posted January 08, 2016 04:10 PM
Wow ~~ eeeerie!! this thread and above lyrics are creeping me out today!! whewwwwww! brrrrrrr. O yes!Earlier today, I energetically had to break-off a Taurus relationship that had off/on qualities for quite a while now. *sigh of relief* to say that it's finally done. OFF completely. I had made that decision a while back, then kinda got seduced back into it, but today, it's done.
I'm the Aquarian part of the equation with my Aquarian Progressed-Asc.
I kept trying to Communicate (Mercury!!) an idea that I had been holding exclusively for HIM for OVER the past year+. I give way too easily (and, I like that about myself, actually, and want to continue to do so, AFTER I have my living-situation and economic sufficiency solved. I don't need mountains of money. Just what I need to pay my bills, with some extra for little comfort things, and extra on that so I can be my own little philanthropist-humanitarian--- laughing, that's my chart).
It must have been an Angel that was stopping the communications all along, because I was ready to do EVERYTHING just for FREE (aqua?) *duhmm~ME*?... NO, correcting self-talk, I say softly, that this was the most-Elegant, magnanimous and *Beautiful-ME*
Like Randall says, Everything happens for a Reason... And I Believe that that reason is for Good, and not evil. God(for me) doesn't want me going around prospering everyone else, while I neglect my own prosperity needs.
So anyways, I had a super down-to-THIS-HERE planet-earth grounded idea (for him, and for ~FREE) on how to make some money. (It was soooo freakin' easy for him, ~too. Wouldn't have taken a whole lot of 'extra'-effort (which Taurus loves).
I was going to do that just because I felt an affection and appreciation for him. My Venus Taurus, with quintiles to Uranus-planet within an 8th House Cancer stellium (Jupiter Cancer there sextiles with the Moon H9)?? Jupiter is the ruler of my Sag-asc. That's something for me to analyze about myself. I have Self-Value and working on that and ~Worth now.
I think I had given up on the 'money' part of MY equation after an emotionally scaring and very painful and economically devastating divorce. Like I never got over the emotional-loss during that time. When Venus is sad, how can she make money for herself. When Venus just constantly gives it all away.... still in mourning.
(Ha!! Stop it. Drying the tears. Laughing in a loving-way at myself, and being a very-good sport here)
~~~I'm soooooooo Doooonnne with it.
NO more. MY time and attention, Ideas and affections, have a Value attached to them. I'm sticking with the wiser ones in the background that have had some long-term faith in me.
Thanks for the GROUNDING moment. Thanks for letting me vent, and cry. Your music and lyrics were truly deeply part of a breaking-though moment in my life today!
So, ty to Thegrinning_cat, and VirgoPILL for your lyrics! (And Hi to Seimei.)
I've got ME a Destiny and a Future awaits. Thanks for support.
(music) Gonna Build a Mountain (Sammy Davis, Jr.) [6:45] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5YJ4w1J-4s0