posted December 25, 2015 08:51 AM            

I really have a problem with this aspect lol... my temper just runs off so quickly, and I can get really harsh with words and my actions. I am not patient, or say what my problem is in a nice and easy way. I don't yell, I don't hit, but my words can be really mean and so honest that people just turn of and doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore.

I am like a bomb ready to explode if something gets in the way lol. I just can't control myself.

Afterwards I get so frustrated because of what I said, and must appollogize. It's very hard, and it's not always enough, you know. I've lost both boyfriends, friends, best friends.

I am really tired of this. Do you think I can learn to be able to stop myself before it goes too far?
It's really urgent now, because my boyfriend is about to leave me, and I have to be really sharp if I'm gonna be able to keep him this time.

posted December 25, 2015 11:11 AM            

If your boyfriend wants to leave. Let him leave! Rather do it for yourself

I have Moon/Mars square too and I am tender with my emotions and react very sensitively to perceived threats and rebuffs.

I think aspects of the Sun, Jupiter, Mars and Pluto to the Moon tend to compound things (on an emotional level); You feel like people are jabbing you.

In my case,I tend to react this way within close relationships. Whereas with strangers, I just get annoyed or irritated.

I think that what may bring out the anger that much more is that sense of "But these people are the ones who are supposed to care for me. Why are they hurting me like this?"- this is with family, close friends and relationships.

So with these people, the reaction can be extreme.

Luckily there is a sensible way to deal with it. And this is how I work with mine.

The nice thing about this aspect is that it also adds great sensitivity and intuition; so you can often foresee a bottleneck situation way before it happens.

These "bottleneck" situations are usually brought about by things external to you. Not from within.

It could be an upsetting program that you see on TV(avoid that). Something you read.Or a social situation with friends who will/can say quite senseless and insensitive things to you.

Even those most closest to you will not know the emotional temperature you are in-at any given time(including your mother). So don't count on them to "know better" . And react from this vantage point.

Its not easy I know. Emotions are almost always on the surface. And something very small can set them off. So it is important to learn to detach from your close relationships a lot more.

This doesn't mean becoming cold or icy. But it means controlling the inner space people come into and go out from with you.

The intimacy that you want,that you are yearning for; the need for other people to "know" and sense whatever it is that you want. At whatever given time- is a myth.

You are the best person(and only person) for you. Everyone else has no idea of what it like to be in your shoes. So don't make them responsible for you keeping calm.

What I do is spend more time with myself than with anyone else. And I consciously control whom I interact with.

This may be weird. But I have never believed in spontaneous interaction with the "hopes" that all will go well with me emotionally.

That to me is like eating all sorts of food and expecting no stomach reaction.

So I am usually the one who initiates social contact. And if it is initiated on me(which happens often), I tell the person "let me think about it and get back to you" if my initial gut feel is unsure.As I always want to be emotionally response -able.

1)In relationships, always initiate the conversation. If that is not always possible and you feel "all sorts", tell your partner that you will call them back. Always initiate the momentum.

2)In intimate situations where the partner initiates contact and you are not in the mood(and resist it). Learn from that.

Always prepare yourself for that interaction If they come to visit, they are not there to get depressed, but uplifted.

And so intimacy may be a part of what they will expect to get. So don't ever agree to see them when you know that you response to that will be "iffy".

3)In work situations- where things are very stressful and there is a lot of flux, learn the rhythm of your work life and work with it i.e are you more busy in the morning or the afternoon?

If in the morning, arrive earlier than everyone and go through E-mails, outstanding issues and eliminate back log.

If in the afternoon, initiate calls and get the ball rolling. Don't wait for another to impose their agenda on you.

Its not always smooth. But you will blow up less. And that is what you want as you will NEVER completely eliminate this aspect- its a beautiful part of who YOU are.

I may have written an essay.I don't want to give you a manual for your whole life. I am sorry.

It's just that I know how troublesome this aspect is; I have it as a part of a T-square formation with Mercury.