posted March 20, 2014 01:56 PM            

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Originally posted by fairaqua:
I am 26
NN is Pisces in the 7th house
SN is Virgo in the 12th house

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posted March 20, 2014 02:07 PM            

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Originally posted by StarlightSmileSupreme:

What do you think of this combination? I have the same. Your north node would be in the sixth house if your south is in the twelfth.

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Sorry, its right on the cusp.. 7th and 1st.

It terrifies me, yet makes me a little excited.
From what I understand its about putting yourself in the hands of others.
Im opening a online business that will sell several of my products. I am my own worst critic and perfectionist. Its scary to just open up and say 'Here is it!' because Im haunted by, "What if they dont like it?" "What if they say they like it, but really dont.. then Im living some big lie"

I also have set "life rules" up for myself that I dont quite understand.
For example, I cant even start making lunch if its not 11. 10:59, no way I can do it. Thats still breakfast time.
My bed HAS to be made before I get in it. In fact, I can not be comfortable in a room with an unmade bed (yes, I have asked friends if I can make their bed)
Another problem Ive noticed is I do have loner tendencies. Ill get a friend and keep them close, but I keep just turning inward and fall out of contact with people. They dont have what I need and I think that I can only give myself what I need..

I dont know. I feel like I have this huge message to send out to the world. I dont know what it is yet, but its in there...
But I have this huge fear of public perspective and I feel like a lot of this is coming from my N & S nodes.

posted March 20, 2014 02:14 PM            

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Originally posted by fairaqua:
Sorry, its right on the cusp.. 7th and 1st.

It terrifies me, yet makes me a little excited.
From what I understand its about putting yourself in the hands of others.
Im opening a online business that will sell several of my products. I am my own worst critic and perfectionist. Its scary to just open up and say 'Here is it!' because Im haunted by, "What if they dont like it?" "What if they say they like it, but really dont.. then Im living some big lie"

I also have set "life rules" up for myself that I dont quite understand.
For example, I cant even start making lunch if its not 11. 10:59, no way I can do it. Thats still breakfast time.
My bed HAS to be made before I get in it. In fact, I can not be comfortable in a room with an unmade bed (yes, I have asked friends if I can make their bed)
Another problem Ive noticed is I do have loner tendencies. Ill get a friend and keep them close, but I keep just turning inward and fall out of contact with people. They dont have what I need and I think that I can only give myself what I need..

I dont know. I feel like I have this huge message to send out to the world. I dont know what it is yet, but its in there...
But I have this huge fear of public perspective and I feel like a lot of this is coming from my N & S nodes.

Do you relate with this?

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posted March 20, 2014 07:49 PM            

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Originally posted by fairaqua:

I also have set "life rules" up for myself that I dont quite understand.
For example, I cant even start making lunch if its not 11. 10:59, no way I can do it. Thats still breakfast time.
My bed HAS to be made before I get in it. In fact, I can not be comfortable in a room with an unmade bed (yes, I have asked friends if I can make their bed)
Another problem Ive noticed is I do have loner tendencies. Ill get a friend and keep them close, but I keep just turning inward and fall out of contact with people. They dont have what I need and I think that I can only give myself what I need..

I dont know. I feel like I have this huge message to send out to the world. I dont know what it is yet, but its in there...
But I have this huge fear of public perspective and I feel like a lot of this is coming from my N & S nodes.

Do you relate with this?

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Definitely sounds like SN in virgo predispositions, routine and organization sort of things, but with NN in pisces the natives are usually being asked to kind of let go of these tendencies and the need to feel in control of the details. Being a natural loner also comes with SN in the 1st house, I have SN in the 7th, and I find as I come to accept my NN I have become more and more of a loner, when in the past I felt like I constantly needed to go out or to be with people.

"North Node Pisces 7th House/ South Node Virgo 1st House
No longer being so critical of your appearance. No longer picking yourself apart. No longer criticizing the way you do everything. No longer needing to look, behave or act perfectly. No longer being the teacher’s pet or setting a good example. Letting go of a tendency to dissect and separate everyone in your environment into distinct groups. Releasing the urge to categorize experiences. Releasing a tendency to keep yourself separate from others to avoid too much merging. Moving away from an overly practical approach to allow for more inspiration to enter your life. Releasing over-concern with issues of personal purity. Getting over any obsessions with personal cleanliness. Getting over any obsessions with personal grooming and neatness. Easing up on the need to keep your direction in life free from the clutter of input from other people. No longer resisting the chaos and confusion that relationships can bring. Becoming willing to engage in significant relationships no matter how confusing they may be. Embracing the inspiration and fluidity that other people bring into your life. Tapping into your spirituality through relationships with other people. Becoming more compassionate in your significant relationships. Blending with others, yet remaining a distinct individual with separate boundaries. Letting other people mess up your plans. Releasing judgmental attitudes by becoming more receptive to other people. Letting other people pervade your experiences. Willing to blur your personal boundaries in an effort to understand the other. Bringing more people into your life who are imaginative, poetic, musical, inspirational and artistically sensitive. Letting go of a tendency to worry in favor of becoming more accepting of the people and relationships in your life. Cutting some slack for the people in your life."

posted March 20, 2014 09:22 PM            

I always had to have something to control. Now it's money, but in a positive way where I'm building a nest egg as working hard, but still spending on myself and love ones. Actually trying to let people get close, and not trying to pick them apart and keep them at arms length.

It's weird. I feel like it's so hard to let people get close. They want to know me, and they like me well enough, but I'm afraid they'll see the real, imperfect me and hate me for it. I've been on a long road of accepting an loving myself. I can't be perfect.

posted March 21, 2014 02:30 PM            

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Originally posted by LucieLemonade:
I have the nodes in 4(NN) & 10(SN). I do not "feel" them at all. Even the descriptions don't resonate with me. Can my destiny really just be about being the "happy homemaker"? sounds soooo anti-climactic.

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posted March 22, 2014 09:40 AM            

I'll have a look at those videos.

As for getting to know myself, with sun in the 1st conj Neptune, that isn't easy! I do have issues understand not "who I am", I'm actually quite self aware, but "what I'm going to be" "what should I do with my life", those are more difficult. The career thing has been a HUGE problem in my life.

Reading and research for Saturday afternoon: The Nodes!

posted March 23, 2014 01:08 AM            

I think the Nodes flip-flop to the point where they're equally operative during a lifetime. Much the same as the waxing and waning phases of the Moon: