posted February 09, 2016 03:27 PM            

SATURN IN MY 7TH HOUSE (pluto also chilling in my 9th house) =

there's this view that saturn is this harsh dad. no, he's a loving father. he's not the dad that tells you you're stupid when you get a B on a test, he tells you you're lazy because you're obviously A student so the only reason you got a B is because you didn't work hard enough. he pushes you because without a doubt in his mind you're capable of it and there is no excuses for not reaching your potential.

i'm a cap stellium so i was excited reading about people getting in long term relationships with capricorns. i though 'YES MY TIME HAS COME!' .. nope.

saturn was like 'you've only had one relationship, yes you learned alot, yes you grew up, yes it was good for you at the time, and yes you have a better idea of what you want in a partner... but on a whole... you have no ******* clue' and it's true. it really is true. i came out of ^ relationship thinking 'i want A, B, and C' .. now i have a better idea of what i want but that might change anytime now.

my ex left my life properly in september. for a while nothing on the romantic front but i didn't care. because the 7th house isn't just about romantic relationships it's about relationships in general.

i have so many people around me right now. i've had a chance to make male friends, female friends, friends of all ages. there are places i go now where everyone knows my name and that is such an incredible feeling. i have found a brother and now have not only have him but best friends, close friends.. there is a friendship hierarchy in my life now. i've never had this before in my life and i never knew what i was missing. for someone like me whos teenage years had pluto in my 7th house - you have no idea what this means to me.

on the romantic front, flirting yes. but actual interest in them - no. was too focused on expanding my social circle, learning new things/new skills, seeing the world around me and exploring my potential...

until this guy walked into my life (cap stellium - mercury, venus, mars, neptune, uranus/ aquarius sun/scorpio moon). exactly my physical type.. the night we met we just laughed for a good hour straight before i had to go. he pursued me for 2 weeks then was gone. just like that. i fell for him so hard and so fast i was upset to the middle of January i'm not joking. even on christmas i was in my feelings about him. i wanted him so bad but he did not want me. frankly i think i came on too hard and too fast. i'm use to a pluto in the 8th relationship were we both jumped in asap.

what i learned - what infatuation feels like (again.. i forgot from the last time), i got to experience for the first time a guy pursuing me, i learned that in this arena i lack self control, moderation, too much too fast, i was greedy and desperate omg. i learned what it's like to be played and now i know what to watch out for, i learned how to pick myself back up and i guess for some comic relief - i found out that i really like guys that can do math lol it gets me going.

but what this guy brought into my life - when saturn was in my 6th house and i was in a rabbit hole in just securing my future i got tunnel vision. i didn't look at much more outside of my textbooks. there is so much i don't know about - math, literature, physics, current events, psychology, whats happening in the middle east.

this guy rolled up into my life like professor aladdin and i was jasmine on that magic carpet and he told me he would show me and teach me about the world (of math and physics) .. it was beautiful (math as the language of the universe - i melted). he dug out of me a thirst for knowledge i lost, gave me a different perspective on so many things. i started writing poetry again

now i met another guy (virgo sun/aquarius moon, venus in scorpio like me, mars in capricorn). my type but not my type. older man check (8 years older than me), physically my type omg checkkkkkkk, charming check, smart check, can do math check, he's just... yes. except - he has no material stability, and he was leaving very very soon. so i met him at a party and i was sure by the end of it he thought i was an idiot (i was wrong). we were just friends, i treated him like i treat my other male friends

fast forward a few weeks later- long story short it turned into was the first date i was ever taken on. the first time i went out with a man and he paid for everything, the first time when a man sat there and spend the next few hours trying to impress me, the first time when a man bite the bullet and moved in to kiss me (in the past i was always the one who bit the bullet) then confessed that he fancied me. it was honestly an amazing night.amazing amazing night. i never had this experience before and i'll never forget it.

