posted June 08, 2015 03:37 PM            

1. My contract with my current job is up and I have to move back in with my parents for the summer while I'm looking for another job. Their atmosphere is extremely toxic and I just don't want to experience this nightmare again.

2. I got fined today because I didn't have a subway ticket (yes, I did, except I forgot my card home and the ticket machines were "out of order"). The agent wanted to take me to the police station because I was trying to "flee" the seen and I had an "attitude problem" (Anyone who knows me knows I'm so quiet, it's impossible). What a joke, I just wanted to get off at my usual stop. End result: 120$ fine. The worst is my card was at home!!

3. I broke a (back) tooth a couple days ago.

4. I'm feeling a bit sad/depressed for no apparent reason.

posted June 08, 2015 04:58 PM            

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Originally posted by MineAgain:
I hate this transit. I feel as though I'm going through the same experiences I went through last year. It nearly got me killed!

4. I'm feeling a bit sad/depressed for no apparent reason.

Is this nightmare going to end already? Are you guys feeling the pressure too?

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posted June 08, 2015 05:09 PM            

After the whole "fine" ordeal happened, I wanted to contact my Pisces ex for no apparent reason. It doesn't help that he appeared in my dreams 3 nights in a row (I hadn't dreamt of him since Saturn left Scorpio in December). I started getting those vivid dreams like I did back in 2013-2014.

I feel very uncomfortable with myself right now. I'm slowly going back to being a recluse which I hadn't been since January. I just don't want to deal with people.

Things were going so well since late December up until last week, and suddenly, things started going south again. I was only able to breathe for a few months.

Why? Why can't one have a break?

I hope I won't end up broke again by the time this transit is over

Thank God, I'm off on Thursday, so I can cry my eyes out for hours. This is so bad. Just when I thought I was doing great, this whole thing hit me.

Seriously, if they were smart enough to install vending machines at every single stop, like this is the case in most countries, I wouldn't have gotten this damn fine (not to mention, the only machine I found was out of order and the driver doesn't accept cash over 5E bill, nor do they accept credit cards onboard). What kind of a country is this?

posted June 08, 2015 05:10 PM            

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Originally posted by Gracha:
I can relate because my venus in Taurus (2 degrees I know very early but I can still feel Saturn) and I'm feeling so unloved at the moment. I almost (but I called him and took back everything I said after thinking it over for a few days) broke up with my boyfriend over something completely silly and he was there, upset, but with open arms taking me back, I don't deserve him. He's a good man with a venus in pisces. I just feel so alone and undeserving of love at the moment.

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posted June 08, 2015 05:26 PM            

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Originally posted by MineAgain:
Same here ...

After the whole "fine" ordeal happened, I wanted to contact my Pisces ex for no apparent reason. It doesn't help that he appeared in my dreams 3 nights in a row (I hadn't dreamt of him since Saturn left Scorpio in December). I started getting those vivid dreams like I did back in 2013-2014.

I feel very uncomfortable with myself right now. I'm slowly going back to being a recluse which I hadn't been since January. I just don't want to deal with people.

Things were going so well since late December up until last week, and suddenly, things started going south again. I was only able to breathe for a few months.

Why? Why can't one have a break?

I hope I won't end up broke again by the time this transit is over

Thank God, I'm off on Thursday, so I can cry my eyes out for hours. This is so bad. Just when I thought I was doing great, this whole thing hit me.

Seriously, if they were smart enough to install vending machines at every single stop, like this is the case in most countries, I wouldn't have gotten this damn fine (not to mention, the only machine I found was out of order and the driver doesn't accept cash over 5E bill, nor do they accept credit cards onboard). What kind of a country is this?

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Ugh I can totally relate. All I want to do is cry. It's strange because I've been worrying about going broke, don't know why it's been in the back of my mind. My boyfriend has his venus/mercury in pisces conjunct my sun (aries at 0 dgrees)and he can be a bit wishy washy at times.

posted June 09, 2015 07:11 AM            

This is going to be a nonsense month full of nonsense, but I am going to try to keep calm and carry on lol

posted June 12, 2015 03:36 PM            

I've been feeling inadequate, unattractive and unloveable for the past week. My confidence is slowly decreasing for no apparent reason. I'm also starting to feel the despair and sadness I felt for about two years, again, for no apparent reason.

Those past few months were amazing. I moved to a new country, made new friends, worked hard at my job, looked/dressed better than I had ever dressed before, developed a huge crush on a guy who liked me back, had several suitors, attended many social gatherings ... I even was far more financially responsible than ever before!

However, for some reason, I'm not longer interested in this man and I'm going to back to pinning over some lost fling I thought I had moved on from. I really don't want to deal with this, not at all. Those last few months allowed me to heal to the point where I was happily flirting with other men, why am I dealing with this again?

Nothing triggered this sudden feeling. It just happened. I get flashbacks of those times when we met, the smells, the places. I don't know why this is happening. To be fair, I hadn't thought of these events since Dec 2014.

Not to mention, my contract is over and I have to move back in with my parents for the summer, so I am dreading their rules and the restrictions that come with their lifestyle.

posted June 12, 2015 04:37 PM            

My good ole buddy Saturn.. lol I'm absolutely freaking out about the transit. I remember Saturn in Libra opposing my natal Aries Venus being an awful time, same with Saturn opposing my Sun - my father died last year, I had a massive falling out with my family and decided to cut out two separate groups of friends who took the opportunity to kick me while I was down. Made me realize they're a bunch of sick f**ks and they've always had a weird resentment for me bubbling beneath the surface. Decided this was unforgivable and I haven't looked back. Don't care to turn into a pillar of salt.

