posted November 15, 2015 12:27 AM            

But anyways yea. I lost a lot of friends, finished hs, got a new iphone, but having tons of financial problems which i am moving out soon for, maybe with my soulmate. And im having problems with my psycho mom and overprotective stepdad whom im planning to move out of and make a love nest for me and soulmate 😂😂😂😂💜💗😙❤️ As in find a place of my own to live.

posted November 15, 2015 08:23 AM            

Any astrological interpretations I give you take with a huge pinch of salt, I am an amateur and haven't had any proper training but I've been looking at it for around 3 years and I know quite a bit.

You have Saturn in the 7th house and it's debilitated. This usually is not too great for getting married early. With anyone with Saturn in 7th, I wouldn't get married before 27 (your first Saturn return). Why you ask? Because Saturn only gives you things when you're MATURE enough for them. I'm not saying break up with this guy because you've got some terrible fate because you don't. It's just that saturn always needs to mature before he gives you things so I'd just say take things SLOWLY. Saturn will destroy things if you try and rush too early...

Also, the debilitation isn't too bad because Saturn in Aries is disposed by mars, and your mars in libra which is saturn's exaltation sign + there is mutual reception between the two so it means they look to each other for support. Another positive: you also have the karma to have a good husband because you've got an awesome Jupiter in the saptamsa and navamsa (which are both relationship charts in vedic astrology). In the saptamsa, its in Pisces and in the navamsa its in Sagittarius! that's great and a HUGE blessing! this means when you do meet the right guy he'll be worth having and will be well worth his salt; he should be a good husband, good with kids and will be supportive of your overall path in life!

You're saying you want to focus on yourself and i think thats great; it's good you want to get your credit in order. Make up some plans for the future; what do you want to do? What undergraduate was you doing at college?

What I find weird is you told me that you want to drop out because to me, it looks like your chart is quite supportive of higher education?? You've got libra ascendant and the ruler of that venus is in the 5th house in aquarius, aquarius is an awesome sign for venus as its the sign of its best friend saturn. 5th and 9th houses rule higher education and higher knowledge so that's quite surprising to hear...

I know you might be thinking why'd you type all that, it's just at 18 you're still a teenager (IMO) and your emotions can still run wild so just make sure you've got 2 feet on the ground when making decisions but remember that everything always works out in the end . The only indicator that I can think of that made you drop out of school is the fact that Saturn is currently in sagittarius and is therefore transiting your third house, which traditionally rules your basic education (so up to high school) and wherever saturn is it causes blockages and change so that might be why you dropped out? Other than that your chart appears to be really supportive of higher education (which is probably why you had the blessing for your parents to fund all of it)

You've got that 1st lord in the 5th with mercury and jupiter and venus (your ascendant lord) is friends with mercury and jupiter supports any planet its conjunct. not to mention the fact that your 9th lord mercury is conjunct venus and jupiter, two planets that really BOOST this planet up + they're all in the 5th house!! i'm really quite shocked you dropped out of school lmao. But then again, venus is more the money-maker and prefers the sensual things in life but despite that, I would say reconsider university/college. Your chart appears supportive of it and a university degree is always a good thing to have behind you and hey, be grateful your parents are able to pay for your university fees; some people dont have that opportunity... Idk if your parents were forcing to you do a particular undergraduate or if you even wanted to go to uni but I'd say think about what you want to do in the future and see if university is supportive of that.

i hope i've been of some help to you!

posted November 15, 2015 09:16 AM            

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Originally posted by m.blade:
First off all I'm gonna say is that I don't believe in this whole soulmate concept, we're living on earth and we're all incredibly imperfect, we all have desires and quirks and complexes; if you're looking for someone who can understand you perfectly, look to God and yourself for that not another human being.

Any astrological interpretations I give you take with a huge pinch of salt, I am an amateur and haven't had any proper training but I've been looking at it for around 3 years and I know quite a bit.

You have Saturn in the 7th house and it's debilitated. This usually is not too great for getting married early. With anyone with Saturn in 7th, I wouldn't get married before 27 (your first Saturn return). Why you ask? Because Saturn only gives you things when you're MATURE enough for them. I'm not saying break up with this guy because you've got some terrible fate because you don't. It's just that saturn always needs to mature before he gives you things so I'd just say take things SLOWLY. Saturn will destroy things if you try and rush too early...

Also, the debilitation isn't too bad because Saturn in Aries is disposed by mars, and your mars in libra which is saturn's exaltation sign + there is mutual reception between the two so it means they look to each other for support. Another positive: you also have the karma to have a good husband because you've got an awesome Jupiter in the saptamsa and navamsa (which are both relationship charts in vedic astrology). In the saptamsa, its in Pisces and in the navamsa its in Sagittarius! that's great and a HUGE blessing! this means when you do meet the right guy he'll be worth having and will be well worth his salt; he should be a good husband, good with kids and will be supportive of your overall path in life!

You're saying you want to focus on yourself and i think thats great; it's good you want to get your credit in order. Make up some plans for the future; what do you want to do? What undergraduate was you doing at college?

