and she's a ticking time bomb. I don't think she represses her anger, it's just that she gets angry too easily and doesn't know how to control it.

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posted November 19, 2013 08:08 PM            

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Originally posted by DeepFreeze:

Mars 12th?

Do you feel repressed anger/aggression? No clear way to express it?

Does it build up and then explode out at inappropriate times? Over reactions to rather insignificant things?
Maybe even staying calm during larger issues but no clear way of controlling it?

Hidden sexual obsession?
Hidden sexual habits?

Either way, I'm curious if anyone experiences these things.

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Mars in the 12th: Yes
Do you feel repressed anger/aggression? No clear way to express it? Yes sometimes but I have learned to find emotional outlets such as art or fitness.
Does it build up and then explode out at inappropriate times? Over reactions to rather insignificant things? Yes it can build up but I tend to wait until the right moment to just go off. I don't overreact over insignificant things my Taurus asc prevents that.

posted November 19, 2013 08:30 PM            

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DeepFreeze: Do you feel repressed anger/aggression? No clear way to express it?

Does it build up and then explode out at inappropriate times? Over reactions to rather insignificant things?
Maybe even staying calm during larger issues but no clear way of controlling it?

Hidden sexual obsession?
Hidden sexual habits?

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Nah, my anger and aggression aren't repressed. I'm expressive enough to bring stuff like that out. I like to think of it as shooting lasers off into space! With someone to watch it with since I have to express myself to other people. #LeoMars

No building up, no explosions, nah nah...I do tend to swallow my temper though and express it later in words to someone I trust. I don't really do immediate actions. I have very good self control!

I do stay very calm but that's because I have a cold temper, not a hot one. I ice over and think of where to cut when I get angry...if you want directionless, hot anger and fists, talk to my Aries sister lmfao!

No hidden sexual obsessions and no hidden sexual habits. I'm a pretty plain ducky and what I do like, is not repressed.

posted November 19, 2013 09:40 PM            

I get a mixed bag with anger/frustration. Sometimes it just explodes out. The other night I had to leave the cause of frustration. To me there was no other out or I would do something that I would later regret. I literally had tunnel vision. I only remember seeing very specifically what my eyes were looking at. Example: someone's face without even recognizing what they might be wearing, etc.

Sometimes it's slow, patient, and calculated.

The sex part. I don't have any unusual thoughts or desires. Well, not THAT bad anyway. It's simply that they are constant. I really mean constant, and with everyone whether I am attracted or not. It's just a subject that never ever leaves no matter what.
There are habits/addictions as well. Even though it's been around 2 years since the act of sex itself with another person.

posted November 19, 2013 10:10 PM            

Just yesterday I was telling to a friend, I have violance in my thoughts. I've never gotten into any physical fight except the ones that I had with my bros when I was a child.. but when I am outside, walking I verbally attack a lot of people. I don't know them but I hate it when they invade my territory, don't follow the common rules.

I have misophonia ( hatred of sound ). If a person chewing gum, making a lot of noise while eating, any low pitch repeat sounds can make me boil with rage and attack the cause. So far, only verbaly.

Thank God, people do not really respond. I am skinny as hell but still something about me scares them ( but I guess that must be Pluto aspects that I have )

I can smell danger way before people and I believe Mars in the 12th grants me this.

posted November 20, 2013 12:51 AM            

sis - yes! I can identify with what you said. I wouldn't say that I have a constant hatred of sound. There are days few and far between, but there are days when just ANY noise just irritates the CRAP out of me. Or people even being around. I want to be alone. Only once in a while.
Like you, there's something, I don't know what, but it keeps me from acting out. There's a conscience. However, deep in my thoughts, there are moments when I'm just like, "Thank God I don't have a gun."
A lot of this stuff no one would know about. I don't wear these thoughts and these feelings on my sleeve or anything. Sometimes when I'm angry with someone, more long term. Like someone at work. I just dream, and conscientiously HOPE that they would start an altercation. I'm just itching for it but I know that I can't do it. I'll be in trouble, appear crazy, etc.
There's been a couple times when I've attacked someone. Both times where a little scary. Only because in my head, it's like thought went away. I had no concept of when to stop or how far to take it. I mean, just for a few moments, then I'd snap back and walk away from it. Those few moments though were kind of scary. It was like just blanking out.

ail221 - you know? I've thought about art. I have no talent but I would LOOOOOOVE to draw. Just simple pencil drawings. Just all of a sudden, I feel inspired. Thank you! I might check with the community college about just a drawing class or two. I think that would be a great outlet! I could draw some messed up pictures to get my thoughts out but then nice ones too.

