posted February 28, 2017 04:45 AM            

That opportunity could only pay me about 500 euro p. month, max. As part of my visa for that first year, I was not allowed to make more than that.

That visa ended in September and I began process for a NEW visa, which started in January 2017 (this year). In the months of processing, I worked as a freelance singer still, but was not allowed to make a certain amount of money, was not allowed to apply for "legit" work, and one of my friends crapped out on me by January in how much she could pay me for babysitting I was doing. I worked for a month with zero pay.

Now, since January my visa is approved and I am able to work, but I have sent my applications out about five times per day, called temp agencies, emailed every contact I know, and auditioned.

There are ZERO responses other than no.

I mean, 100% absolutely solid rejections.

I am told my resume is "interesting."

I am told I am a great candidate and have incredible talent.

I cannot even manage to get a temporary assistant job at the moment.

I feel like I am cursed and it honestly seems like all signs point to me never getting work here.

I have had Pluto transiting into my 12H since 2015, so I wondered if this is the cause - it conjuncts my sun and Jupiter there (I unfortunately have them in that house, conjunct one another).

In the meantime, because I don't get unemployment benefits while abroad, I am in trouble with my credit card companies in the states who refuse to help me wire transfer from my bank without paying an extra fee.

posted February 28, 2017 08:26 AM            

First of all, I see that Scorpio rules my 10th house, so Pluto and Mars are important. Pluto is in my 12th (has been for awhile), so that sucks, but it is CONJ. my natal sun and Jupiter, so shouldn't that be a good and powerful influence?

Mars, meanwhile, is transiting my 2nd house (finances), in Aries, so Double Mars energy there, and that should be powerful. Venus and my moon also just entered that house!

I had a solar eclipse in house 1 conjunct my venus and Piscess, which should be helping, not hurting, my artistic life (singing), but instead I am feeling downtrodden there.

posted March 01, 2017 11:37 AM            

You've got some really nice placements that will be good for you in the long run, once the Uranus Pluto square subsides.

posted March 01, 2017 01:42 PM            

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Originally posted by Cappi112:
[B]Beautiful, No i have south node in my 9th house (and I am living in a foreign country now), and chiron in my 4th, rx.
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posted March 02, 2017 04:54 AM            

I have literally received three rejections a day for my job search. It's making me really paranoid - if there is just no work for me, I'm not sure how to stay here.

Oof.

Also, thanks for the laugh with the football comment.

posted March 02, 2017 02:01 PM            

Pluto is certainly a signal of a time of life transformation and powerful, far-reaching actions. But the tendency of Sun-Jupiter folks is to over-reach, or at least to optimistically expect too much to come together too quickly.

Backtrack and see if your expectations were in line with your basic needs. Where did you over-extend.

Also, give things time to develop.

Were you running away from something instead of to something substantive and important?

You are getting in a bit late on the Uranus-Pluto square, which has Pluto coming to conjunction to your natal Sun while Uranus is about to complete its square to your Sun. Not bad, not too stressful, but the Saturn transits parallel your Sun while Pluto is there is pretty challenging.

It forces you to understand your choices within more important, but more limited, prioritized action.

These transits are a mixed bag of limiting and energizing/opening dynamics that hold tremendous potential if you are patient and find enough inner empowerment.

In fact, Jupiter is just now square your Sun nearly exactly, and after its Rx period will come back to square it again, creating more opening/opportunity. Be patient!

posted March 03, 2017 08:06 AM            

That's an unbelievable assessment. Yeah, when I moved to Europe I for sure was running away. I felt that way. I was just DONE, had had it, and needed a new slate and a new world. For awhile that felt awesome and inspired a lot of action in my life, but now things feel like they are hitting home and I'm doubting a lot.

I COMPLETELY agree with the need to be patient. I do tend to over-extend. I have expectations that are very very hard to meet. I don't want that to be a continued pattern in my life, and I want to act appropriately. I completely see what you mean here, and I've felt almost like I'm going through another Saturn return lately. Like, Okay, that and that and that don't work anymore and now what?

posted March 04, 2017 11:30 AM            

On one hand, I feel almost rebellious about the creative side of my life right now. The more I'm hearing "NO" the more I want to shove it in peoples' faces. So I'm writing, painting, singing, and posting every single effort out there for everyone to see - youtube, social media, whatever. I literally don't care. Eventually I hope this all pays off but I am pretty nervous in the meantime. It is hard to stay grounded. LOTS of meditation and prayer and yoga.

So am I nearing the end of it? I can't figure that part out. Or, do I have to brace for another year or two of being broke and jobless? My boyfriend and I want to get married soonish and I know a big factor in being able to plan that is uh... being able to pay for stuff!