posted January 29, 2016 06:32 AM            

I have very few Saturn aspects in my chart, and the ones I do have are flowing. Even though I am a Capricorn, ruled by Saturn (with the sun in my 12th), I really do not have much of that energy going on. I have more Uranus and jupiter on the whole.

Anyway, I struggle with this habit of 'retreating.' When things get very hard, I tend to go into Auto-Pilot and wait it out until I feel okay to conquer again. Whenever I DO have that motivation, I can move mountains in my life. It's actually wonderful to see. But getting there tends to be a process and I really have to find motivating tools for myself in order to do this. Lately, I have been feeling 'stuck' regardless of the amount of time I've tried to give to my career. My energy has not really been behind a lot of things.

That being said, suddenly these last few weeks I feel an almost desperate PUSH to get my sh** together, and it's bordering on unhealthy. I want to utilize everything. Currently, Saturn is squaring BOTH my venus and mars, and sextiling my ASC. I'm feeling this inner voice going "Stop, go for that run, you need to practice again, you need to apply for that gig, you need to email that person, WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE" all the time.