posted November 09, 2016 04:19 PM            

People with all kinds of aspects and astrological energies have felt suicidal. My advice is don't blame it on Uranus. Just do what you can to learn how to love yourself and remember that life is worth it, no matter what you've accomplished or not. Nobody on earth is worthless. We are all here for a reason.

posted November 10, 2016 03:40 AM            

I know it's hard when you have so many thoughts and don't know how to escape them (I know this, cause I'm a virgo with afflicted libra mercury) Or when you feel so restless and don't know how to relax your mind and body... but if you really work hard on trying to stay in the here and now and focus on just being, just breathing and focusing on your body or the surroundings, you can get the focus slowly away from your own brain... If you try to practice yoga or mindfulness you will discover that there is so much more in the world.
And yes you CAN do this, whatever your chart tells you. Your chart is just some basic info about YOU. But you can CHANGE throughout your life. Life is a process, it never stays the same.
You can work towards your goals and achieve whatever you want.

I think its noticable that you love music, cause listening to music is what exactly brings you back to the here and now, and focusing on something else than your thoughts.

Thoughts and feelings always comes and go, they don't control YOU or what YOU want.

posted November 10, 2016 04:33 AM            

Anyways, try to change your perspective about life. Life is a big adventure. When you can't help but desperately want to leave your existance behind because you're bored, because you think this life is not worthliving;

try to remember life is unpredictable. It's exciting. Survival; such an adventure...

I have mars neptune conjunct in the 12th house. And my moon is opposing neptune.
Uranus is making an exact conjuction to my midheaven which is in Scorpio and Pluto is causing a havoc in my chart.

And I have a dozen of other aspects that have the potential to bury me alive...

But I survive. just to see what life has in store for me...

Besides, I know that I can end it anytime I want and that makes death very predictable... death is exciting only if you leave it to the hands of life...

lots of love and peace from thousand miles away...

posted November 10, 2016 01:47 PM            

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Originally posted by Radium:
I tried to take my life a few weeks ago. I got help and am feeling much better as of now. I have my life planned out and I know I want to make music for a living, for the time being I am saving up at my mom's place.

But something is very odd about me, I have to be entertained constantly or I will get unnerved, bored, or just pure careless. I still think about suicide but not because I'm depressed. The real reason is because I'm just tired and want to escape. Nothing other than music and some acting here and there really bring me any joy. I'm just restless. I get sick of this feeling and I wish it could just go away. Life just isn't my cup of tea. Normal things that satisfy most do not appeal to me in anyway. I don't know if this is more of a Pisces thing, my Aqua Moon and Mercury in third, or my Venus conjunct Neptune/Uranus in third. I have way too much mental energy going on. I've looked towards my 9th house and I've done plenty of traveling already at 21. I just feel erratic and on the go. When I'm doped up on meds, playing music, or creating, this is the only time my brain can get rest. I am getting more in touch with my conscious mind and it's scaring me that this is the TRUE me. I feel too aware at times, like I can see everything. Weed used to help but I can't smoke right now. Suicide has always been on my mind. There's no escaping it. You can finally leave this place. I'm already over everything this world has to offer, money, family, cars, sex, houses, entertainment. I just wish the world was more primitive and conscious. Everything that matters doesn't matter. I hate working, mostly because of our deplorable government. I realized I had a problem once I tried to hang myself with my jacket lace, luckily it slipped but it still ******* hurt. Lord knows I just want to rock out and die.

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I hear you. And really understand.

I don't think that you want to commit suicide really, as much as you want the freedom to express yourself and live as you choose.

Suicide is more an act of immediate relief from NOW pain.And relief from pain and suicide can feel synonymous- especially in these moments.

So sometimes, when we are in immense pain. It is hard for us to look beyond that and think that life will ever improve.

Its as if for that moment ,we are convinced that life will ALWAYS be this way. So its not easy to look away from "what is" to see an ending that is different from the NOW.

The more in touch you are with the pain of it all,the more you will think of relief . And in this case suicide seems like the most viable option that will yield immediate results.

Would it be probable to perhaps seek relief from these thoughts? To distract the mind through other activities.

I prevent a bad feeling from ever getting to "that place" by being very vigilant of when I get it.

I listen to music, mostly classical/indian/instrumental or any kind of music that does not involve singing that I can understand. The idea is to have your mind "float".

Gospel(though am not Christian) seems to soothe my mind too. Because it is really praise and worship in essence of the divinity that is YOU

Documentaries involving animals i.e stories of migration, birthing season or plant life etc. help too. Not so much Lions hunting and killing buffalo. That's traumatizing

The idea behind all these is to disengage the mind and relieve it from thinking about things that it can do little to change in this red hot minute.

