posted March 05, 2017 05:57 PM            

Talk about being emotional. It was extremely hard to get out of my head, and as a 21 year old man, this is not a good thing. I burnt many bridges and lost nearly everything I've ever owned; from my living situation, some of my dear childhood/college friends, my spirit, my car, my livelihood, my family's trust..everything. I tried to kill myself in 2016 but failed, I was literally rushed and kicked out my moms house for simply not seeing eye to eye with her. She made me pack up my things, which at the time only consisted of my amplifier, guitar and clothes. I have been living on my own since 18, and crashing here and there with friends. But after my car accident last year I had to move back with my witch of a mother. This only lasted a month.

I was constantly put in situations which tested my naivety and dependence. I found out people's true colors and I found my personal power. With this progression I began to take my dreams and turn them into a reality. I got 2 acting agents (but no passion for acting anymore, its a backup) I got off my ass and formed my own band even though it's still very rudimentary. It is still in the works and we haven't played any shows yet but it will definitely happen this year.

When my moon was in 12th I complained a lot about my financial situation, I had over 10 jobs with this in effect. I was literally too emotional and unstable mentally to maintain a job. I did shrooms for the first time, had sex with older women (that I know) I was isolated most of the time, by myself, to the point of wanting to die everyday. I truly discovered my dark side. I discovered my talents and faults. I can now say I know who I am.

On my birthday, God blessed me with my Moon finally entering my 1st. I didn't think it would be that big of a deal considering its still in the last decans of Scorpio. But man, the difference is incredible. I had no idea how true astrology rang until this year. I was emotionally lost, just stuck and unmotivated to be happier.

Now I can see clearly, I just landed a boring ass job as a Lube technician (waiting for background check to clear) and now I can say I am finally ready to work. Apparently all I needed was rest from the world. Before my 12th house progression, everything came easy to me, and I didn't find the evil in everyone. I could coexist with the world and get things done. I was even betrayed by my friend to the point of legal trouble and still had a great psyche.

I find it a bit overbearing that the Moon has this much power on me. On us as a people. I was just in a funk, everything sucked. I was drowning in emotional distress. Considering I'm still homeless and all it is now way easier for me to get "going". Ive always known how to make my situation better, but I couldn't mentally do it. I was just tired. I guess this is what the 12th is all about (solace, isolation, and spiritual heightening)