posted April 13, 2017 12:52 PM            

When I am talking to people and getting along with them, it's like this demonic side of me comes out and starts thinking about their death. When I am holding a child I can't control my thoughts and all a sudden I'll start thinking about the baby being dropped and its head being smashed in; or if I'm talking to a friend I'll start thinking about just punching them in the face for no reason at all and it breaking out into a huge fight.

It's something that I've always dealt with.

posted April 13, 2017 02:26 PM            

As for my internet history, I look into everything, from the most innocent to the most disturbing. I've also read about many things, from the most innocent of stuff to the most disturbing (including books on serial killers, the evil side of the occult, and one that was actually titled something like "sex crimes in history") and if it disturbs the librarians then they have skillfully hidden it (this includes the librarians back when I was a teenage library volunteer who would socialize with them, some at their homes, outside the library). I think knowing about the horrifying things in the cosmos (including human nature) is a key to fighting it, both within myself and the world around me, and am simply baffled by the self-defeating strategy some practice of hiding from the truth because they believe to know about it makes them more vulnerable to it, or even thinking that not knowing some things somehow makes them virtuous.

I don't know if it's my Sag stellium (and possibly Jupiter Scorpio) and/or Scorpio cusp (also Cappie Lilith), but I'm aware of the many horrible things that can happen to me and others and it normally doesn't bother me. It's just there like knowing an asteroid could kill many of us with little warning, or even a particular bad solar flare could cause all sorts of death and destruction, and we might not even hear of the solar flare until tallying the damage it caused. It can happen, I don't believe any divine or extraterrestrial powers are protecting us from that, but I don't worry about it, and I don't worry overmuch about the people who want to do me harm, and just take for granted that I am alive because someone somewhere didn't act on an impulse to kill me (probably multiple times) or harm me in other ways (likewise, I've restrained such impulses in myself at times as well, even the one time I was sure I could've gotten away with it)...though I take precautions, have contingency plans, and practice some common sense (that is if I have reason to believe a threat is probable to manifest then I do what I can to act accordingly).

posted April 13, 2017 08:24 PM            

For both males and females they start with some level of truth to get you to start believing. But the rest of it is BS. If your smart you can figure it out.

A big part of it too is indirectly your giving off clues what you want to hear.

I did this once mixing facts that were unrelated but seam to be true and knowing what the person wanted to hear.

One of my first jobs was in retail. There was a rat infestation in the back warehouse. I told my Supervisor I think its coming from the cheap junk being shipped from China entering the warehouse.

He actually believed me, timing played a big part of it. At the time there was a look out for plants being imported from Mexico, spiders whould enter the base pot and then be transported over once the plant was sealed.

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
^^ I think everyone does internet stalking, is the digital era.

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I agree. Its analogous to shopping at the Dollar Store or Wall Mart. Everyone does it but nobody wants to be caught or admit it.

posted April 13, 2017 09:17 PM            

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Originally posted by DualGemV2:

I agree. Its analogous to shopping at the Dollar Store or Wall Mart. Everyone does it but nobody wants to be caught or admit it.

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Gemini Sun,
Capricorn Rising
Aries Moon
Gemini Mercury
Venus Taurus
Mars Cancer

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posted April 14, 2017 10:09 PM            

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Originally posted by Electro DGX:
Aquarius doesn't ring true for me at all, but Scorpio rings so true for me that it's scary.

When I am talking to people and getting along with them, it's like this demonic side of me comes out and starts thinking about their death. When I am holding a child I can't control my thoughts and all a sudden I'll start thinking about the baby being dropped and its head being smashed in; or if I'm talking to a friend I'll start thinking about just punching them in the face for no reason at all and it breaking out into a huge fight.

It's something that I've always dealt with.

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I can relate, I have Cancer sun sign and have thoughts like this sometimes as much as I hate to admit it. OCD will have this type of thoughts associated with it, what they call intrusive thoughts. Actually it is common for others to have these thoughts but they brush them aside , people with OCD or anxiety disorders are actually the ones affected by them. It's actually a fantasy played out in your mind, fantasies can be positive and negative.

posted April 14, 2017 10:14 PM            

he got pleasure from staring at rocks (for hours)

posted April 15, 2017 05:49 AM            

I resonated a lot with taurus, pisces and cancer (my sun, moon and mars/venus) not so much with my AC (leo)