posted February 22, 2015 05:45 AM            

I have 2 elder brothers. One is 1 year, the other is 2 year older than me. My relationship with the eldest one has always been a sore point in my life. He was abusive, there were times I wished for his death. Then I promised myself not to make such a wish again. He is very aggressive and so do I. So, when we fight things get really ugly. But he blows one minute, the next minute he acts like nothing but nothing happened. It is almost impossible not to talk to him.

One minute he is complete ******* , the next minute he is an angel. He caused some much trouble and pain in my life but still you know he is my brother…

With the other one, we always had good relations…

posted February 22, 2015 11:49 AM            

(Mercury in Virgo, 3rd house, square Pluto in Sagittarius, 6th house)

Because I was the eldest, I used to hit my brother and sister when they misbehaved or didn't do what I wanted them to do when I was about 9-10 years old. I was a kid and I felt like I was given the authority by my parents just because I was the smart, hardworking, and talented one in the family. My parents hit me a lot when I would do something "bad" because they expected a lot from me. It was not just my parents that expected a lot from me. My grandparents did, too, and my grandma would hit me with a log when I did something wrong. They have set a really bad example for me. I guess I took my anger and feelings of oppression out on my brother and sister. I would get mad at them at the slightest misbehavior and yell and hit them. That was a bad experience for me and my siblings.

Ever since I realized what I was doing, I swore to myself to never hit anyone or anything again unless it's for self-defense. My family still gets into violent fights every now and then. I slam the door and throw things at it when I'm mad just so I would avoid hitting anyone physically. My mom still gets pretty violent (whew Mars in Aries) and she gets mad pretty easily. She still tends to hit us when she gets really mad at us. I'm the only one with the less dominating Mars in the family, so I'm not really into hitting anymore. My brother hits my mom and sister sometimes when they get into fights. He gets so intense (Mars in Scorpio) sometimes. My sister yells and throws things when she would have her fits (Aries moon and Leo mars -_-). She doesn't normally hit anyone unless they hit her first. I'm the one that tries to avoid conflict as much as possible in the family.

And since we're talking about a harsh Mercury aspect with Pluto, you can expect some really harsh and emotionally damaging words that come into play when conflict arises. This has been true for me and my siblings.

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Gemini Rising
Sun in Leo (2nd house)
Moon in Cancer (1st house)
Mercury in Virgo (3rd house conj.)
Venus in Virgo (3rd house)
Mars in Libra (5th house)