But you know what? In the meantime I threw myself into school and work, and now have two semesters of straight A's behind me since I was so caught up in my grief I wanted to be productive. I also got into fitness and this is the best my body has ever looked. I kinda have like one friend left but honestly... I really don't miss any of those jerks! Hell, I'm kinda glad Saturn steamrolled my life (although my dad dying was awful but finally getting to validate the weird feelings I've had about his side of the family was for the best).

posted June 12, 2015 04:54 PM            

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Originally posted by athenaia:
Technically Saturn is still in 0 degrees Sag... I believe it makes the switch later tonight. I'm definitely freaking out about it and have felt very somber vibes since last week since my Sun is at 26 Taurus.

My good ole buddy Saturn.. lol I'm absolutely freaking out about the transit. I remember Saturn in Libra opposing my natal Aries Venus being an awful time, same with Saturn opposing my Sun - my father died last year, I had a massive falling out with my family and decided to cut out two separate groups of friends who took the opportunity to kick me while I was down. Made me realize they're a bunch of sick f**ks and they've always had a weird resentment for me bubbling beneath the surface. Decided this was unforgivable and I haven't looked back. Don't care to turn into a pillar of salt.

But you know what? In the meantime I threw myself into school and work, and now have two semesters of straight A's behind me since I was so caught up in my grief I wanted to be productive. I also got into fitness and this is the best my body has ever looked. I kinda have like one friend left but honestly... I really don't miss any of those jerks! Hell, I'm kinda glad Saturn steamrolled my life (although my dad dying was awful but finally getting to validate the weird feelings I've had about his side of the family was for the best).

They say whatever was left unresolved in December of 2014 is back for a reevaluation with Saturn in Scorpio.. we'll see if I need to tie up some loose ends. But I don't miss what I've lost and I'm extremely grateful for what I've gained. It wasn't easy, that's for sure. Thanks, Saturn.

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You have an amazing attitude... I love it.

All the doom and gloom is self-defeating.

Saturn will be squaring my Sun soon enough (again),

and this is a reminder of the changes I put in motion

several months ago-- one of which was also a gym

membership.

Not for weight issues, but because it just makes

me feel better... and I've been working so much

that I've been slacking a bit. :/

Meeting my Scorp friend tonite who joined with me, though

Onward and upward!

posted June 15, 2015 11:39 AM            

I've been feeling the affects since the beginning of June.

I just found out my job is closing in a month.

My dad just had a heart attack recently (thankfully he's okay).

& two of the guys that I've had serious relationships with in the past are both happy in love with their trophy wives while I'm still stuck stalking their profiles, lonely with no new man candy in site. It's very depressing.

It's funny because towards the end of Saturn's first run through Scorpio, I didn't want it to end. I really appreciated the since of maturity and peace I felt after going through such a transformation. Now that Saturn is returning to Scorpio, I feel like felt at the beginning of the last transit. If I'm not just flat out depressed, I feel ugly, worthless, depleated of energy.

posted June 15, 2015 05:02 PM            

At least finally right now, I 'sense' the deeper-calmer Scorpio portion ~~ so it's almost kinda like finding my peace-place again, finding my bearings and coordinates. So that's an important piece for me to find, right now. May help 'clear' things for me.

(I have Saturn-rx in Scorpio, Scorpio 11th & 12th Cusps, and a stellium of outer-planets with Vesta in Cancer 8th.) (Saturn trines my Vesta 8th within a degree of Cancer cusp.)
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I read all your posts. MY HEART goes out to each here..... And you know what? ... We're gonna be okay. I'm just sooooo glad to have astro-buddies here who have a depth of 'understanding' things.

posted June 16, 2015 08:38 AM            

I'm hoping this passes. Cause the clock is ticking. I will feel a huge weight lift off of me when I get this assignment done! This is probably the worst part of the class for me.

Last time Saturn was in the late degrees of Scorpio. I was running around like my head was cut off working and taking 14 college credits, spending time with ex boyfriend, and planning a baby shower for my sister.

I was an unstable emotional wreck. That was too much!

The teacher I have for the internship class I have now, was also my teacher for my intro class. When Saturn was last in the later degrees of Scorpio she told me how she noticed how great I started in her class, and how horrible I was towards the end of it. I told her I could barely keep up, once the 4th class I was in started a month later. Since she believed in me she let me do extra credit so that I could pass the class.

I am really hoping this time around, it will be a much more positive experience.

Also I hear this new moon in Gemini is suppose to be like a refresh button. God I sure hope so, cause I can't go on like this.

posted June 17, 2015 05:27 AM            

During the first transit, I was getting calls from companies for interviews almost every day. This time around, I'm not getting a single call even though my resume looks way better and I do have more experience than I did during the first transit.

posted June 17, 2015 08:01 AM            

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Originally posted by EmGem:
How long will Saturn be in Scorpio?
My asc is scorp 14*.
Can we maybe look at the positives? If there are any lol.

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posted June 17, 2015 12:08 PM            

For the past week or so, people have been acting quite rude towards me - all across the board. And last night was the final damn straw.

If this doesn't stop...I'm going to rip someone's f*cking head off. Add to that that I'm not feeling like my usual optimistic self, and that I'm preparing for a major surgery and I need to find the strength to remain positive about it.

posted June 17, 2015 12:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Gracha:

Just remember you'll come out a stronger person in the end. Its okay to cry and let the emotions out.

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