posted March 26, 2017 06:51 PM            

I've had like 15 different jobs at 22.

I cannot seem to remain consistent, I grow terribly bored of the routine. For about two years now this has been happening and steadily gotten worse and worse to the point where I can't even focus on my job. I am certainly envious of most human beings, who have the work ethic to get things done and not get phased in this regard. No matter what I do (unless it's some type music/acting) it is VERY hard for me to find the spirit to keep grinding. I realized this is a problem because it is now interfering with my ability to progress. For those of you who know my current situation, I have another week before my first paycheck and that's IF pay card arrives on time. I do not know if I can keep going on like this, just for some ******* cash. I am always tired. Always hungry. And always having to keep my emotions in check. I have no privacy anymore since I have no permanent address. Pretty much the "world" is my home.

The good news is, I have found my spirit, through living my bogus ass Sun (Conjunct Saturn in 4th) I feel like this is just apart of my journey since I really have to apply everything I have just to get by. I am more conscious of my body (which makes me miles better at guitar, allows me to express myself with control and play for longer periods of time) which is nice.

My MC Aspects Natally:
Jupiter Trine MC (Luck with jobs, can get them when I need it but have hard time keeping one)

Mars Conjunct MC in Leo (I am very driven and hopelessly passionate towards the things I love to do, I will struggle to get what I want but I feel just being myself is enough, People seem to have high expectations for me in the workplace)

Mercury Opposite MC (Need communication in career, but have hard time expressing my thoughts, I am often overworked or undervalued)

Moon Opposite MC (I'd rather have the square, I constantly go between wanting to show my heart in my work to wanting complete privacy due to being pushed around)

Saturn Inconjunct MC (There is always some type of roadblock in my career, from me getting where I want to be, bad timing, unlucky employee situations)

Transits have really been kicking my ass though. I currently have Saturn in the 2nd and Uranus in the 6th (squaring Venus, Neptune AND my natal Uranus) I believe this is a huge factor in the way I feel right now. Prior to entering my sixth house I wasn't as rebellious.

posted March 27, 2017 12:14 AM            

I appreciate you are trying to see the positive in your aspects and understand your pain and struggle.

posted March 27, 2017 01:43 AM            

I wouldn't say that there are inherent "bad" aspects. But there are challenges.

I am restless too and can find it hard to remain emotionally detached from a job.

Because a job is what we do to sustain ourselves, it can get very personal.

posted March 28, 2017 08:37 PM            

Even though I don't always respond I do follow what you post here and I know you're going through a rough time. However, the contributing factors are actually entirely different from what you've listed here, natally and in trends. You'll get the first phase of relief once Uranus gets to about 23-26 Aries, and the second phase once Pluto gets to 20-23 Capricorn. Third stage of relief comes awhile after that.

No doubt it is a tough time for you. I can see it in both transits and progressions. But hang in there and fight hard to counter the negatives with something positive that transcends these temporal material circumstances. You are better than the worst others offer you or the lowest expectations society may seem to have for you.

I won't say anymore than that now, because I don't want to step on the premise of your thread when it is obvious you are sincere and studying your chart. But feel free to contact me by email if you want to get more into details.

posted March 28, 2017 09:50 PM            

The other day at my job a really cool co-worker told me that if you keep your arms closer to your body you will have more strength. Believe it or not I never knew that, and ever since he told me this little fact I have noticed the change in my physical awareness. Just by focusing on my arms and staying in control I have became more "conscious"... I can never stop thinking about it now, I never had the thought to focus on my body movements ..

With that said bro I had to quit my job at Valvoline because my situation right now has just been kicking my ass. I put 2 weeks in, starving and eating candy for lunch, running on little spurts of sleep , and having no money to get back to the shelter and back. I know this is mainly a mental problem but it's the truth, I honestly was putting myself in harms way just to find a place to sleep and eventually I know I would end up in jail...You can't expect me to slave under these hot ass car engines changing oil, rotating tires, and provide excellent customer service in this kind of position, I told them my situation and they were really cool about it but deep down I know I'm of no use to the team anymore and I am just in the way. I put in my hours and I am now waiting for my $400-500 paycheck next week...hopefully then I can get my new ride (that's actually the only reason I stayed - pay week has reset) there's no more need to waste anyone's time...

so anyways now that god has given me this gift to tap into my spiritual energy at will I decided to test this new power hehehe.. I was walking around once again jobless and had low energy (but it was just a thought) so I went to this high end restaurant in Nashville and I told them I wanted a follow up interview...so even though I always knew to think positively I guess I was never "acting" positive. All I did was keep my arms tight, stayed in control of my body and looked the dude in the eye...I talked to about 3 different managers but they hired me on the spot...(jupiter trine mc lol, sun trine ascendant working lol)

Instead of approaching this interview with a motivated approach , I was just kind of relaxed...I was just clear-headed and myself...(the first dude said I was a hippy lol and I'm a pisces sun) the 2nd dude which was the executive chef said I had great energy...**** all I did was answer his questions thoughtfully and walla...now I once again have another job lol...

posted March 30, 2017 02:39 AM            

You might have one of them, or both, but not know it.

posted March 30, 2017 03:49 AM            

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Originally posted by anonymidarkness:
It's completely natural to be unable to concentrate on something which you don't enjoy. If you force a person who does not enjoy playing sports participate in a basketball match, that person's body will be in the court but mind will be somewhere else. It's not ADHD or depression, it's your inner voice telling you to get your a$$ out of there and do something that you love doing. Now, if you don't listen to that voice and still force yourself to do it, then you'll have depression.

And I'm glad Radium is not compromising at all when it comes to his dreams :thumbs up: .

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Thanks for this.

I was just suggesting, because lack of concentration could be a sign of mental health issues.

posted March 30, 2017 03:54 AM            

I have North Node in Pisces, I could learn a thing, or two, from him, about following my intuition.

posted March 30, 2017 05:11 AM            

glad to see you back on your feet man, I was sure you'd get through that phase

just follow your heart, and the hope which shines in every human heart but most people try unconsciously often to put their own light out