posted July 25, 2018 01:12 PM            

Neptune-Sun-Jupiter

Neptune-Mercury parallel.

Spiritual? Sometimes

Escape reality? No. But I dontbever face it for too long.

Romance on TV superficial? Its always been. Its just that now models are chosen to be "actors".Making it more unbelievable.

Stories drawn to? "Pride and Prejudice" with Keira Knightely and Matthew Mcfayden and " Brokeback mountain" with Jake Gylenhaal and Heath Ledger.

I liked both because the chemistry between the actors was so palpable. It did not focus on sex and nudity. There were obstacles always in the way but love persevered. Even though the latter was just painful.

When the characters get together in the end, its only "boring" if it was so predictable from the start..ehem...Any "Tyler Perry" type of production

Do I want to feel special? I am already special. I just wholly endorse a continuance of that feeling

Sensitive to violent videos? Any senseless violence is to me disturbing. Emphasis here on "senseless".

My father used to beat me for silly reasons. It used to make me so fearful of him and any relationship we had was completely destroyed.

So I don't ever like to see that. But I do believe in discipline- although my tactics would be different.

Romantic? Yes. Romance is the way of life. The rest is just illusion.

High expectations in love? If you call the two deal breakers " fidelity " and "respect" high standards, then yes.

posted July 25, 2018 01:42 PM            

I think so. I was never necessarily attracted to organized religion, but spirituality called to me. Sometimes it all just naturally occurred to me and I bewildered more "practical" minded people who didn't like spiritual talk.

---Do you escape reality or used to?How?

Everybody does to some degree. But due to my Piscean-ness, well, when I was younger, I used to escape via music, dancing, and sometimes just go into my mind, which was sometimes much more powerful than reality. Now that I am older and more mature, I'm less drawn to dissociation, and if I have something imaginative or some spark of inspiration, I like to put it to good use, like write songs, write books, create something instead of just act like a vegetable.

---Romance on tv nowdays sounds superficial to you?

Extremely. I hate modern romance/romcoms. I don't much care for period romance either lol.

---Which love stories you feel most drawn to?

"Your Name" is an animated love story I watched last year. It had a profound effect on me like nothing else.

---Do you think when the main characters get together the story becomes boring?

In general? Or in the one I mentioned? In both cases, no. I don't think it becomes boring.
What I don't like is when couples are overly stereotyped.

---Do you want to feel special?

No lol if anything I tend to be attracted to being normal because I feel too "speshul".

---Do you feel like an outsider?

Everyday, but, well, gotta learn to live with it.

---Are you sensitive to violent videos?For instance are you sensitive when you see a mother beating their child?Do you feel disturbed to the point that you can't watch?

Yes often. Violence doesn't always disturb me. For example, some movie violence doesn't bother me. But when it is done like "violence porn", well, that's gross.

---Are you super romantic?

No, and yes. Because I know I am capable of great romantic tendencies, as a defense, I try to remain hyper discerning and hyper vigilant so that I don't idealize too much and get too many unhealthy and unrealistic expectations. Know when fantasy is fantasy.

---Do you feel like you have high expectations in love?

Not really. I feel like my expectations are normal and healthy, and what anyone should aim for = respect, love, cherishing them and being cherished, working things out, integrity, being responsible, faithfulness (great sex is nice too). If any of that is too high then, my friend, humanity's truly aiming below the belt.

---It is easy for you to express your emotions?

Not really. In writing, sometimes it's easier. Vocally, it's more difficult and confusing, and I end up confusing people, and more often than not they don't follow my train of emotions, and so can't follow. So "I" think my expression is fine, but, the fact that so few understand me points to the contrary. And often, my feelings are so intense I can't speak of them so readily, so I tend to keep them in as well and just don't wanna talk about them.

posted July 25, 2018 02:43 PM            

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Romance on TV superficial? Its always been. Its just that now models are chosen to be "actors".Making it more unbelievable.

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lol yeah.What I dislike more about love in movies is that they fall in love in 3 days literally like in "the proposal".Don't get me wrong it's a funny movie but it's so fake if you think about the whole story.They don't even make the time pass to pretend they know each other for at least 3 months.

This is pretty common.

You said "it always been superficial" how do you see real love?

posted July 25, 2018 02:51 PM            

Do you escape reality or used to?How?
Listening to music, playing games, sometimes drugs, sometimes through closing my eyes hoping for miracles. I use crystal, incense, and listening to 4-3-2 music.

Romance on tv nowdays sounds superficial to you?Which love stories you feel most drawn to?
I find Romance in media are Neptunian generally in my eyes. I used to be drawn to Asian romance media because they are so self sacrificing for those they fall in love with. But I haven't watch many since 4-5 years ago. Maybe the media change I don't know about.

