posted January 02, 2018 07:54 AM
Mars is in my 7th house (just above the cusp line)
Mars conjunct NN in the 7th.
Mars conjunct Pluto in the 6th.
Pluto rules my 7th house.
Do other women with these placements find themselves relationship-oriented as well?
I know there are so many other factors to consider (I have Moon in Libra also), but Iím trying to figure out where this intense need to partner up comes from.
I have always cared and values my relationships more than anything else in this world. I was never extremely ambitious or goal-oriented like my peers although I did manage to accumulate a few successes along the way (Bachelorís degree, management experience, Fluent Spanish).
My point is, so many people seem a lot less affected by their personal relationships than myself.
I am very intense, jealous, loyal, etc in my relationships but even my intensity is too much for the avg Scorpio. I donít get it. At first I thought it was a Scorpio thing until I met other Scorpios and observed them in their relationships.
Then I thought well maybe I need to change a few things about myself, work on my self-esteem, image, etc because maybe that has a lot to do with why Iím so relationship oriented...
Even the most insecure people arenít as intense as I am about my relationships.
My relationships consume me. Body and Soul.
All I ever wanted out of life was to marry a good man I can help make great and to raise our child.. go to work every day, come home, amd just live.
I feel guilty for not wanting millions or something bigger out of life like my peers.
I have passions, creative hobbies, etc just like the next person but I never felt the need or had the desire to turn my life into a big movie because of it.
I never had the desire to ďchange the worldĒ or peopleís lives in a major way. I do want to help people as much as possible and in any way I can, but I never wanted recognition or a big lucrative career out of it.
I would be happy living in the country with my family and living a simple life day by day. Enjoying each other.
Iím stressed out because the pressure is ON and I donít want any of it.
People can tell you not to care what others think of you and to a certain extent, I donít, but letís be realistic here, everybody cares what someone thinks, even if a little bit.
Iím just searching for answers.
Pluto is doing a number on my Moon, Uranus, Neptune.