posted November 27, 2015 08:22 AM            

Natally, I have a mars conjunct sn opposing the nn. When Saturn hit, it showed so much light on this aspect. I started realizing why I never got far as I could have. I always thought oppositions worked as a balancing act, and I still think that but its much more to them. The opposition works like expecting things to go one way, but they go sour. Instead of doing something to change it, we stick with what we've been doing constantly moving away from one end of the spectrum. In doing so, we feel the void of the other half and tend to it while frustration from the previous side mounts. This becomes a balancing act.

I had the desire to move toward my destiny like any positive mars-nn would. My problem was, my actions. I used the same old actions, same old way expecting different outcomes. I worked so hard to become who I WAS because I felt like who I was was the best I could be. I was so far away from my destiny, so lost in my former days while my future dwindled.

When Saturn hit, I start having these deja vu feelings, like I've been here before, this feels familiar. I started reliving my past. Not as in trying to be the old me,but reconciling with it. Past issues cropped up again and it triggered flashbacks of how I handled things in the past. The sextile never threw it on me but rather gently showed me and left the reaction to me. I let go of everything old. My old mindframe, my old habits, they all felt restricting. My past wasn't what was holding me back, my DESIRE to be the old me held me back.

But the trine to my north node, it triggered a lot. I've made some shocking changes and I hear it a lot around town(Saturn is in the third). Its just, amazing. I took the opportunity to finally step out my comfort zone and my whole mind frame changed. For the first time, in a VERY long time, I could feel my soul again. What it means to be one, to be different, to be yourself because we are all special in our own right. How to push valiantly. I learned so much about myself, what it takes for me to be this way and that way. This transit has helped a lot.