posted February 21, 2015 08:41 AM            

I've had a very emphasized 12H in my Solar Return last year (though the planets weren't falling in my natal 12H, in my natal they were in the 6H) and I was basically a recluse.

posted August 04, 2015 08:27 AM            

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Originally posted by Doux Rêve:
Do you mean your Solar Return Ascendant for this year falls in your natal 12H?

I've had a very emphasized 12H in my Solar Return last year (though the planets weren't falling in my natal 12H, in my natal they were in the 6H) and I was basically a recluse.

But I don't think you need to avoid having a 12H emphasis, unless you absolutely want to avoid that experience (though who knows, it might be useful to you and something you need to go through at this point in life).

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Yes, my solar ASC falls into Libra 12th house of natal (my birthday is coming in the autumn so I still do not know if it would not be better to avoid it in some other country).
I have solar Mercury sitting there aswell (conjunct natal Pluto 12th house). I do not feel good about this position. I still want to know how to possibly transform this energy.

posted August 04, 2015 09:11 AM            

Interestingly Sr Pluto was conjunct n Venus exact, too.

Anyway it was an EXTREMELY significant year for me, at the end of it (november) was the decision to lose weight for real and change my life, and that is what I did. Maybe it helped that the SR had Uranus on 00 Aries conjunct SR IC.

I was having a rather reclusive period that summer actually, but only in certain areas.
I was visiting a supposedly spiritual site in Germany in august, just to suddenly realize I was at the wrong place. lol
I mean it was a spiritual site, that was right, but my heart needed to be somewhere else.
And as I had stubbornly resisted listening to my heart all year, this was the break through, and I cut that trip short and went where my heart apparently longed to be. lol

it was probably an important experience, and to be honest, the reclusive period was a big mistake in some sense. I should have listened sooner to my feelings and stopped acting paranoid and pouty.

But this was important for the preparation of the transformation that set in then, still within the Solar REturn btw.

I am going to have SR ASC in my 12th house next year, too, and this time it is really in 12th house, like in the previous sign (but conjunct my natal Valentine).

Hmm looks like another preparation year, hopefully I have learned to listen to my heart sooner than the last time around!

The ruler of that Scorpio-ASC will be conjunct SR Mercury at 2 degrees (and Mercury rules my natal DESC)

the SR DESC-ruler Venus will be in 12th house of the SR chart, and in my 11th house. sextile Pluto, trine Moon, quinkunx uranus

I guess another of those preparation years.

posted August 04, 2015 10:57 AM            

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Originally posted by Meatballzzzzzz:
I have that this year. I have kinda shut myself off from the outside world and have been spending this year alone and reflecting feelings about myself that I have kinda hidden away. It hasn't been a bad year just kind of lonely, which I'm ok with so IME I wouldn't move because of it.

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posted August 04, 2015 11:11 AM            

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Originally posted by Freesia:
Yes, my solar ASC falls into Libra 12th house of natal (my birthday is coming in the autumn so I still do not know if it would not be better to avoid it in some other country).
I have solar Mercury sitting there aswell (conjunct natal Pluto 12th house). I do not feel good about this position. I still want to know how to possibly transform this energy.

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posted August 04, 2015 12:08 PM            

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Originally posted by Freesia:
@Ceridwen
So you will wait the next 12th house SR with no fear? what kind of transformation did you process after that year? Spiritual one?

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AT the end of the year I had it last (but maybe it makes a difference that it was highly aspecting my natal chart), I was

° ending my hiatus and determination to NOT cross path with a certain individual again (because I was simply paranoid and pouty)

° letting go of something from the past, well several things actually.

° taking responsibility for my own life
(if I am not going to live it, who will?)

° enrolling with Weight Watchers, and in the following 2 and a half years, dropping 60 kilos

° chancg of personal presentation and perception

° applying for a professional status-change last year (which I had just not received before, because I was so overweight)

° having been pushed more into the spotlight in my job, having to take more responsibility and official functions (sort of got shoved into the theatre-cooperation-organization-directon, still not sure how I ended up there. lol)

° attending several workshops (within my job) about literature-course, including scenewriting, poetryslam, performing, a lot of performing actually, doing those acting-exercises, which is such a HUGE challenge for me, but funny enough it is sort of always the same group coming together in these workshops. lol

In short I am pretty much doing what I was always supposed to do (or am approaching it slowly ) but what I never dared to.

° having finally made my heart speak to my head again. Yeah they were not on speaking terms for a long time, partly becauswe one of them was usually upset with the other, partly because they forgot how to speak each others language.

But I realized that my body (stomach, solar plexus) actually speaks BOTH languages.
Since then I figured out: if I don`t feel it vibrating in my solar plexus (or somewhere else in my body), it`s probably not real (the feeling)

° made the decision to EXPERIENCE life and not avoid anything out of fear for pain or heartbreak or embarassment.
And to NEVER hide away again.

It were quite some difficult decisions, and it is not always, easy but I honour my word I have given myself.

posted August 04, 2015 12:18 PM            

Maybe I simply will dream a little more, some more astral travelling. lol

But I don`t have any of these planets in my 12th house in natal then, it is only the SR ASC

I am going to have these overlays SR/N
mercury-Pluto in 2nd/2nd
Moon-IC conj. n Junoin 4th/3rd
uranus in 5th/4th square nSaturn
- now this one could be interesting. lol

Vertex in 8th/8th opp. nVenus

Jupiter-NN-in 10th/9th (Jup. conj. MC)

Mars in 11th/10th

Juno-BML in 11th/11th

Venus in 12th/11th

Saturn in 1st/1st conj. n Mars-ASC-Neptune-NN

If anything I am fearful of THAT.

But no, not really.

However it is interesting that Moon-Jupiter will be angulare on the IC-MC-axis.