posted August 13, 2017 07:35 AM            

I have moon conjunct north node in Leo. 7th house. Im a huge feeler, always trusting my feelings and intuition first when it comes to anything. Especially when it comes to a relationship with someone else. That is just my nature, really.
Also, i struggle with balancing me-others. I either focus too much on others or i shut down and i dont interact with anyone.

Is that all?...

My love relationships are a bit of a mess though. The descendant is in cancer and my first love was a very immature Cancer that i had great chemistry with. But i hurt myself a lot not thinking about myself and trying to make him happy in any possible way. Stupid crazy love. Perhaps thats the 1st house - 7 th house north node dynamic too?
I still love him very much, but i attracted a more mature Cancer right now and a Scorpio has his eyes on me too. I dont know anymore, but my life is not all about love relationships. My main goal is having a stable career that will help others psychically. That is my definition of happiness.

Here is the interesting part that fascinates me.
My first cancer love changed a lot and even started talking about marriage and kids. He shared my views before though, not wanting kids and papers. I am uranus dominant.. not that traditional and norm-y. I dont see myself as a mom, or married.. all i see since i was little was helping others through my work. Marriage and kids really turns me off, but its not the end of the world, especially because i am young now and I change constantly.
The other cancer and scorpio, are also very pro marriage. I met some guys that were more like me before, but we didnt match emotionally and mentally in other ways.

This only makes me question myself.... is my destiny about balancing others with me and ALSO build a family/be a mom ? (Moon...)?!
The plot thickens.. in ways i do not know yet though.. because my moon is involved in a fixed cross with saturn (taurus), uranus (aquarius) and mercury (scorpio).

If anyone is curious..

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posted August 20, 2017 10:14 AM            

Moon conjunct NN sounds good: you know what you want, you can work towards that. Depending on charts used, my NN is in the 7th, when you use equal house, but conjunct the 8th when you use the rest, so I'm not sure what to think.

posted August 23, 2017 08:55 PM            

Going with your gut feelings is as much a function of Moon/Leo trine Pluto/Sag as anything else.

What you describe ...

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Also, i struggle with balancing me-others.
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But i hurt myself a lot not thinking about myself and trying to make him happy in any possible way

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... fits people-pleasing tendencies in your aspect Venus opposite Jupiter. That is a positive aspect of the two benefics at zenith to one another. Love and affection are dramatic themes in your life, but you may at times feel that to express your love to someone means growing in an opposite direction from what is right for you. Know that growth (Jupiter) and relationships (Venus) can find balance if there is a give-and-take dynamic.

You have Moon [17N03] contra-parallel Uranus [17S27]. This is like an opposition. It is an aspect of someone who is more footloose and may need to live out some restlessness first before parenthood and routine obligations are acceptable. It can seem to put the obligations to meet the needs of children and have such routines at odds with what you feel brings you the widest, most liberating experience in life. But that could change once you work out your life direction ... possibly as a sudden desire to capture motherhood before it's too late.

You have Sun nearly exactly parallel Mars. That is a pressing urge to move forward with what you can determine should be your life based on your ambitions and passions. So do it. Sun is also sextile Mars, so you'll get opportunities opening up if you only keep talking to others about your passion in life and interests, possibly joins some groups who meet often.

I don't read your chart as necessitating motherhood. I see more ambition and self-determination indicated as you have spoken of. If you desire motherhood later, I believe you will still have time.