posted April 05, 2015 01:11 PM            

My boyfriend and I had our first fight a couple days ago, it was short but horrible and nauseating because we don't want to hurt each other. I made it up to him with some very cathartic art and now our relationship is stronger than ever. I haven't seen him in a week and we are doing cleansing rituals tonight when he returns.

I've also met several new people (who have already intensely changed my life) and finally seem to have broken away from some old friends :/ One of them dream invaded me last night.

posted April 05, 2015 05:16 PM            

Mine has been awful, was sad most of last week, my boyfriend who is overseas has been quiet and not responding to my messages. It eclipse hit my 4th house - family. So was upset about abandonment issues etc. It's been a tough week! Hoping it will pass...My bf is pisces so super sensitive too.

posted April 08, 2015 08:22 PM            

I got my menstrual period during the hours of the blood moon, which were 5am - 7am on Saturday morning in my area. This is totally TMI, but relevant. I thought it was very fitting to get my period during that exact time. Blood moon, you rule my uterus. ♥

I had a big fight with a close friend later that day, but we talked things through and are working on our differences.

Today I was annoyed because someone solved a problem at work with the stupidest, easiest solution while I racked my brain for hours trying to find one. I was very mad and felt like a moron. Thankfully, my poker face was set in place.

I have also been experiencing some mood swings, from happy to angry to depressed. No apathetic days for me!

posted April 08, 2015 09:01 PM            

Instead, I remained firm, I fought for harmony, I was loving and understanding, and we made certain commitments to each other (at my urging) which would meet both of our needs and, instead of weaken, strengthen our marriage in the long run.

A few weeks beforehand, my boyfriend and I went through a very deep, psychologically intense experience that left me thinking very differently about some things; honestly, feeling somewhat changed. My husband didn't like these changes, either, since (secretly) he still longed to obtain total control over me, and 'ownership'.

You might say the eclipse led to my ability to fight for the relationship I have with my boyfriend, and stand up for myself -- to value my own happiness as much as my husband's; I find my boyfriend's ultimate respect for, and admiration of me to be a sort of harbour in which I mentally take refuge when everything feels a little too overwhelming. I value it -- highly. It also made me realise that I will never be the sort of person who is 'owned' by, or ultimately dictated by another. I demand equal respect. I'm also, eventually, hoping to be the sort of person who allows a fully open marriage. I just think that's going to take time.

posted April 08, 2015 11:31 PM            

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Originally posted by babybull82:
Well here it is Wednesday and I'm feeling 100% better than I did the day I created this thread. It's like all that heavy crying I was doing released demons and pain and everything else that was weighing me down prior.

The things, people and situations I was obsessed with a week before are no longer on my mind and completely forgotten. I am calm and feeling pretty good. It's odd it feels like someone hit the reset button on my mind and my emotions. I'm so glad I was able to solider thru and make out to the other side.

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posted April 08, 2015 11:47 PM            

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Originally posted by Aquarian Moon:
Let's see!

I got my menstrual period during the hours of the blood moon, which were 5am - 7am on Saturday morning in my area. This is totally TMI, but relevant. I thought it was very fitting to get my period during that exact time. Blood moon, you rule my uterus. ♥

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haha, got mine today. I've been drinking water all day. Wanted to drink something different like ice tea or pop(soda)
Only other option was juice. Ugh my stomach is way too sensitive for that around this time. Tried watering down the juice. Gross. Now I almost feel like I could throw up. It's been a death bed kind of day for me.

posted April 11, 2015 10:57 AM            

I just wanted to cry, and eventually I did when I arrived home. I don't want to love him anymore. I don't want to be vulnerable to him. It's true that the people you love can cut you the deepest. I want out. I almost want my feelings for him to DIE, but that may not happen so fast.