posted January 02, 2017 01:16 AM            

Prior to that,Solar Arc Mars was conjunct natal Pluto and opposed the progressed Asc(mid year).

I remember a violent confrontation with a boy and his friends that wasn't my fault. It shamed me a great deal that I felt so much fear from that

After that,I started to be defensive, suspicious and timid. That was when Solar Arc Moon was square natal Pluto exact.

posted January 02, 2017 08:28 AM            

Thank you for your reply, I am sorry you went through all of that

I think what I will take from this is a deep struggle (something I want but can't have) when this hits exact. Since the opposition is of my Npluto is the 8th house, I am thinking it is a death of someone....probably one of my parents.

posted January 02, 2017 08:42 AM            

In june/ July 2013 pMoon was on my pDESC and square nPluto

in July Tr Pluto was on my pASc and opposing pMoon and starting to square n Pluto.

On july 15th my grandmother, the last grandparent, died.

Well it was a very difficult year for many different reasons for me, but also the year that marked an absolute turning point in my life in very good ways too. Though at that time it was quite painful.

In my case however it was a bit much with pMoon in Cancer also playing into this.

posted January 02, 2017 09:25 AM            

Your message is very helpful, my Npluto (Virgo) is in the 2nd house. Pluto rules my 4th house.

Npluto (2nd house) is in T square w/Venus (11th) and Jupiter (5th).....this T square has given me problems throughout my whole life.

posted January 02, 2017 09:56 AM            

As for death - yes, sometimes Pluto can mean that, but really, most of the times it does not.
in my case my grandmother was very old and she has been sick for many months, it was, sad as it was, due course of life.

I`ve been through Tr Pluto squaring my Moon and even solar arc Pluto squaring my Moon without anything bad happen to my Mom.
Though it is also true that my best friend`s mom died when she was having Tr Pluto squaring her Moon.

As you can see from that it is not really possible to say in advance what will trigger the transformation of Pluto.

Sometimes it`s a death, sometimes a birth, sometimes something entirely different.

In your case it is also the natal Pluto that is being triggered, that usually is different to Transiting or progressed Pluto having challenging aspects to natal or progressed planets.

if pluto comes from an external source like as a transit or progressed Pluto, then whatever happens might feel like fate is breaking into your life and you might feel like you are pretty much without control over things (which is never really true btw, jsut a feeling you might get). However if natal Pluto is being triggered, you usually have more of a control about HOW to direct these energies, in fact it can be very empowering (well pr or Tr pluto can also be empowering, but usually after you handed your life over to the universe or fate and surrendered the illusion of you can really control EVERYTHING in your life, thing is we do not really have control over live, but we are not powerless either. We are being dealt a certain hand of cards - that is fate, we do not have control over what cards we receive- but how we play them - that is the thing we absolutely can decide).

posted January 02, 2017 02:31 PM            

Ha, I am hopeful and frightened at the same time a relationship would be nice (sadly I don't think it's in my cards) but a pregnancy...at 47?....ugh...that is frightening.

I guess I'll have to wait and see

posted January 04, 2017 04:24 AM            

Yesterday a friend told me.. I remember how you looking for 2 years ago.. Today you looks like 42..

Today I feel me so happy because I feel me more completely. I am as I am and I not care about what other people think about me. Im an kindly person and that's my rights to be just me.