posted August 21, 2017 11:47 AM            

A lot of what I've learnt has been experiential and I've just had to gather the lessons after. But now I'm really stuck and confused. I don't even know that we are supposed to try embody all aspects, masculine and feminine planets, but that's the way my thinkings led.

If that's the case, how would I embody my t-square which is sun opp Uranus, both squaring Mars? Or with an opposition like Mercury opp Pluto, how would I work with that energy?

Do you work actively with your chart in any way? Please give any e.gs

posted August 21, 2017 04:21 PM            

That means letting go of any notion of this or that chart factor as 'good' or 'bad.' They're energies with different types of potentials that can be utilized constructively, which is better than being reactive or destructive with them.

Let go of the 'supposed to.' Stay open to learning something unique no astrologer may even be able to tell you. I don't accept someone else's expectation for how I 'should be.'

Start with 'stuck and confused.' Transits of Neptune can color our thinking this way. Often those kinds of transits of Neptune are good times to pull back from astrology and open up the mind to new perceptions, to let go of the 'shoulds.'

I looked up your chart and you are going through the transits of Neptune square natal Neptune, quincunx natal Pluto, trine natal Uranus. So you might get some insights and better resolution to your questions by removing focus from them for a while and allowing your peripheral vision (subconscious), even your dreams to bring you the insights you need about growth and development. It may not be in astrological terms, but still useful to you. Then you may be able to return to astrology with new insights.

The t-square you mentioned creates a strong drive for free, purposeful, yet spontaneous energies that urge you outside the limits of the mundane that Taurus types like us would normally be satisfied with. (I was born on April 26th too.) It emphasizes expression of one's uniqueness through free actions and associations that enact change and unexpected influence upon one's environment. It emphasizes creative drive to re-craft your identity through actions based on no previous template or that create new ones. With fixity strong in your chart that may not be obvious day-to-day. The Sun square Mars part of it might.

posted August 21, 2017 05:00 PM            

I've being letting things surface naturally until recently when I've being trying to actually pin some of it down but in quite an intense way which, as you say, it's probably not working with the Neptune square.

It's not obvious day to day that I'm trying to recreate something new! Exactly.