posted June 21, 2014 02:10 AM            

Truly amazing lecture, it made me laugh and cry and very insightful conducted by an excellent researcher:

https://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability?awesm=on.ted.com_d0EzN&utm_medium=on.ted.com-twitter&utm_content=awesm-bookmarklet&utm_source=t.co&utm_campaign

posted June 21, 2014 08:50 PM            

It is in my 6th house. I've had an eating disorder since I was 16 (I'm 29 now). Apparently, it's common for those with Chiron in the 6th to have eating disorders, or have skewed body images. It is opposite my 12th house Sun.

In the last 2 years, Chiron has squared my natal Chiron, my natal Sun, and now it's squaring my natal Uranus and Ascendant. From the 3rd house (using placidus). In addition, Neptune is also squaring my natal Chiron, so yeah...

When Chiron was squaring my Chiron, I felt quite unwell, but it was difficult for me to get a diagnosis on what exactly was wrong. I also cut out a lot of people from my life who really didn't need to be there.

When Chiron was squaring my Sun, it was about relationships. I was super sensitive to rejection (which, as it turns out, was imagined!). Relationships did not go well at all during this time. Also, my dad wasn't feeling well, which was the worst part of the entire thing.

Chiron squaring my Uranus had a lot to do with my siblings and relatives, which makes sense because Uranus rules my 3rd house. At that time, I had a lot of problems with them. My relationships with them cooled off and we didn't really talk. I mostly felt annoyed because I felt that my sister and my cousin were taking advantage of my parents. I stopped communicating with them entirely for a while. I think the next hit will coincide with my other cousin moving to my city, so we'll see how that goes. We also had a bit of a falling out earlier this year, too!!

Chiron squaring my Ascendant has sucked so far. I've been having relationship issues. Robert Hand said that it causes difficulty in relationships because it indicates a time when my needs are at odds with my partner's needs, and boy is he right!

It has also brought up some family issues. One of my uncles came onto me a long time ago when I was 21, and I told my family, but they didn't really do anything about it, which I thought was kind of f*cked up. During the first hit of the transit last April, we all went back to India, and that uncle was around, and my whole family was so nice to him; hugging him, laughing with him, while I ignored him and told him to F off every time he tried to talk to me. I asked my sister why the heck they were all being so nice, and she said, "well, all he did was express sexual interest; not like he touched you, or raped you". I was like, WTF?? He's my mother's brother, for goodness sakes!

posted June 21, 2014 10:21 PM            

I too have chiron in the 6th and it opposes my chart ruler conjunction between Jupiter and uranus in the 12th and this conjunction also conjuncts my AC.

I never had an eating disorder although some people suspected I did I am sure bc I was underweight my whole life until I reached 23 years of age and after a few months of dating my husband my appetite opened up.....my parents eat boring food so I guess I just never had a big appetite bc of it; at least that didn't help.

However, until 23 everyone was trying to get me to gain weight so it did affect my self esteem..I had a very goood self esteem as a child bc my dad did a good job in that sense but that all went to waste in a way bc of everyone focusing on my weight blah blah blah...if you met me one way why are you trying to get me to gain weight? I guess my husband and I just started to eat out a lot and it happened naturally but he never told me he wanted ME to gain weight, ever; I felt he liked me as I was; perhaps that was the KEY! He healed that wound that I had carry around all through my teenage years.

Maybe that is why after him I was able to let go and my appetite opened up!

Interesting!

posted June 22, 2014 02:47 AM            

What does it look like?

Is it a skeleton key?

Or is it a rainbow key?

Does it matter?

Some keys are skeleton keys but they open doors to greener pastures.
And some rainbow keys open doors to mysterious levers which when pulled open trap doors below the puller.

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" We scream as we fall through the chute into a room of never ending synchronicity and a labyrinth of deja vu.

Then we see the modern version of Chiron sitting at his desk, he is wearing a suite, and he means business. He pulls out his brief case and he says, "spit," and you spit but don't know why.

When you wake up, you know why, but you can't put it into words. You can only sit there and wonder what comes next.

That is like Chiron...about to make a point, it sounds so good, like you're about to say something great, but it never comes.