posted April 02, 2015 10:03 PM            

Called "Bread and Butter" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jfq1LqyGsE8

I've come to the realization, now that I'm single and wont be whined and dined any time soon. That my groceries don't last me long anymore. Plus my ex is winning and dinning someone else now...WOMP wommmp.

posted April 08, 2015 11:21 AM              

W.A.Y.S Jhene Aiko

At forty-four minutes to four
An angel walked up to my door
Opened the windows to my soul
Told me he thinks that I should know
That there's no slowing down
As the globe spins 'round and 'round
You gotta keep going, gotta keep going
Gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
Gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
You gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
You gotta keep going

If there's one thing that I learned
While in those county lines
It's that everything takes time
You have gotta lose your pride
You have gotta lose your mind
Just to find your peace of mind
You have got to trust the signs
Everything will turn out fine

So why aren't you smiling? Why aren't you smiling?
Life can get wild when, you caught in the whirl wind
Lost in the whirl wind, you're chasing the wind
You gotta understand
There's really no end, there's really no beginning
There's really no real, there's really no pretending
There's really no fail, there's really no winning
Cause nothing really is and everything really isn't

At forty-four minutes to four
An angel walked up to my door
Opened the windows to my soul
Told me he thinks that I should know
That life only gets harder but you gotta get stronger
This is for my brother, I do this for my daughter
That's why I keep going, that's why I keep going
That's why I keep going
That's why I keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going, gotta keep going
Gotta keep going

I gotta show them, that I can keep going
I gotta keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going

posted April 09, 2015 01:04 AM              

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Originally posted by Stawr:
I just stumbled on a devo song that pretty much sums up my life this week.

Called "Bread and Butter" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jfq1LqyGsE8

I've come to the realization, now that I'm single and wont be whined and dined any time soon. That my groceries don't last me long anymore. Plus my ex is winning and dinning someone else now...WOMP wommmp.

With Jupiter rx I've been having lots of food issues. From not being able to eat, and now that I have an appetite again, I my meals only lasted me half way through the month. I'll finally get some groceries tomorrow or Saturday.

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Hi Stawr. I really like this song. When I was teenager instead of listening to hiphop or pop or alternative or rap...I listened to oldies all day long. I haven't heard this song in so long and it took me back. The name of the song didn't ring a bell so when I read your post I was really feeling for you (I still am), but after I listened to the song I smiled. I understand you are struggling, but you're taking it in stride. You're taking the lessons and will be stronger for it.

One year when my first son was less than a year old and his dad was still in university, we ate tuna, rice, and oatmeal for 8 months. That was it. Things like bread and butter (lol) and milk were a luxury. I remember I called a food pantry to find out where they were located. The woman who answered the phone shamed me and belittled my then husband for our decisions. I just stood there on the payphone (you might not know what one of those is in this age of cell phones- lol) and cried. I found another food pantry. They were much kinder. We went there to get a couple of things. We were used to very little so we didn't take much. As we were leaving a woman stopped me and handed me a chocolate cake. I couldn't help but cry. I did a lot of crying those days. And I shed more tears in gratitude than I did in pain. The wonderful thing about these times is it is so much easier to be grateful, and gratitude in your heart is such a blessing- such a gift. Being forced to ask for help is also a blessing because when you have ask for help it brings deep understanding of what it means to give, and help when you are asked. It's the 9th, so I hope you got your groceries. I am dedicating my "all transits" song, above, to you Stawr.

posted April 09, 2015 02:11 PM            

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Originally posted by venus2tinkerbell:
Hi Stawr. I really like this song. When I was teenager instead of listening to hiphop or pop or alternative or rap...I listened to oldies all day long. I haven't heard this song in so long and it took me back. The name of the song didn't ring a bell so when I read your post I was really feeling for you (I still am), but after I listened to the song I smiled. I understand you are struggling, but you're taking it in stride. You're taking the lessons and will be stronger for it.

