posted October 11, 2015 02:38 PM
Good Morning AmiYou know I have been thinking about my Moon MC conjunction quite a bit lately. My moon is squared by that Asc/Jupiter/Mercury conjunction in Leo, trined by my Saturn/NN conjunction in Virgo, and opposed by my 4th house Uranus in Scorpio. That 4th house Scorpio opposition is significant. It represents my unconventional upbringing, and my unconventional lifestyle (especially the way I raise my own children) today. 4th house Uranus in Scorpio represents the variety of influences I had growing up, and explains why I am very comfortable living what might seem like multiple lives to other people today. Every outer planet makes 4-5 aspects to my personal planets and angles. It's just a given to me that I will need to express myself in a variety of ways, and there will be very few people in my life who can handle or accept all of me.
There is a time and a season for everything. I've been thinking about my Moon/MC conjunction, opposite my 4th house Uranus where Uranus represents my lifestyle and home today.
I am very protective of my home and children. I spend a lot of time thinking about who they are and how to support them. I seek counsel from their father (who doesn't live in this country), and my own mother, father, and brother, but I am rarely dazed and confused when it comes to meeting their needs. My intense focus on raising children has prepared me for the volunteer work I do with children from war-torn countries. My volunteer work is one of my Moon/MC expressions.
In the beginning my work involved teaching and respite work, but I recently started hosting over the summers, and more recently I started hosting long term. This is where the conflict of the opposition comes in.
I love working with these children. I just have a heart that can feel their needs intuitively, and I am unafraid of the many challenges that comes with working with children that have experienced trauma. Although I have a passion for this work, this is not my own children's calling. When I bring these children into my home I am asking my children to become counselors when they are just children themselves. I am trying to combine my 10th house and 4th house, and it's not fair and doesn't make sense. There is a time and a season for everything. I've recently decided that I will no longer host children, until my own children are mature and independent. Still, when I am ready, it will be my 4th house experience/expression that supports my 10th house.
Concerning the Moon/MC square to Asc/Mercury/Jupiter, I don't know if the Asc square is really an issue. I really feel like my pretty stable Moon in Taurus is not really at odds with Leo. Leo does want to be the center of attention, but Leo is so generous. For Leo, giving is the only way to live. And I give from my heart, emotions, Moon.
My Asc is really for my family, friends, and the internet ƒº. It might be the lower octave of my emotional expression, but I have a ton of fun, so... My social and professional network can be described as a religious community, but really their work is focus on activism and education. It¡¦s a very professional environment, so there isn¡¦t really room for playful and mischievous Leo Mercury on Asc. But the people I love know just who I am. They call me reckless, childish, an exhibitionist, a dictator, a boat rocker, and a trouble maker. My sis in law thinks my life is the stuff of movies- one of those dramas that leaves you feeling kind of ok with all the messed up **** that happened in it, lol. All that said, my home is the warm and safe place that my friends, and even parents come for peace and rest. I¡¦ve got another place for my lovers- the dungeon.
I do feel a problem with Jupiter square Moon. I tend to promise more than I can deliver, or more than what is good for my emotional stability.
I also feel a problem with Mercury Moon sqaure. Mercury (conjunct Jupiter) can be either playful to the point of absurdity, or way too stubborn, or overly aggressive, and that just doesn¡¦t match my Moon. My family and friends get me and are not bothered, and maybe that¡¦s because they are privy to my Scorp/Uranus 4th house influences ¡K
¡KI guess you¡¦ll always see my Moon in MC settings. I might try to control my Asc and the planets there in MC settings. I¡¦m definitely myself when expressing my Asc, it just might be difficult to see my softer more balance Moon, but it¡¦s there. I think the big contrast is in my Leo Asc/Jupiter/Mercury, and my 12th house Sun. I don¡¦t really see them in conflict. It¡¦s just sometimes I need to be out there- way out there, and sometimes I need to be in- way way way in.
Again, I think it¡¦s Uranus that brings that prism effect- different from different angles (ha ha. get it? angles.), yet still the same.