Do you think when the main characters get together the story becomes boring?
Yes, because they drag the reality. That's why I enjoy Asian media where someone got cancer and pass away in the end. Think like Titanic. The guy died. I had fantasy being that person who pass away in someones arm. I don't know why... dont ask lol

Do you want to feel special?
I used to. VERY but I want to do the same for them. but I went through a tPluto/neptune transit and I learn love comes with an expire date. Now tSaturn/neptune telling me to be realistic and be aware of my tendency.

Do you feel like an outsider?
Yes. Sometimes I feel my chart doesn't show that and I question it. I am feeling more lost than an outsider.

Are you sensitive to violent videos?
Depends.... I am more afraid of spirit horror movies like ghost. I can watch violent movies but that would sadden me. The ones that makes me scared to watch are anything that involve torturing scenes.

For instance are you sensitive when you see a mother beating their child?
I cry if I see it. Any violence makes me angry so I cry.

Do you feel disturbed to the point that you can't watch?
Torture scenes like The Saw, hostile puts me in a traumatic mood -- My thoughts runs "How can the world be that cruel"

Are you super romantic?Do you feel like you have high expectations in love?
Of course, Neptune in 7H is playing me. But I am keeping it in check now. But I become cold when the reality hits.

posted July 25, 2018 02:52 PM            

.Are you very spiritual?

I think I'm spiritual. But I don't think I'm -very- spiritual.

.Do you escape reality or used to? How?

Yes. TV, creating things and music when I was a kid. Now, Internet, acting, creating things, dancing, going for a walk? drinking, watching movies/series, drawning, learning things in other languages, staying in my room and listening to a lot of music. When I'm very sad I sleep more (I have depression), but I usually don't like to sleep.

.Romance on tv nowdays sounds superficial to you? Which love stories you feel most drawn to?

Yes. Eh, I like love stories when friendship is important in that relationship? I don't know how to explain it.

.Do you think when the main characters get together the story becomes boring?

Yes.

.Do you want to feel special?

Yes.

.Do you feel like an outsider?

Almost all the time.

.Are you sensitive to violent videos? For instance are you sensitive when you see a mother beating their child?Do you feel disturbed to the point that you can't watch?

I'm very sensitive to violence but mostly if I see that in front of me, not too much in a screen. But still, yeah. I'm an empathetic person.

.Are you super romantic? Do you feel like you have high expectations in love?
It is easy for you to express your emotions?

posted July 25, 2018 05:05 PM            

So... Hard to cope with the world?

There is a “Money and Success” horoscope by Liz Green offered on Astro.com. This is an excerpt from mine:

“Without phases of retreat and inner reflection, your prospects for success will also be small. You require silence like air to breathe. Many aspects of this less than ideal situation can be changed if you do not see yourself as a hermit or a misfit. You are only made for this hectic world to a limited degree...”

In communications, noise has a broad definition. It is, “any type of disruption that interferes with the transmission or interpretation of information from the sender to the receiver. There are different types of noise, such as physical noise, psychological noise, semantic noise, and of course, physiological noise.”

I think most of the time we only think of noise in it’s physical sense. Pisces/Neptunians are described as one of the most psychic of signs. Picking up on all the subtleties in the environment. Hearing what isn’t being said. Seeing what others aren’t seeing. Being inundated with all this information can be so overwhelming and emotionally draining that the world does become a little hard to cope with. The silence referred to in the horoscope above is a comprehensive sort of silence not just a physical one. When Pisceans or Neptunians are described as “sensitive”, it’s important to understand what that really means. They’re not just emotionally sensitive. They feel it sharply in their bodies (and on other levels) too.

With that said...

Romance on tv nowdays sounds superficial to you?Which love stories you feel most drawn to?

Yes, because limerence is all it is. I think the story I’ve been most drawn to is the one being told on the TV show “This is Us”. It explores sacrifice (maybe even an unhealthy version of it) and addiction in its various forms. It depicts a couple that as much as they love each other, break up. They get back together of course. But for a moment, the pressures of marriage and family life get the best of them. They struggle to balance their need for individuality with their responsibilities within a marriage. It goes on to explore the impact this has had on their children and how they struggle to unlearn the things they’ve been exposed to - the unhealthy interpersonal dynamics. The show takes a turn and begins to expose flaws in what initially looked like an ideal couple or ideal people. There’s idealism. Romance. Pain and suffering. Real love. Love outside of romance. As someone who has this Neptunian dynamic within a family environment, the show is relatable for me. I’m probably Randall! Lol

I like Maleficent too! I can relate to her in that move or to love in that way!

Are you sensitive to violent videos?For instance are you sensitive when you see a mother beating their child?Do you feel disturbed to the point that you can't watch?