One year when my first son was less than a year old and his dad was still in university, we ate tuna, rice, and oatmeal for 8 months. That was it. Things like bread and butter (lol) and milk were a luxury. I remember I called a food pantry to find out where they were located. The woman who answered the phone shamed me and belittled my then husband for our decisions. I just stood there on the payphone (you might not know what one of those is in this age of cell phones- lol) and cried. I found another food pantry. They were much kinder. We went there to get a couple of things. We were used to very little so we didn't take much. As we were leaving a woman stopped me and handed me a chocolate cake. I couldn't help but cry. I did a lot of crying those days. And I shed more tears in gratitude than I did in pain. The wonderful thing about these times is it is so much easier to be grateful, and gratitude in your heart is such a blessing- such a gift. Being forced to ask for help is also a blessing because when you have ask for help it brings deep understanding of what it means to give, and help when you are asked. It's the 9th, so I hope you got your groceries. I am dedicating my "all transits" song, above, to you Stawr.

gotta keep going

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Thanks Venus2tinkerbell! Good to have a sense of humor for sure. I also think the eclipse played into this song. I had 8th house related endings. No more men giving me food, at least for now. I was crabby as hell the day before the eclipse. I was hungry threw a little fit about not having time and being hungry, and my car breaking down and not being able to shop. Then I went to brood in my room and I found that song. Way too perfect for my situation. I played the song over and over and realized how houmous my situation was. Humorous blues!
But luckily I have a dad who is a saint and he fixed my car up and was able to go!

Oh yeah my cousin use to work at a food pantry. Chocolate cake! sounds like wonderful boost from the universe! I had a wonderful boost from the universe too a few weeks ago, I had 130 bucks fall into my hands. A year ago I turned in a bank envelope that no one claimed.

Yep my food is treating me well.

posted April 09, 2015 02:17 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by venus2tinkerbell:
for all transits

W.A.Y.S Jhene Aiko

At forty-four minutes to four
An angel walked up to my door
Opened the windows to my soul
Told me he thinks that I should know
That there's no slowing down
As the globe spins 'round and 'round
You gotta keep going, gotta keep going
Gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
Gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
You gotta keep going, you gotta keep going
You gotta keep going

If there's one thing that I learned
While in those county lines
It's that everything takes time
You have gotta lose your pride
You have gotta lose your mind
Just to find your peace of mind
You have got to trust the signs
Everything will turn out fine

So why aren't you smiling? Why aren't you smiling?
Life can get wild when, you caught in the whirl wind
Lost in the whirl wind, you're chasing the wind
You gotta understand
There's really no end, there's really no beginning
There's really no real, there's really no pretending
There's really no fail, there's really no winning
Cause nothing really is and everything really isn't

At forty-four minutes to four
An angel walked up to my door
Opened the windows to my soul
Told me he thinks that I should know
That life only gets harder but you gotta get stronger
This is for my brother, I do this for my daughter
That's why I keep going, that's why I keep going
That's why I keep going
That's why I keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going, gotta keep going
Gotta keep going

I gotta show them, that I can keep going
I gotta keep going, I gotta keep going
I gotta keep going

Why aren't you smiling? Why aren't you smiling?
Life can get wild when, you caught in the whirl wind
Lost in the whirl wind, you're chasing the wind
You gotta understand
There's really no end, there's really no beginning
There's really no real, there's really no pretending
There's really no fail, there's really no winning
Cause nothing really is and everything really isn't
That's why I keep going

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posted April 09, 2015 02:38 PM            

"Extraordinary Machine"

I certainly haven't been shopping for any new shoes
-And-
I certainly haven't been spreading myself around
I still only travel by foot and by foot, it's a slow climb,
But I'm good at being uncomfortable, so
I can't stop changing all the time

I notice that my opponent is always on the go
-And-
Won't go slow, so's not to focus, and I notice
He'll hitch a ride with any guide, as long as
They go fast from whence he came
- But he's no good at being uncomfortable, so
He can't stop staying exactly the same

If there was a better way to go then it would find me
I can't help it, the road just rolls out behind me
Be kind to me, or treat me mean
I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine

I seem to you to seek a new disaster every day
You deem me due to clean my view and be at peace and lay
I mean to prove I mean to move in my own way, and say,
I've been getting along for long before you came into the play

I am the baby of the family, it happens, so
- Everybody cares and wears the sheeps' clothes
While they chaperone
Curious, you looking down your nose at me, while you appease
- Courteous, to try and help - but let me set your
Mind at ease

(Chorus)

-Do I so worry you, you need to hurry to my side?
-It's very kind
But it's to no avail; I don't want the bail
I promise you, everything will be just fine

posted August 23, 2017 12:44 AM            

Pluto trine my Sun, Mars transiting my 7th house, and Moon transiting my 8th (whew!)

Sorry Not Sorry - Demi Lovato (explicit version)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rceV7YNJDZk

And it'd be nice of me to take it easy on ya, but nah

Champion - Fall Out Boy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JJJpRl2cTJc