posted September 22, 2014 03:59 PM            

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Originally posted by NeptunianSag:
I have the hard aspects in my progressed chart, and having these transits now. I feel like love is impossible and i'm not worth anything, either people just hate me for 0 reason and it leaves me feeling depressed, like i can't be loved. Is this a venus/pluto thing specifically? (especially the harsh aspects) Saturn transits my 2nd right now squaring my venus and saturn in the 4th, I feel like love is just impossible, i can't attract people for sh*t and my appearance is ugly.
Also when i think someone shows interest i feel like they are deceiving, and they are, it really hurts me to think they just feel sorry for me (Venus-Neptune) Neptune and chiron transit 5th. My love life sucks.

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I have Venus square Pluto and Venus quincunx Neptune (both under 1 degree orb) and I feel these a great deal.

I can't say I have had much trouble with my love life nor have I had much trouble attracting others to me (perhaps other natal factors influence this?) as I have been in back-to-back long-term relationships most of my adult life but these aspects play a role in my relationships.

For the Neptune part overall I have a very idealistic view of love and relationships and feel I fantasize often of what the "perfect person" for me would be like. Unfortunately I feel as though I haven't met "him" (yet?) but am beginning to soften this mentality as I get older. I am becoming more realistic. I wouldn't necessarily say it's depressing because I do love my current partner but I did go through a phase in the beginning where I thought he was "the one" (as I usually do) until the reality of the person in front of me came to light. I think the hardest lesson of Neptune is learning to balance your lofty dreams with real life and understand that while it is acceptable to have high standards for your relationships, there comes a point where you realize everyone has their faults and it all comes down to what you are willing to compromise on to have a good person in your life.

The Pluto aspect is probably the worst for me. I think I crave more intensity than any being is capable of giving (Moon in Scorpio doesn't help with this). I am a VERY jealous person - usually unnecessarily - and while I wouldn't consider myself "possessive" in that I try to control my partner's actions or behaviours, I do try to influence them in my favour via my thoughts or actions. It is a feeling of wanting to know that person inside out and backwards and wanting complete transparency in their thoughts and feelings - to quite literally want that person to be my "other half." The more intense their emotional displays, the better. I feel slighted and hurt when I don't get the response I desire from them. I know this probably sounds "crazy" but understand that I experience most of this internally. My partners usually never fully understand the depth of my feelings, which is the hardest part. I keep cool and collected on the surface (most of the time) and then deal with my disappointment/sadness in private. The lesson of Pluto here is to accept that the intensity I expect is not always realistic and to balance my life in other ways that are non-relationship focused.

posted September 22, 2014 11:16 PM            

Put it into Creativity, where it belongs. Those are two of the most Powerfully Creative Aspects there are.

You just have to harness them, and put them in the Right Direction.

That's what they are there for.

And for Heaven's sake, don't turn to dope.