posted July 03, 2016 04:05 AM            

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The thing is: I never had a realistic scenario of what I could do for a living. (Hello Neptune)

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lol! i have had a realistic scenario and it doesn't work as well...hello neptune !

i have had really hard time to read your post probably because overthinking and this virgo drive to categorize thing, i lost the whole picture and disconnect for the whole part sorry...

posted July 03, 2016 04:27 AM            

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posted July 03, 2016 06:57 AM              

You only feel like a fraud because you have super high standards for yourself that are hard to meet. Others know that you are amazing and multi-talented and wouldn't say so if they didn't feel you've proven to be such. Believe in yourself.

posted July 03, 2016 09:07 AM            

"Being born with the South Node in the 10th house indicates that the native should give less importance towards becoming famous and establishing a career-orientated life, and instead concentrate on creating a family and a beautiful domestic surrounding. In addition, a vital karmic request of his path is to promote his ancestral and cultural traditions, while also get involved with land and property.

As the Lunar Nodes are always opposing each other, a 10thhouse South Node gives a 4th house North node. That placement has been excessively analyzed in the respective article.

A 10th house South Node person feels quite comfortable in being a popular figure and in receiving places of authority. During previous lives, he may have been a famous person and definitely had excelled in his career. This placement indicates strong managerial traits, hard work and probably a lot of personal sacrifices in order to achieve that. Experience in work runs in his veins, and this ability also echoes in this incarnation. That can be particularly noticed in people whose 10th house also contains vital planets, powerful by sign or strongly aspected by other planets and points.

Such aspects will create a strong ease towards expanding in the same direction, and these patterns can easily reappear. The individual may have a tendency to seek comfort in them during his young years and can have extravagant abilities of dedicating to hard work. In some cases, even memories of works from previous lives can appear; the young individual will very easily develop business ideas of his own even in early years.

Of course, re-living the same patterns does not really help the native progress, as his soul path is now showing a need to move towards the opposite direction and pay attention to his family lineage, both ancestors and descendants. The 4th/10th axis of the Lunar Nodes is probably a hard dilemma that life can impose to someone. It creates the common stereotype of “work vs family”, and needs a very careful approach so as to establish the correct priorities. Nevertheless, a transit usually awakens his consciousness and the native will choose consciously to abandon old habits and strive towards new ones.

Curiously enough, benefic planets such as Venus or Jupiter conjuncting the South Node in the 10th can manifest in such a great way that the native really will not want to change his views concerning career. These two planets, especially if well-aspected, will make it very easy for him to raise his social status. Progress in work can come naturally, while also admiration from others. Therefore, such a native will have to fight harder within his own mind, as someone does not easily relinquish the pride of being a human who reigns and organizes, in order to do the exact opposite and dedicate himself to a family life. It takes strength and courage to choose walking the difficult road.

If you have this placement, reconsider your quest of power. Such desires might be very sweet to fulfill, yet what your soul really needs is a quite simple life. Success is not always dwelling in glory, and it is better to let such dreams collapse as they can only lead you towards vanity and emptiness.

If you have such a placement, reconsider your priorities in life. What is it that your really yearn for? What is it that makes you afraid of continuing your ancestral traditions? Many times, the only reason that stops someone from creating a healthy family is the anxious dedication to progress through work. Do you really need to achieve such goals? Are you even sure that you can? How will you feel if you sacrifice the option of having a family, and later in life understand that this was your life dream?

A person with a tenth house South Node must discover himself the blessings that a family life could give him. The North Node in the 4th indicates a karmic duty to continue the family’s kin, as there are some special traditions following it that should pass to next generations.

We should hereby note that the South Node is debilitating the power of any planet that it conjuncts, and this can even be quite helpful. Malefic planets are still remaining tough to bear, yet they are losing quite a lot of their potency. Of course, benefic planets are also operating less powerfully. Imagine the South Node as a gravitational hole, sucking energy from the nearby planets- no matter what type. The South Node is the entropy, leading the system of your own self towards stability and eventually decay. On the other hand, pursuing the path that your North Node dictates is literally allowing fresh energy flow to your system, negative entropy that protects your soul from getting stuck in stability (even if it’s of the type that you enjoy).

Do not forget that by fulfilling the life lessons that the North Node dictates, one can safely activate his South Node house again. In this situation, the native will be able to also concentrate on his career and even fame; however, the only way for it to function well is when the Lunar Nodes come to a karmic balance.

posted July 03, 2016 03:42 PM            

I really appreciate your input!

And you are right about the Gemini Moon...my mind feels like a monkey swinging from tree to tree sometimes...
I wish I could silence it sometimes....questioning everything can make life unbearable, really

And thank you again for the supportive words <3
Indeed, I keep having high goals and I am very merciless when I miss them (which is like most of the time)
Having a hard time seeing what is "realistic" expectation wise.