What I find weird is you told me that you want to drop out because to me, it looks like your chart is quite supportive of higher education?? You've got libra ascendant and the ruler of that venus is in the 5th house in aquarius, aquarius is an awesome sign for venus as its the sign of its best friend saturn. 5th and 9th houses rule higher education and higher knowledge so that's quite surprising to hear...

I know you might be thinking why'd you type all that, it's just at 18 you're still a teenager (IMO) and your emotions can still run wild so just make sure you've got 2 feet on the ground when making decisions but remember that everything always works out in the end . The only indicator that I can think of that made you drop out of school is the fact that Saturn is currently in sagittarius and is therefore transiting your third house, which traditionally rules your basic education (so up to high school) and wherever saturn is it causes blockages and change so that might be why you dropped out? Other than that your chart appears to be really supportive of higher education (which is probably why you had the blessing for your parents to fund all of it)

You've got that 1st lord in the 5th with mercury and jupiter and venus (your ascendant lord) is friends with mercury and jupiter supports any planet its conjunct. not to mention the fact that your 9th lord mercury is conjunct venus and jupiter, two planets that really BOOST this planet up + they're all in the 5th house!! i'm really quite shocked you dropped out of school lmao. But then again, venus is more the money-maker and prefers the sensual things in life but despite that, I would say reconsider university/college. Your chart appears supportive of it and a university degree is always a good thing to have behind you and hey, be grateful your parents are able to pay for your university fees; some people dont have that opportunity... Idk if your parents were forcing to you do a particular undergraduate or if you even wanted to go to uni but I'd say think about what you want to do in the future and see if university is supportive of that.

i hope i've been of some help to you!

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Well I'm getting tired of my abusive parents. They disrespect me and put me down all the time, my mom and aunt use to physically abuse me, now the abuse is mental and psychological and verbal. I also have bpd and bipolar 2 and my parents don't support my mental health. They think it's a joke.

Because of them, I always felt like growing up if I didn't have money or a nice house, I'm worth nothing (Where 2nd house Chiron comes into play).

My mom calls me fat when I'm a healthy size 12 and makes me diet, calls me whoree, s*ut, b*tch, you only care about men (I was single for 2 years before I met Jonah, was busy working on my mental health) bla bla bla, and she has mad issues and even made a speech about how her and my real dad's side (he's dead) are royals, militaries (dad and grandma grew up in military families), professor, and ambassadors.

After all my mom is former princess Elodie of Kuba.

I really need to leave not just for my credit sake, for my sake too. I feel like I've been living a lie being the scapegoat and the model daughter everyone wants to see on display because of my family legacy.

I feel like this queen of wands need to break free from her devil home.

posted November 15, 2015 09:31 AM            

I hope you've got a treatment plan in place. Continue seeing a psychologist and work through your difficult feelings. Try and meditate and observe your thoughts and realise that they are just 'thoughts'. BPD and bipolar are never easy to live with but most mental illnesses form from some sort of inner lack within us (for example as you stated, your parents were abusive)

don't worry though - have faith in God (or if you're not religious just the natural abundance of life and the universe) and all will be OK! Keep doing what you're doing, find something you enjoy doing and focus on it! See a psychologist, make sure you eat a healthy diet and make sure to take time out for yourself. Treat yourself as you would a young baby or your own best friend! You deserve it!

posted November 15, 2015 09:45 AM            

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Originally posted by m.blade:
oh and remember, mental disorders can be quite explosive as I'm sure you know. Make sure you've got a support system behind you.

I dont know where you live (your birth place is in Belgium but I'm guessing youre living in the USA??) but make sure you can find a good psychologist who you get along with so you can work through this struggle with. It will get easier as you go along, things tend to anyway!

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I did social work, I'll go back next year.

I have friends and a Bae for now. And I live in Canada, precisely in Ottawa the capital now since I was 9 when my dad got a job at St Paul uni, before I was in Quebec City.

Yea my mom is like an abusive matriarch here. She told my gemini rising sis once "who asked me to give birth to you" cuz my sister gave a rude look. She yells at my stepdad and disrespect him in front of the whole neighborhood.

My sis is golden child here and the pressure is worse on her.

And now she's forcing my sis to go to uni as well.

posted November 15, 2015 09:55 AM            

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Originally posted by HCtheQueenOfWands:
I did social work, I'll go back next year.

I have friends and a Bae for now. And I live in Canada, precisely in Ottawa the capital now since I was 9 when my dad got a job at St Paul uni, before I was in Quebec City.

Yea my mom is like an abusive matriarch here. She told my gemini rising sis once "who asked me to give birth to you" cuz my sister gave a rude look. She yells at my stepdad and disrespect him in front of the whole neighborhood.

My sis is golden child here and the pressure is worse on her.

And now she's forcing my sis to go to uni as well.

I have a psychiatrist and going to go apply for counseling soon at a community Centre.

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You know they say sometimes the people that are closest to us can be the ones that hurt us most... It's not your fault, it's hers. But just don't blame her so much, she probably had trouble with her parents and is acting by habit; shes doing the best she can as we all are.

Im glad to hear you're seeing a psychologist and have a support group behind you; these things are so important generally in life. It's always better having support than without right??