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Topic: Saturn Return in Scorpio 1st House
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ana_bee
Newflake Posts: 18
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Registered: Aug 2013
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posted October 31, 2014 12:35 PM
  
It's finallly started... I turned 29 this year. Last year, when Saturn was sitting on my Ascendant, was already epic: I've gotten married and separated (he left me) within a year, moved back into my parent's house, and got offered a quiet well-payed job shortly before the project got canceled! I survived all three events surprisingly good. I had no job, no apartment, no husband, but at least I felt quiet fit and hot after losing 15 pounds or so. Sounds like bad chick-lit? But it all actually happened, pretty much at once. And then 2 months later I met the most wonderful person ... He's my current boyfriend and it feels like I've never been loved before ...ever. Not like that. And now... Saturn is coming back again! Three months ago, I got booked for a new project which was supposed to be a great starting point for something bigger and better, but I'm totally flooring this one!!! I never felt this incompetent and out of place in my whole life!! I just don't know what's happening... It's like everything is going wrong, what could go wrong!! Whenever I feel like ... Oh it's going to work out..baam something stupid happens, like yesterday when I was on my way to a meeting and my car broke down in the middle of the main road because the gas went out. How stupid! I was standing 100 meter away from the gas station! And things like that have been happening to me for the past 2 months. Just stupid little things, which add up to a big mess that could've been avoided. I feel like my irresponsible way of getting by, isn't working anymore! I knew before that I'm not the kind of person who makes lists! I always thought I could get by like that, doing everything last minute, it never bothered me, because it always seemed to work out perfectly! I wanted this project so badly, and now I'm totally ******* it up and dissapointing everyone, including my boyfriend, who actually got me the job in the first place. Yesterday we had a conversation and he told me that our art director would never book us as a team, again! I really don't know how to restore my reputation again, now that the project is almost over. I'm sorry that I bother you with all the job talk. I' m actually not that superficial! I know there are far worse problems than that... It's not that existential... But actually if I think about it, for me right now it is! I need financial independence! And right now I feel like moving back to my parents again, just hiding under my bed. I feel so small right now.  Is this what saturn return in first house is like? How did you experience your saturn return? Or is someone of you experiencing it right now? What is it like for you? And what are your ways to adapt to it, without leaving a huge mess? Do you have any advice for me?IP: Logged |
Astra
Knowflake Posts: 615
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Registered: Apr 2009
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posted October 31, 2014 02:57 PM
My Saturn Return ends November 4 according to astro.com though I think Saturn is supposed to return to Scorpio sometimes in 2015, so I guess I'll see lovely Saturn again….Saturn doesn't allow you to do anything half-baked. You are expected to plan ahead, set goals and work very hard to achieve these goals. Hard work is rewarded while slacking/procrastination is punished. I have no idea what happened during your big project. Are you the leader of your team? If so, you need to make it explicitly clear what each person on your team is expected to do and set deadlines. Break up the project into smaller chunks. Work on communicating with your team. If you are a merely a member of the team and someone else is the leader, then you need ask your leader to be clear in their expectations. Complete your part of the project promptly. If you procrastinate, you'll find that many unexpected problems may arise, which may be difficult to resolve in a timely manner. This will make you appear incompetent. IP: Logged | |
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