we went out again, he was teaching me about economics and politics, there were debates because we had different view points. was affectionate. he used data to soothe a few deep core insecurities of mine that i had and i don't think he'll ever know how much it means to me.

but in the end he was leaving soon for a near 1/2 year trip around the world and last time i saw him, we were spectacularly cockblocked by a mutual friend

thats the good stuff. now the bad is where i learned my lesson.

what i learned - i need a rock. i don't need wind. i need a rock that won't move even when a hurricane blows through. i need a guy that'll make me feel secure and special. i don't want to feel like i'm always about to loose you. and most importantly what i learned - how to draw lines.

as a whole person he is kind, considerate, intelligent, and patient. he managed to win my respect which is quite difficult and obviously i'm attracted to him. but for all the good that he is.. it doesn't mean that he's the right guy for me to date, for me to get into a relationship with. and this is a lesson and new understanding that ill carry with me for the rest of my dating career. so i hope when he's back we can be friends

other minor people =
i got a few reminders on gossipy people. so many wonderful people came it i started feeling safe. but lo and behold a couple came in that snapped me back to attention. i realised that opening the door for wonderful people to come into your life is still opening a door that may bring bad people into your life

i'm never short on male attention as well, for the first time in my life i feel like i am attractive especially cause the two guys above both pursued me first before i was properly interested in them and all the girls in our group would talk about how they tried pursuing them and was rejected.

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so now looking back big picture i look around me and my studies is going great, my mind is sharp and keen, my memory is on point. i look at my friends and for once i have a group of them! i have people i can call on when i'm in trouble. if i wanted to i could go out with one or all of them every single night of the week. i'm happy. i feel so so happy. and i don't have any prospects on the horizon and to be honest i'm a bit weary. because even though i learned so much from everyone that's coming into my life, the growing pains still hurt. and who wouldn't be weary of pain.

but maybe thats good. at the moment i'm feeling towards isolating myself for a bit and just focusing on work for the rest of the month, and laying off social a bit. but in all, i'm happy, i feel like i'm looked after, the bad have not come for no reason and i've gained something from everything. it's like the universe at the end has my back. i'm only improving.

and looking at myself now and seeing all the potential around me for experience and learning and all the skill sets i can develop.. i feel like if i keep going at the rate i'm going i honestly can't wait to meet myself in a years time when the transit is over

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i don't know why this transit is so feared.. okay i do. but open your mind up to it. there's so much to learn and so many ways you can change and that's such a good thing! i'm in my early 20s right now and i wouldn't want to be thinking the way i am now at 40! we should strive for self evolution and saturn transits are incredible for this! embrace it!

anyways, if you read the entire thing GO YOU!
but i just want to say thank you lindaland for existing so i have somewhere i can put this up on.

posted February 10, 2016 06:37 PM            

Saturn is transiting my 7th too.

This morning I bickered with my boyfriend. He tells me I need to quit drinking redbull. I told him I need it on the days I don't have time to wake up. And he pretty much told me that I should just have nothing in the morning.

posted February 10, 2016 07:05 PM            

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Originally posted by sarahhm:

what i learned - i need a rock. i don't need wind. i need a rock that won't move even when a hurricane blows through. i need a guy that'll make me feel secure and special. i don't want to feel like i'm always about to loose you. and most importantly what i learned - how to draw lines.

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posted February 10, 2016 07:39 PM            

Mostly I've had issues with personal planet conjunctions, but I'm getting closer to my Saturn return now, and Saturn is currently opposing my Venus, which I would assume is similar to it being in the 7th house.

I'm looking for ways to get more 'real' about my relationships too. Currently feeling really tired and run down with the crappy men that I've let into my life and had things not work out. I invested way too much emotionally only to get not-so-much in return. Trying to revise my game plan here -- slow down, looking for lots of personal integrity and honesty in the next person I see and someone who takes things slow but really devotes themselves to me. This is something I'm really not good at!

Definitely feeling this transit big time.