Try easing your thought patterns back from focusing so much on what is going on in the world, to what brings you a sense of wonder. And make an intention to focus only on that.

Sometimes the thoughts can gain so much momentum that they start having a life of their own. Steering far off from what they were intended to do i.e make you feel good.

What you are really saying here is that "'I want to feel good. But I don't know how to relieve myself from the thoughts that I have right now that are making me feel this way."

Suicide is not a "wrong" act per se. Much like cutting your arm off when your hand hurts is not "wrong". But it is a drastic act and is seldom what your true intent is(in the soulful sense of the word).

posted November 10, 2016 01:55 PM            

Coping thoughts:

"My anxiety/fear/sadness won't kill me; it just doesn't feel good right now."

"These are my feelings and they will eventually go away."

"It's ok to feel sad/anxious/afraid sometimes."

"I can think different thoughts if I want"

"This situation sucks but is only temporary."

You need to give yourself goals, purpose and assign meaning to your life and most importantly learn to enjoy the little things in life and focus on the positive.

posted November 10, 2016 02:01 PM            

ANGEL NUMBER 155

Number 155 is made up of a combination of the attributes of number 1 and the vibrations of number 5 appearing twice, amplifying its influences. Number 1 resonates with the vibrations of new beginnings, inner-strength and tenacity, positivity, attainment and success. Number 1 tells us that we create our realities with our thoughts, beliefs and actions and encourages us to step into the ‘new’ with courage. Number 5 appears twice, amplifying its attributes, which resonate with major life changes, spontaneity, making important life choices and decisions, personal freedom and life lessons learned through experience. Number 155 promotes the freedom to live your Divine life purpose and fully serve your soul mission.

Do not allow others to deter or hinder you in any way once you have made your final choice or decision. Only you know your true heart’s desires and soul calling. Listen to your own intuition and look to new directions and opportunities with an open mind and optimism.

Angel Number 155 suggests that you deserve some positive changes to take place in your life. Have the courage to be true to yourself and your life's passions and purpose.

Angel Number 155 is a message to take charge of your own life, do things your own way, and make positive life changes to benefit yourself and those around you. Although you may fear the unknown, your angels ask that you trust that these changes will be to your long-term benefit and advantage. Stay positive and optimistic about these impending changes, and you will find that all will go smoothly.

posted November 11, 2016 12:27 PM            

I understand its not a step someone makes easily,but lifes so much more

Last week was kinda like living hell for me,so the ideas of suicide attempt for attention of my family poped in my head,but i am way too spiritual for that risk,instead i found prayers for depressed people..and the next day i felt 10 times better

posted November 11, 2016 06:19 PM            

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Originally posted by florence:
Have you ever been in love?

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I've had a gf a when I was 19. Didn't last, but I was a different person then. Whats the point in love just so I can be hurt and scolded

posted November 12, 2016 07:08 PM            

And then, when it's been real .. It's given me peace. Also, not-peace, at times but in a good way. I hope that you can find that. Not to say, that a relationship can heal everything alone but sometimes opens doors in us.

posted November 12, 2016 07:46 PM            

I'm glad you are getting help. You are here for a reason. I think a crisis can help you get clarity, and it sounds like you have gotten it.

Moon conjunct Mercury in your birth chart indicates your need to communicate. It is part of your life purpose. What you feel needs to come out of your mouth or make some kind of sound. With the Moon involved this cannot be intellectual or mere casual conversation. You have to feel it, because it means something to you. You'll find it does to others too.

So music makes perfect sense to me. With this conjunction happening in Aquarius, it indicates that you need to communicate bigger truths or ideals with an audience, a group.

Your progressed Saturn has begun making an active parallel to natal Pluto (within 0°04'). Prepare for obstacles in which you may have to be creative and innovative with very little resources to work with. This is okay, because it means your creativity can find is solid basis in what is in you rather than in what equipment or outward tools you have to work with. Even with little or none of those you can work with simple sounds, written notes, etc.

posted November 13, 2016 06:45 PM            

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Originally posted by Sylven:
Maybe that's why you have been 'planted' here. To create and transform through creating. And, helping others to transform? Where's your node?
Have you been of service? That might make you less occupied and helping others will always heal us.

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posted November 20, 2016 03:57 PM            

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Originally posted by Radium:
I have a 12th NN in Scorpio conjunction ASC

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posted November 20, 2016 04:00 PM            

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