posted December 29, 2013 05:00 AM            

Sometimes I think if I died, everyone at my funeral might be sort of confused as to who I was. It's nothing major, I mean, I'm not a pharmacy student by day and stripper by night (not that there is anything wrong with that) but certain people see certain sides of me and never see the others and it makes me feel confused sometimes with my true identity.

For example to some people they only see my scorpio rising conjunct pluto, 8th house mars, aquarius moon.. and they would describe me as being dark, sarcastic, 'quiet but crazy'

but then with others I'm described as cute, pure, ditzy, airy-fairy .... attributed to my virgo sun, libra venus, gemini mars.. cancer midheaven

There are also a couple other modes of 'me'...

It's also super interesting to me how this plays out astrologically.. it's like people's astrological make-up or energy, triggers certain facets of who I am, all unconsciously of course, and this decides which side of myself I show. It's like somehow my body just KNOWS that if I show a certain side, it's not going to gel well with that person, like they just simply won't understand - lack a sort of insight to appreciate that 'me' so I don't bother.

For example, someone at my work has venus in scorpio and moon in taurus which is conjuncted/opposed exactly by their natal saturn... this activates my scorpio ascendant and pluto energy BAD and that's the me they see.
Maybe I'm mirroring something that this person has to deal with? Without me even realising it? (well now I do...)

I don't mean to do anything of this.. none of it is intentional. It just happens like instinct.. Maybe its my sun trine neptune (exact)

posted December 29, 2013 11:40 AM            

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Originally posted by Leocassandra:
Yes, i think people with lots of mutable energy can be chameleons but after all with different people we have different synastry...

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posted December 29, 2013 11:48 AM            

Some people tell me I come off as nervous. Some that I come off as mean and overbearing. Some that I am "too nice." Some that I'm outgoing. Some that I'm shy. I have no mutable in my chart, but I do agree about mutable people being super changeable. The thing is that if you are extroverted and friendly and talkative and engaging then we will have a blast joking around. But if you are quiet and more introverted then I will be just as quiet and introverted right back. Sometimes if someone is extroverted but they hog all the attention for themselves then I will be very shy around them too b/c they'll make me feel annoyed and uncomfortable. But generally that is the rule, if you are nice and friendly and give me attention then I will be very friendly and engaging right back. I do have three planets in leo after all. I love to be playful and love attention. But then if I feel neglected or not welcome which is my cancer sun and libra rising then I will be quiet and shy.

posted December 29, 2013 01:30 PM            

I'm very influenced other people's energy (or maybe i'm projecting?) - and what they send out to the room that we're all in.
Maybe that's also the reason why I like small gatherings better than large crowds.. on the other hand in a big setting I can do the sideway dance and hide in the background and noone will notice (yayy) lol.

I like to make people laugh, feel good and welcome (smile, say hello, ask questions just whatever makes you feel seen).

I pretty much go with the flow in most (if not all) areas in life. I just adjust myself to whatever is needed in the particular situaion (Pisces).. oh you wanna talk? i'll be glad to listen, Oh you feel cold? Don't worry i'll get you a blanket!

I can be outgoing and I can smalltalk (7th house Mercury), but I also like to stay in the background and take care of someone whenever they need anything..someone to talk to, a shoulder to lean on etc.

posted December 29, 2013 01:41 PM            

My chart is kind of all over the place with a lot of squares, some trines, and some sextiles.