The traveling and the foreign thing - did you consider my Mars in Sag Placement for this?
Or the house of my Venus, which is also the 9th?

posted July 03, 2016 03:49 PM            

I didn't consider the Nodes at all - but you are right.
I'm very Cappy by Nature when it comes to work, achievement and perfection - I'm ruthless (I could work harder, I have to achieve this and that before I can be myself or just relax)

But actually, I really crave for being comforted.
I didn't get that where I come from and I miss it terribly.
This conflict is emphasized by the Square between Sun and Moon.
Always this: Either career and loneliness or family and failure.
I need having sense through work in my life (Moon is in the 6th House) but I desperately need a family as well.
Doesn't matter if they are my relatives or not, just a form of community that I care for and that cares for me....

posted July 04, 2016 02:21 PM              

This may sound weird but I'm really beginning to think Gemini Moon and thoughts of monkeys+trees is actually a thing. I've used the the same exact description many times lol!

Back on topic
Yes I looked at your Mars (actions you are prone to and your ambition), Moon (abilities you are most comfortable using and that come naturally), Midheaven (what you contribute to others collectively) and of course Sun and Asc.

Your Sag Mars is prone to travel, especially for missions regarding higher-learning / philosophical expression. In the 11th house this will often regard society and groups of ppl. Virgo Sun, with Gem Moon in the 6th shows an amazing intellect and analytical skills (11th house Mars adds even more intellect and forward thinking to this). You really are intelligent and not a fraud at all. 8th house Sun and Mid.H in Scorpio will give a more mystical depth to your work. Something about what you do (no matter what it is) must reveal previously hidden concepts to others. You must help others in the world to find deeper meaning in anything. Cap Asc gives you the ambition and drive to achieve it all. You like a profession that is respected. Sometimes it may take you longer to get there but you will get there nonetheless.

You have all makings of a teacher regardless of the medium. You may teach others through being an author who writes about and analyzes life / concepts. You may be an artist (graphic designer, interior designer, painter, etc.) who brings understanding to others through your art / design. You use it to convey messages.Or you may be an actual teacher/professor, working at a university. It depends on what you dream of most.

As mentioned before, the only dilemma of being very intelligent and analytical is that you have a tendency to over-analyze your short-comings more than your gifts. This is b/c intellectuals always strive for the highest attainment of mental abilities. Gemini moon usually does not realize that they are probably much closer to it than the many people they worry about seeming like a fraud to.

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Originally posted by thegrinning_cat:
Thank you so much, LittleBlackCat!!!

I really appreciate your input!

And you are right about the Gemini Moon...my mind feels like a monkey swinging from tree to tree sometimes...
I wish I could silence it sometimes....questioning everything can make life unbearable, really

And thank you again for the supportive words <3
Indeed, I keep having high goals and I am very merciless when I miss them (which is like most of the time)
Having a hard time seeing what is "realistic" expectation wise.

The traveling and the foreign thing - did you consider my Mars in Sag Placement for this?
Or the house of my Venus, which is also the 9th?

What do you think are important indicators for a vocation / future work in general?
Where do you look?

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posted July 05, 2016 11:25 AM            

2.) Astrology won't help you out of shame or feeling like a failure. You have to decide to purge that $#!T out of your system -- Seriously! You do not have to live with that. I am FAR less successful and less educated than you, but I do not let that $#!T gain an inch in my thoughts.

You deserve better thoughts and feelings than those.

3.) Those thoughts and feelings about yourself WILL run interference with your ability to act upon what you feel intuitively within you and make decisions about your life directino. Purge, cleanse, heal. It takes time, but you must determine it is a done deal and follow through.

4.) Get grounded. The best thing you can do for yourself as an intellectual is to have some kind of practice in which you practice discipline in order to develop it, especially something like meditation or deep relaxation, slow deep breathing, etc. This helps tremendously to settle you back into your body, because you are scattering yourself mentally (Moon in Gemini, Mercury square Uranus), and to feel confident you must re-gather those energies everyday. It takes effort, but pays off. You make time to do it.

5.) Based on how you have described yourself here, I am doubtful the chart you've displayed here is accurate enough for us to give you solid specific advice on what to do career-wise. However, assuming that you are Cap rising (not Sag), Uranus and/or Neptune and/or Jupiter are in far south declination possibly parallel your Asc. That's a lot of energy combined that creates the tendency for expansion-scatter. Get grounded. Also, you have Moon [25N54] contra-parallel Mars [25S14], indicating to me that you get re-sparked into action by every possible thing that affects your feeling capacity (Moon) and interests (Gemini). Get grounded.

The 'culprit' aspects are:
- Sun square Neptune, which brings subtlety, tendency for doubts, and weakened will power, but which points to the need for a more spiritual/psyche generated solution.
- Moon opposite Neptune-Jupiter: ADD/expansion-scatter tendencies. Learn mental/emotional boundaries, when to say "Enough!" for the day and put your mind entirely into rest/relax mode. Make sure you've got separation between your work and home/relaxation environments.

Unless/until I can verify your Asc 100% I won't attempt to answer your question as to what you should do career-wise, because I don't have locked in, very specific information.

But I will say, I can definitely see you need to be mentally/intellectually involved in your work, that you need it to give you variety and varied interests.

I like your teaching approach! Keep it up.

Every time you have a doubt about yourself or the 'failure' tape starts playing, play the 'positive feedback' comments from others in your mind instead.