posted October 11, 2015 06:05 PM            

I always wondered how a person with a Gemini stellium could have such issues talking to people! I'm always nervous and I get misunderstood.

Anyone else with this? Please tell me about your experiences :-))

Cafeastrology's description was a shocker:

"Without intending to, you often express yourself in such a way that people misunderstand your meaning or are offended. You may use flattery to win people over, but they can usually detect your insincerity if you choose that route! As your own worst critic, you may continually compare your accomplishments to those of your peers.

posted October 11, 2015 08:56 PM              

I can relate to that description that you posted. I do get misunderstood often--mainly my intentions. I do definitely project way too much nervous energy, and I try to work on that (but it's hard given that I've lived with an anxiety disorder for most of my life!). I don't flatter people, my Aqua mars won't let me. I tend to be a little too honest instead, so yeah, I offend people or just make them uneasy. Making friends for me is hard.

It's rather ironic for Gemini like myself to experience so much anxiety and blockage when communicating, but life is not fair. I did not get to grow up in an environment where my self-expression or personhood was encouraged, appreciated or respected. I was expected to stay out of the way and not be a problem. I was often ridiculed, criticized or mocked for any self-expression at all. So I become extremely introverted very young. When I was younger I was quiet a lot, almost to the point of having selective mutism.

I had, and still have, a hard time in "unstructured" social settings, where people just chat and talk about whatever. If there's a point or agenda to the social gathering, like school, work, rehearsal, etc, I can do OK. But if it's just for socializing, like a party, I'm totally lost and have a lot of difficulty asserting myself in the mix and there's so many social cues going on, I just get overwhelmed. I do better in small social groups or one-on-one.

I started channeling my need to communicate into music and writing early on and even that my parents tried to crush. They thought it wasn't practical (and on a deeper level, thought it wasn't something I deserved to have, because it made me happy), so I had to really fight to pursue my creative ambitions. I ended up having a severe mental breakdown before my 23rd birthday and have struggle with serious mental illness (depression, PTSD) ever since. Like I said, life isn't fair.

Music and writing are still very important to me, but so much damage caused by years of mental illness sometimes make it a struggle to pursue even the things that let me communicate and be happy.

posted October 11, 2015 09:03 PM            

Then again.. Sometimes I feel that people with Gemini Mercury think so quickly they have a hard time gathering their thoughts into something that they can put into words when talking with people. Writing makes it easier, because it slows down the process a bit and gives the person somewhere to PUT the thoughts as they go by, rather than just having them drift away. Not to say that I am exactly the quickest thinker at all times.. lol.. But, sometimes, I do have a hard time conversing with people, because my thoughts are all over the place. Then again, I do have Mercury very loosely square Saturn.

What else is your Mercury aspecting?

(EDIT: Thought I should add.. My Mercury isn't squaring my Ascendant. However, it does Trine my ascendant somewhat loosely..)

posted October 11, 2015 09:32 PM            

My heart goes out to you, I want to give you a hug. Feel free to over share here, let it all out, it's OK.

posted October 13, 2015 12:56 AM            

I also have -the being misunderstood. I don't know how many times I experience this. Luckily it's not with all people but yep, that's also very frustrating! You mean well and say something that people take completely different and they start to attack you Haha, I don't feel pity for myself. This is the fun thing, when you know about astrology you can work with it.