Overall, these are just thoughts and almost always are only that. I do have a nasty temper though if it flares up. I really really try hard to keep cool. Practice right?

posted November 20, 2013 12:58 AM            

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Originally posted by StarlightSmileSupreme:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by 12muddy:
[b]My mother has mars in the 12th and she's a ticking time bomb. I don't think she represses her anger, it's just that she gets angry too easily and doesn't know how to control it.

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I used to be really bad. I would just hit whatever was near. I broke my hand on a tree once. LOL
I'm not that way any more. I've gotten much better but I DEFINITELY have to physically leave or I still would.

posted November 20, 2013 04:42 PM            

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Originally posted by DeepFreeze:
I used to be really bad. I would just hit whatever was near. I broke my hand on a tree once. LOL
I'm not that way any more. I've gotten much better but I DEFINITELY have to physically leave or I still would.

I used to road rage SUPER bad. I'd chase people down and throw something at them. Or pass them and then let them tailgate. Then drop two tires onto the gravel shoulder to throw rocks at them. I was bad!
Not any more. I don't road rage at all, ever. I just let 'em go. There's no point.

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posted November 20, 2013 04:45 PM            

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Originally posted by ail221:
You don't need talent to take a art class. You could try angry art....I mean abstract art and platter paint for a emotional release.

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posted November 20, 2013 04:58 PM            

You both are correct although you're discussing opposite extremes.

My ex-best friend has 12H Mars. She's mostly the "repressive" type who holds it all in until she explodes. And YES she explodes at times or places where it wasn't warranted!! Inflicting even more pain on herself because she blew up on the WRONG person. Then it's back to repressing instead of *fixing* the overall problem.

On the other hand - I have an Aunt who lets her anger/frustrations out OFTEN. She holds nothing back and sometimes doesn't have a filter! Yet if you give it BACK to her she will crumble at times! God love her...she's a good woman though who takes excellent care of her family.

posted November 20, 2013 05:09 PM            

But I have Aries on the 12H cusp and Mars sq. Saturn.

I can't think of anyone with a 12H Mars... but it kinda reminds me of people with a retrograde Mars. They tend to be super calm and then all of a sudden - boom!

I don't think it's healthy at all... and DeepFreeze, you sound scary! lmao.

posted November 20, 2013 05:14 PM            

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Originally posted by LovelyAries86:

So it seems that 12H folks (no matter the placement) will at times struggle with striking a BALANCE with their behavior.

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posted November 20, 2013 05:41 PM            

ail221 - Thanks! Maybe I'll get practicing. I think I'd fall in love with it if I learned to appreciate my own work.

SSS/LovelyAries - yes, balance for sure. I'm really a LOT better than when younger.
Actually, although I did release at work the other night. I am very careful, and an expert at leaving what's at work, at work, and what's at home, at home. I never mix the two if at all possible. I get SUPER SUPER irritated when others do that. The two should never mix in my opinion. Then you make your home life or work life suffer for absolutely no reason really.

posted November 20, 2013 07:01 PM            

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Originally posted by StarlightSmileSupreme:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by ail221:
[b]You don't need talent to take a art class. You could try angry art....I mean abstract art and platter paint for a emotional release.

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posted November 20, 2013 07:12 PM            

The comfy feeling some women get around you could be due to Neptune aspects or Chiron, maybe.

posted November 21, 2013 12:12 PM            

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Originally posted by StarlightSmileSupreme:
So true! Balance is the most difficult part, and trying to appear like everyone else, live up to the same expectations. I have Mercury in twelve with ADHD and I struggle to pay attention to what's going on around me without being distracted, same as those without ADHD. That's a typical twelfth house struggle.

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I have zero planets in the 12th. I'm almost grateful for that - after reading what everyone says on here LOL.

I truly do hope that you find the right balance for yourself though SSS.

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Originally posted by DeepFreeze:

SSS/LovelyAries - yes, balance for sure. I'm really a LOT better than when younger.
Actually, although I did release at work the other night. I am very careful, and an expert at leaving what's at work, at work, and what's at home, at home. I never mix the two if at all possible. I get SUPER SUPER irritated when others do that. The two should never mix in my opinion. Then you make your home life or work life suffer for absolutely no reason really.

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I'm very glad that things have improved for you! It's not always easy finding your "sweet spot" in life.