posted November 06, 2016 12:06 PM            

I have had my first hit march 2016, and i can't relate exactly what's going but sure i am asking about the meaning of my life, i am in some sort of seeking power but kind of self-empowerment but this self-empowerment has to be acknowledged by others to be effective if i want to reach my goals. I am trying to do a phd but i cannot find a research director who is sensitive to my research field...so if i want to do a phd i have to change my research field to be in the same field as the director in order to follow my path so to please the director, this is really annoying...

i feel like miserable sometimes, i have had special honour mention on my master degrees and i am stuck right now...i have neptune square MC at the same time fully misdirecting myself...

since pluton rule my 3rd house, it's like i lost my communication skills or i am becoming aware of my grammar mistakes at a phd level that put me on nerves. I am virgo rising so pluto is right on my 5th house cusp forming the square to natal pluto at the same time. So i will like to heard especially virgo rising people to know how they live it. But others are welcome.

Paradoxically, on the pluto transiting arc of retrograde period it makes a trine to my ascendant and a sextile to my natal uranus. So the pluto square pluto is like un-building my communication, my thoughts process to rebuild a new one maybe.

Generally speaking, i have strenght to assert but in the same time psychic block from the past disheartening blasting waves leaving me speechless. So it's sth i have adressed lot of times deeply but i think i can do nothing and live the void of nothingness in me and acknowledge it...