posted February 18, 2016 09:08 PM
I have this placement, Pisces Saturn in 9th house conjunct MC.I'm not exactly sure if this relates to my father, but I do relate with your experience of religion.
My mom isn't super hardcore Christian (although my stepdad is), but she is very much set in her beliefs. She's always sending texts to read scripture and reminding me to pray every day and telling me why I should be thankful for God (.. or else), but for the past few years I've honestly felt this disconnect with religion. I'm not going to go into too much detail as to why I don't care for religion, but I will say that as a minority, I find it odd to embrace and pray to a God that was enforced upon others through threats, abuse, and often death.
My mom doesn't know that I no longer identify as Christian and thankfully she doesn't push too much when I don't offer much commentary to the scripture she sends, but I don't look forward to the day she does. I can just anticipate all of the guilt tripping that will ensue. When gay marriage became legal and she found out that I supported it, it seemed like all hell broke loose lol... So yeah. I just do as little as possible to fly by until that time arrives.
Besides that though, I personally say to go for it and live abroad if you can! And IT IS possible! I've read a few interpretations on Saturn in 9th and many had themes of natives not being able to travel/go abroad and I recently broke that myth. I went on a solo backpacking trip around Mexico for 18 days going to 5 different cities and did just fine and it was my first ever trip outside of the country to boot.
My mom wasn't that enthusiastic/believing of when I told her I planned on going abroad but when I bought my passport and plane ticket and successfully returned from my trip, I think she finally understood my passion and realized that I could handle myself in new environments alone.
I know I don't know your full situation, but the one advice I do want to give is to never lose sight of what YOU want to do in life even if others don't understand. You only have ONE life and as long as you aren't setting out to harm others in the pursuit of your goals, DO YOU.