posted August 16, 2014 12:33 AM            

I now have social anxiety an depression

Life shocked me in such ways that I find nothing shocking anymore, yet sometimes the simplest of things shock me.

Nothing feels real anymore. Life feels like a nightmare now.

I never new that feelings could be that negative, before now. (Which means since 3-4 years almost).

I see people freely having fun, taking nothing really seriously, and that perplexes me now, because I don't understand them, or the person I used to be.

I sometimes can't believe I'm the only one who's so cautious of life and the world.

I always expect for something negative.

Nothing positive happened with me since the last 3 years.

My life went upside down, it crushed. It's so much for me to take it that it ends up making me what I have become now - Someone who's delusional, doesn't know the difference between reality and imagination anymore.

I don't understand myself anymore. I have gone so far from my true self that now it's no where in my view, and it's hopeless to find.

I try my best, to re-become who I was before all that tragedy.

I cling to the past, the memories, the friends, the environments, the nicety of the people, my achievements, my self-value that was much better than now.

But it has all gone and changed. It's like an irreversible chemical change. It can't be the same again. It's like when a beautiful book has been burned in the fire by accident, and now all that remains is the ashes.

I try to look for the evidence in that book as much as I can, of my old self, before it ruined. I try to cling as much as I can to it. But it can never change what has already happened to me, my brain, my mind, me comfort and security, my reality.

It has burned it to ashes and that's all I'm left with now. I wish I knew how to make something better out of it.

Have you been through what pluto did to you?

Have you experiences pluto?

I'm 16 right now. It all started when I was 12, and the worst point was when I was late 13 to 14.

Now I am recovering from the after effects, but nothing really got realistically much better. Only mentally, do I feel a bit more recovered, but it's a very slow process.

I'm going to turn 17 this september. I can't even believe it.

xx

posted August 16, 2014 12:43 AM            

You're only 17(almost). You still have a looooooooong way to go. Being anoxious and nervous all of the time is a horrible way to live and creates so many problems. Life is too short and when you think of it your life already has a path, a plan for you. Don't stress over things that aren't in your control, s hit happens with or without it anyway. Live your life one day at a time and whatever happens, happens.

Why does everything have to revolve around Pluto? You do know that there are 11 other possible causes.

Pluto didn't do anything to me, my 12th house did. Your problems sound more like Neptune/12th house related.

posted August 16, 2014 01:27 AM            

The most important thing I learned is that the most beautiful souls have the hardest lives, because God knows they are capable of transcending those experiences, and receiving the gifts of being able to heal others from their wisdom.

posted August 16, 2014 01:46 AM            

You seem to be very predisponed to astrology.
I think you are the kind of girl that will develop great astrologic skills in less than 1 year, maybe. ( If you really want to be into it and it's not temporary, of course ).
I also think that you have good chances of becoming way more skilled than many people here; of course, with me included.
It's the destiny of many of those who have born after 1993. And it would be unwise to deny it.

~ I hope you feel better, I really hope so.

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But what I've written above, certainly differs with your actual skills and I cannot lie.
To be honest, you've been writing "cotidian non-sense" many times.
Also, many of your BML descriptions totally sucked.

But since you are 16, it doesn't matter at all.

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~ So, let's be patient until Time pours its blessings upon you.

~ Good Luck.

posted August 16, 2014 02:41 AM            

Thats at least what it sounded like to me. You are so young- why so fearful? You have a lot of amazing years ahead of you.

posted August 16, 2014 04:37 AM            

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Originally posted by athenegoddess:
I have Moon conjunct Neptune at 8 Capricorn. When Pluto went over this, I experienced a very dramatic change in my consciousness and reality. I discovered everything i thought was real, ISNT real at all but its a huge lie.

The most important thing I learned is that the most beautiful souls have the hardest lives, because God knows they are capable of transcending those experiences, and receiving the gifts of being able to heal others from their wisdom.

So don't give up. Keep strong and know the soul is all thats real and everything else is a creation by imperfect minds.

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posted August 16, 2014 09:21 AM            

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Originally posted by libran_dream:
Just really quick advice.
If you really think it's your Pluto that's making you unbalanced - turn to its opposite to balance it. It's the only way, in a sense.
Occupy yourself with pure Taurean things: learn to garden, work with plants, learn to cook, spend time with animals, introduce a workout system into your life(beginner weight-lifting would be best), learn to physically take care of yourself and others who need your help.

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That's a really good idea! I will try to do these things.

By your username, I see you have libra in you that gives you the idea to balance things.

Thank you so much! x

posted August 16, 2014 09:46 AM            

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Originally posted by MiaPluto:
That's a really good idea! I will try to do these things.

By your username, I see you have libra in you that gives you the idea to balance things.

Thank you so much! x

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posted August 16, 2014 09:52 AM            

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posted August 16, 2014 05:22 PM            

When I was young, I was very serious and felt misunderstood, of course our charts predispose us to behaving in certain ways, but we can always work on things in our own time. But anyways, I had a near death experience when I was 14, the doctors gave me too much anesthesia and I nearly died. But after this happened to me, I begin to see things in a whole new way. It still has taken me years and years to build my self-confidence and to get things rolling. But I've had a lot of life experiences since this time that have been useful.

posted August 17, 2014 05:57 AM            

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Originally posted by MiaPluto:
Ever since what pluto did to me, I can't look at the world the same way.

I now have social anxiety an depression

Life shocked me in such ways that I find nothing shocking anymore, yet sometimes the simplest of things shock me.

Nothing feels real anymore. Life feels like a nightmare now.

I never new that feelings could be that negative, before now. (Which means since 3-4 years almost).

I see people freely having fun, taking nothing really seriously, and that perplexes me now, because I don't understand them, or the person I used to be.

I sometimes can't believe I'm the only one who's so cautious of life and the world.

I always expect for something negative.

Nothing positive happened with me since the last 3 years.

My life went upside down, it crushed. It's so much for me to take it that it ends up making me what I have become now - Someone who's delusional, doesn't know the difference between reality and imagination anymore.

I don't understand myself anymore. I have gone so far from my true self that now it's no where in my view, and it's hopeless to find.

I try my best, to re-become who I was before all that tragedy.

I cling to the past, the memories, the friends, the environments, the nicety of the people, my achievements, my self-value that was much better than now.

But it has all gone and changed. It's like an irreversible chemical change. It can't be the same again. It's like when a beautiful book has been burned in the fire by accident, and now all that remains is the ashes.

I try to look for the evidence in that book as much as I can, of my old self, before it ruined. I try to cling as much as I can to it. But it can never change what has already happened to me, my brain, my mind, me comfort and security, my reality.

It has burned it to ashes and that's all I'm left with now. I wish I knew how to make something better out of it.

Have you been through what pluto did to you?

Have you experiences pluto?

I'm 16 right now. It all started when I was 12, and the worst point was when I was late 13 to 14.

Now I am recovering from the after effects, but nothing really got realistically much better. Only mentally, do I feel a bit more recovered, but it's a very slow process.

I'm going to turn 17 this september. I can't even believe it.

xx

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Everything sound so absolute and final I am really concerned for you.

But really,it does get better.I didn't know this at 18/17 either, but it really, really does.

I think that this subject of "living" is on a serious tone for you right now. Have you tried going to where it feels comfortable? Looking for relief in doing things that bring about a sense of "ease"?