posted April 25, 2017 12:15 PM            

I've come to realize that it's chiron

I used to think it was saturn, and later neptune, but after analyzing my moods and emotions during certain transits and comparing them, I'm now pretty sure those feelings come from chiron

I think excessive stress too, because that's a feeling which is caused by fear (saturn) and then restlessness (uranus); between them is the area where chiron orbits

but mostly, it's guilt and shame, which turns into emotional and eventually into physical pain

posted April 25, 2017 02:06 PM            

My Chiron in Taurus in 2nd suggests that i was either starved of affection/ grew up in poor conditions /have self esteem issues etc. And i really cant relate to any Chiron in Taurus or in 2nd house position.

Yes sure my parents were not affectionate,but i had a stable,happy childhood.

But if we are to look at Chiron more from the "teacher" perspective. Perhaps look at Chiron as the talent/ emotional understanding borne from "knowing" something and then choosing to give it away freely?

That Chiron like Neptune, can be selfless. But more focused in healing,compassion and holistic union of mind/body/spirit. Not from an intellectual perspective but really from a "hands on" mundane level.

Chiron in Pisces-An understanding/concern and willingness to care for those who are incapacitated, mentally ill, unable to care for themselves and vulberable in society
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Chiron in Leo- The desire to direct,mentor or lead people to self actualize or become more than what they know possible/forgotten. To awaken the child within and the dreams that served to inspire that child.

Chiron in Scorpio- To help alleviate,ease or erase fears related to sexuality,death and personal power. To lessen the guilt of wanting to express an embrace the "darker" side of the ego. And to acknowledge the need for mergence with another is really a hunger for complete self-love.

For me,Saturn is shame,suppression and guilt. I have Saturn in Scorpio in the 7th. And there is some shame attached to how sexual/obsessive my feelings in relationships can get.

Neptune speaks more about a sense of disintegration feeling confused/lost and looking further out of yourself for "guidance". It is when you can act helpless or out of your depth.