posted October 14, 2017 12:33 PM
tone of voice .... so many shades of meaningIn this lifetime, even evident in grade school, I'd had the ability to command a stage, to fill it with presence. And I have a kind of authority because of speaking 'the truth' ... Truth is VERY powerful. I've been told that there's a clear-ring of Truth in and to my voice.
Feedback has been that I am Kind, and have passion and Compassion. I can also be subtle with my humor.. okay, ~dry. or ~wry. or something close to that. 
I remember confronting my Libra grandmother about a repetitive issue with her and the rest of my family. I asked her with directness, logic, kindness, and letting her know she was secure and okay with me.... What I said to her had a curative effect for all. She looked at me and said (without negativity, a compliment) that I 'sounded like a preacher'... She accepted what I had to say.
I've gotten into small ~public-like conversations at the back of the bus, on longer bus rides. Had people tell me I 'sound' like a motivational speaker.
When I was in middle school... my voice (in command-mode) could compel attention and I broke up fights in the lunchrooms, and the ones that broke out in the hallways between classes.
I was chosen for parts in community theatre.. even won a few side awards.
I was on evangelism teams with my church in the early 1990s. .... I DEEPLY DEEPLY Care about people.... and they 'feel' that with me, and they feel 'safe' with me.
.. So anyways... There was one time where a 'hood fight was breaking out in a bad part of town that we were in. I had NO idea that these people where using baseball bats to go attack others. .... I had spoken and prayed with a few people, who turned into being members of the same family, who were involved in the 'hood activities...
In the mean time, the school bus that gave us all a ride, kept circling the block, waiting and waiting, and watching what was going on....
.. I was kind of oblivious to the mobs. I only saw 'souls'...
.. At this one HUGE peak... I was standing in a crossroad intersection. All these people had STOPPED fighting. They stood in front of me... like ... they were WAITING for me to say something (to give a speech)....
.. And in that moment, I 'remembered' a teacher once saying to 'always' have something prepared to SAY when (on index card, an outline), you've commanded the attention... and they are there to HEAR what you have to say....
.... and omg..... I felt in a state of suspended-animations..... They were there.... in front of me..... WHAT was I going to Say? ..........
(They had stopped their fights. I had prayed with many of them...)
That's when I heard the horn blow on the school bus. The leader of the church's evangelism team was at the wheel... urging me to get on the bus.....
In one moment--- I was both relieved that I was being 'rescued' away from that situation. AND, I feel that I FAILED myself. That I was A COWARD... "BECAUSE" I couldn't connect-in with WHAT to SAY to all these who looked up to me.... Who NEEDED/wanted to HEAR 'A Good Word' ..... They were there! Assembled! .... and I still kick myself to this day for that.... {{awww. Self-hug}}
So. That was both thrilling to SUDDENLY realize I didn't just have a group of individuals in front of me--- but I had my first REAL 'audience' .... WHAT was I going to SAY? ....
I am always MUCH MUCH more comfortable with a script. Give me a script, a format of some kind ... and I can usually pull it off.
I need to feel an emotional-connection as well as being in an Intellectual-clear flow....
~Anyways.... Inside my Heart, out silently in public, others have NO IDEA how much I just Love them, (even though I don't know them at all). And with each and every person, I help them feel like someone is interested in what they are saying .... Laughing here too??? because I know that when I get into a passionate INSPIRATIONAL mode that I commandeer that conversation... until I suddenly realize that I was on-stage, with SOOOOO MUCH Caring....
Sometimes when I speak to one single person, it's as though the Universe ALSO has an Ear.... I can Hear the Resonance of Truth... Not just in what I have to say, but in WHAT I am saying.
And it's almost like God... telling me that AS I speak, HE speaks.... .... And it's my fervent deepest want that as I Hear the Voice of Truth, that I would ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS find the Courage to open my Mouth and Speak it.
So. On one hand, I have been full of crippling self-doubt in my life. I stumble awkwardly on my words, even screw up grammar very very often...
But over and over again.... When I can 'forget' my own self, and Allow Flow, .... I am INCREDIBLY Blessed with Right Words, for the Right person(people), at the Right Time....
And I am SOOO humbled.... when I stand in front of someone, and I have the OPPORTUNITY to speak into their Life. Because AS I speak simple words to them, ... I also Resonate the 'spirit' of those words OUT into the Collective Spirit... and IN God's Ear, and To God's Heart.
NEPTUNE Libra 25.50 rx in 10th House Libra.
trine SN-Mercury-POLARIS 27 Gemini
trine 3rd House Cusp 25.56 Aquarius.
Neptune trine Mars Cancer 2+
Mercury cnj Mars (out of sign)
Neptune 25+ Libra H10
Moon 24.56 Virgo H(9) (cnj 12238 Actor) near MC 2+ Libra
Pluto 24.25 Leo H8canc (Pluto-P.of.Fort-DonQuixote)
Jupiter 27.23 Cancer
Uranus 25.01 Cancer cnj PROCYON 25.10.
Vertex 24.53 Cancer (conj 11911 Angel)
Mercury 27.54 Gemini H7 (cnj POLARIS, Betelgeuse)
{{tempted very much to go into significant asteroids, but will resist}}
6th House Cusp 22.38 Taurus (Sun Gem, unaspected)
259 Aletheia 22.32 Taurus (Truth) H5
There are MORE things in my chart I would delineate...
in DEPTH... TOO MUCH Depth!!
In a SAGGI Ascendant WAY, Kind of TOO MUCH Depth 
All I can say right now.......
Is just, Thank you. Thank God, Thank the Universe,
And ESPECIALLY , Thank each one of you for having read this (if you did LOL).
My Merc Gem ... always appreciates her Audience! *hug*
(music) Love Song (Elton John) [3:40] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Ri96HlRCKI
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posted October 14, 2017 03:05 AM
posted October 14, 2017 12:33 PM
Asteroid Urania {muse of astrology} Libra on SPICA cnj Neptune H10 ...
posted October 15, 2017 05:04 PM
. Sure introverts does not wanna be in spotlight alll the time, but they are actually much better at feeling a room, observing their public beforehand and if they wanna the gonna take charge of that room as well and good as an extrovert. It's a myth, that introverts does not like being seen or heard^^.