posted April 17, 2014 01:43 AM            

I have so much unresolved pain and fear in my subconscious yet its so hard to let out since its all so intense and deep. This transit just heightens that problem and makes me feel like **** I just want to be able to let it all out and feel everything I've held back for so long.. I'm writing my heart out right now but I can't pretend to be happy and positive when I have all of this unresolved crap inside of me.

Plus being a guy makes it harder to express emotions as society is still so backwards about it. I can't cry in front of people, I can't talk to people about what I've kept balled up inside for nearly 15 years, nothing. People view it as weak and feminine. Well **** them and their ignorant backwards opinions. I've held it in for way too long and it needs to come out. Its holding me back my life and my growth and I need to die before I am reborn again..

posted April 18, 2014 05:06 AM            

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Originally posted by Supreme cT:
I have been feeling very frustrated and just lonely lately and BAM saturn is squaring my moon in aquarius i knew something had to be making me feel this way i have the square and you have the conjunction i REALLY dont like when saturn aspects our moon i just feel more depressed and just pretty much all my needs just arent being met and its really frustrating ! I dont even feel that social anymore i just rather sit in my room watch movies/ play games cuz i feel like nobody is here for me lmao just do your best to cleanse your inner self, i find it ironic how saturn is aspecting my moon and moon in our charts also means our mother and also to a point our relationships with other girls and i broke up with my gf like 3 weeks ago i believe saturn is wising me up and helping me make the right choice for my life but its really hard and now that im single all the girls that wanted me arent even payin me any attention lmao! A brotha cant even get a rebound out here haha man saturn is hard on us btw have u realized for you that its been harder to get a girl or just girls arent really feelin you as much? Im goin through the craziest dry spell smh its gonna suck and your gonna feel like nobody cares or wants to help you but we should both be better people when this transit is over btw i kno since you have conjunction its a little different but we both have hard aspects to our moon Your not alone in this struggle :/

Btw i see that saturn is retrograde right now wtf ! I dont kno how long its gonna stay retro but it needs to hurry up out of scorpio already !!!! Also what degree scorpio moon are you?

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Yeah I realized Saturn is squaring my mercury and sun as well...lol its most definitely a transformative experience were going through though. Well im dating this one girl from one of my classes but i just felt really antisocial the past couple of days. It was baaad and plus natal scorp moon means i hide these feelings so people would get weird vibes from me and know something was up. My moon is 10 degrees.