Posts: 73
From: Death Valley, CA
Registered: Dec 2013

posted March 21, 2014 01:13 PM            

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Do you ever get lost playing a role to kind of forget about your emotions?

I do this sometimes. I am myself, but at the same I don't express my emotions to my family, or anybody really. I talk in riddles sometimes and I feel like I'm playing on a stage most of the time.

What do you think signifies this?

What does your chart look like if you relate to this.

I definitely am more fueled by my emotions than I'd like to believe.

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From: Washington, DC
Registered: Mar 2014

posted March 21, 2014 03:56 PM            

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Yes, with people I don't know or who don't need to know my deeper inner self. The distance is a healthy distance. I understand my ugliness enough to know what needs to be left behind a mask of pretty. I'm not ashamed of it. I even enjoy it. But it's not a museum. It's invite only I have a well crafted outer self that people enjoy. They don't need to poke deeper if I'm not interested in spilling.

With people I love (usually a tiny list), it's not an issue.

I'll spill secrets as a strategic maneuver to shock someone into doing something for me. Or if I truly want them to know something about me that few know.

I'm confused. Doesn't everyone do this?

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From: Washington, DC
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posted March 21, 2014 04:00 PM            

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I lived like you from age to 23. It's only in the past few years that I've been learning to share with my loved ones. Now that I do love them again.

It's not easy doing what you do. It's a coping mechanism. It comes from a deep feeling of not being accepted and giving up. I've been there. I'm sorry you're experiencing it. It's a way to dissociate from pain.

Is it a coping mechanism for you?

I have sun, mercury, Saturn and Uranus conjunct in 8th. I think Saturn learns not to burden others. But it's our burden then isn't it?

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From: Cypress
Registered: Mar 2014

posted March 21, 2014 04:52 PM            

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All the Time. Its literally part of my being. I once repressed my emotions for 4 years without trying to feel them. Nevertheless, I was quite depressed. I learned you have to get back into your body in order to really feel what you've been holding back. I still can't share that often with my family. This is what you deal with with natal Scorpio moon lol.

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From: Mercury
Registered: Nov 2013

posted March 21, 2014 05:02 PM            

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I don't think it's a coping mechanism.
I sometimes take forever to heal and people are just not ready to listen to you the whole time.
Some are though.
And in spite of what one might think, it's not necessarily because they love you more.
Some people are just wired to hear what you have to say, no matter how long and heavy the story.
Is it a synastry thing or a natal thing?
Probably a bit of both.

With the others, you can say what you have what you have on your mind once, but then you have to revert to the good old "I'm doing great, thanks!" even when it's not true.
You just can't weigh on people's shoulders like that without asking yourself what THEY are about in their life or if they have what it takes to hear your stuff.
Anyway that's how I feel about it.

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posted March 21, 2014 05:20 PM            

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Hell yeah, all the time.
Not so much online but IRL no one knows what goes on through my mind or what my life is like. I'm a very withdrawn person IRL, very different from how I am on boards and in emails.

I feel like I fake almost all of my social - and more intimate - interactions (I don't really have close relationships IRL though), even though in a way I also feel like I'm being genuine.
It's hard to explain.

"StrandedSaturn" - well, hello there, Saturn. I got that one prominent as well.

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From: Your imagination
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posted March 21, 2014 07:14 PM            

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Yep, moon in Virgo 11th inconjunct Saturn, Saturn in 4th, sometimes I wonder if I'm human at all, or just someone that feels only depression now and again. I never open up, unless they are some kind of soulmate that makes me feel human again.

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posted March 22, 2014 12:17 PM            

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Yes... I used to do it and I still do it! It's really difficult for me to express my true feelings and at times simply feelings... So if I m upset about something or feeling depressed I go to my bathroom and cry until I feel better!!! I cry and cry a lot and try my best to hide my feelings.

P.S. I have Moon in Scorpio and it is said that we are extremely secretive in nature and I think that's why I am not able to convey my feelings and emotions as the Moon placement tells how you connect to people on emotional level! I m secretive about my emotions and feelings and it's difficult to express them.

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