posted May 05, 2016 10:00 PM            

Plus i found out my true love my Cappy bf is moving to the British army tomorrow and he got drafted. Me and my friends are trying to find a way to get him out but i dont know for real like he's going away. I hate my life hes the best man ive ever met in my life besides my daddy. Btw if you wanted to know his bday its dec 29 1994. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Ive also been thinking about my dead father alot during this period too and how i should join him, ive been having so much bad things happen to me in a short time.

Plus new moon is going in my 8th house maybe it means i should start something new related to heaven and death...

I know im only 19 but now i feel like my life isnt really worth much living i just work and go back to my shelter room and connect to public wifi. Love complications, no friends, hard to find somewhere to go due to bad credit.

posted May 05, 2016 10:47 PM            

I admit I can be wrong/incorrect but I had read that a bill to have conscription in the British Army re-start Failed to pass in 2014.
A search I just did failed to contradict that.
Be certain you are not being lied to and then blow that ******** off/forget it

posted May 06, 2016 02:18 AM            

I have a somewhat idea of how tough life in Ottawa was for you.

For the time being I live in Ottawa and similarly I plan on leaving this place..

Ottawa has always been known to be a depressing place.

It a government town either you work in the public sector or your struggling in minimal paying jobs.

I can't say anything positive of both the lower class and the public sector people(off topic I'm glad my username isn't obvious otherwise my boss and coworkers wouldn't be happy if they read that).

The lower class are really scum and the guy you describe above is most likely that type of guy.

I wanted to lay that out just so you know I understand. Its not your fault, your doing nothing wrong and your doing the best you can.

I understand how difficult living in Ottawa can be.

Off topic I just came back from Toronto last week and instantly got depressed as I was driving back here.

Depression is surprisingly high in Ottawa in comparison to other places in Canada. Again I'm emphasizing I know how difficult it can be and I understand.

Your abusive ex is a typical gem, yes Gemini men can be obsessive.

I would suggest staying in T.Dot(aka Toronto to people who don't know the phrase).

There the only people in Canada that actually hold the myth of "Canadians being too friendly" and Vancouver.

People are more receptive in these two places.

I wish you could do more for your Cappy bf, Capricorn and Pisces are a natural pair.

posted May 06, 2016 11:33 AM            

You got yourself out of an abusive situation, you're working, that is courageous, smart, and awesome!!!

Please don't let your happiness depend on what the boys are doing. Keep rising above your circumstances as you have been doing! And then maybe right man will be up there waiting, or maybe not, but you will have taken care of yourself, and that is so admirable and does your father proud.

posted May 06, 2016 11:34 AM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
Just cry it out and feel the pain, sometimes that is all you can do and what needs to happen. I am sorry all this is happening to you.

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posted May 06, 2016 03:27 PM            

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Originally posted by HCtheQueenOfWands:
Thanks for your support guys
But yeah now im figuring out with my Virgo friends how to bail him out of the army

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posted May 06, 2016 03:27 PM            

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Originally posted by Faith:
I think you are doing an amazing job!!

You got yourself out of an abusive situation, you're working, that is courageous, smart, and awesome!!!

Please don't let your happiness depend on what the boys are doing. Keep rising above your circumstances as you have been doing! And then maybe right man will be up there waiting, or maybe not, but you will have taken care of yourself, and that is so admirable and does your father proud.

Bravo to you, I'm so glad you are working on your issues.

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posted May 06, 2016 05:13 PM            

You have overcome so much and have tons of life to live. I know how it is to get worn down and STILL have a bunch of shite thrown at you.

You WILL get through this and you should be so proud of yourself. My Pisces Moon is sending a hug to your Sun.