Again, I think it’s important to define sensitivity. It’s not just a simple feeling of offense or wanting to close your eyes to ignore something. I’m not this fragile little thing thing that needs to cower in the shelter of some unreal euphoric dream. Distancing is necessary for processing. You don’t just pickup on the pain of the child, you pickup the anger and pain of the mother too. Why would she do that? What happened to her? It may be different for others. Victims come in different shapes and sizes. I see a little bit of a victim in everybody. Perpetrators come in many forms too! Lol

posted July 25, 2018 05:43 PM            

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Originally posted by Empty Spaces:
lol yeah.What I dislike more about love in movies is that they fall in love in 3 days literally like in "the proposal".Don't get me wrong it's a funny movie but it's so fake if you think about the whole story.They don't even make the time pass to pretend they know each other for at least 3 months.

This is pretty common.

You said "it always been superficial" how do you see real love?

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Lol. For the sake of brevity, they have to have them fall in love quickly. The average movie is 90 minutes long.

I get really annoyed when they include romance as a mandatory part of a storyline.

Then they cast some good looking girl and make her "independent and sexy". Until she meets a penis and ALL of that latter identity crumbles.

Like why did they include romance in " Pearl Harbour "? And what role did those girls really play in all the " Fast and Furious" movies? Romance saves the day for Neo and Trinity in "The Matrix" trilogy.
And werent the scenes between Strider and Arwen just downright distracting from the momentum of the "Lord of the Rings" trilogy?

To Hollywood it is clear. No woman must go "untouched" (especially if she is beautiful). They must write her in to be loved up by someone. And this is where I think Hollywood is still outdated and sexist.

Anyways back to your question.For me love comes quietly.Love to me isn't a hurricane And just because you are falling in love, doesn't mean that life can't "interrupt". Lol.

Love is having an intense argument with your mate. But still making sure that they got home safe.

Love is disagreeing with your mate " above the belt ". And keeping their secrets even AFTER a breakup.

Love is genuinely wishing someone happiness even if its not with you.

posted July 26, 2018 02:23 AM            

YES IT IS HARD LIKE EXTREMELY HARD for me to cope with the world.
Part of it is because of my low energy but Uranus in 6th H conjuct DSC makes it 100 times worse. I feel like my energy is drained especially by sounds and other people too easily.

I escaped reality since I was a little kid.. It was too easy at that time.. For example i was bored at scholl and I would just go into my imaginary world fantasizing whatever would make me happy. I feel like Piscean/Neptunian people like it because their imagonation is so vivid so their ability to get conpletely lost in smth (merge with it) that fantasizing about it is like actually experiencing it without doing so.
When I got a bit older it wasn't so easy.. It's like knowing more about how hard real life is and routine and pain and deaths etc it feels like my ehad can still get int he clouds but my feet are glued to the ground at the same time so I can not fully escape anymore. When listeing to music is the easiest way to escape those last few years.

Romance sex everything feels superficial and having Pluto in 5th H and pluto hard aspects doesn't help at all. I am sick of how "cheap" sex has been and how people treat their bodies I feel like they are disrespecting them, not meaning that you can not enjoy sex however you want but I feel like it would be more meaningful if people waited for a more special person to do it with still that is not a problem to me.. but I am sick of seeing women naked all the time everywhere I feel like I am being abused or smth, There should be a warning before showing women/men almost naked that's disrespectful actually.. We all go to the toilet too, wr all need it we all do it we all know it and it feels good when you need to do it but I don't see people peeing all the time like I see people having sex or being sexual all the time.. The last one should be even most private since it has to do with emotions too except of being a private act.
I never was one of those girls who see a man/woman and get turned on just by his/her body/face. I don't know that feeling.. For me it's more a mix of mental and spiritual attraction. A pair of beautiful eyes (not physically beautiful like the shape/color etc) but what those eyes emit is what may drive me crazy.

I am not romantic at all even when in love, I am just becoming super sweet at least compared to how I am when I am not in love.
I feel like an outsider and having Uranus conjct Neptune repeating the same aspects doesn't help at all.
I don't feel special, I don't have the need to feel special, I always wanted others to treat me like I don't even exist around them. If I had to choose a magic power to have it would be being invisible 1000% or healing people preventing them from dying before they reach a certain age.
I want attention again when I am in love with someone. I want to be the center of his attention naturally (Leo Venus, Mars and Jup square Pluto).
I have high standards and it's very difficult for me to fall in love. When I do I want to merge completely with the other person.

I am sensitive generally to anything violent if it hurts someone in anyway. I can't stand seeing something/someone suffering. I dislike dogs so much I am even disgusted and afraid of them to the point that I can't see them with my eyes, but I get so angry when I see people mistreating/torturing them. Same thing I felt when I saw a chicken getting slaughtered in front of me as a kid. I couldn't stand it yet I don't have a problem eating chicken if I don't see the procedure.
I am especially sensitive when it comes to kids, they are so innocent weak and vulnerable they need protection since they can not protect themselves but I am the opposite when it comes to adults. Even though I am an escapist myself I won't ever feel sorry for a drug addict unless their parents introduced them to drugs when they were kids, that's because I understand that once you get addicted it's super hard to stop. Otherwise it makes me angry how those people don't live themselves and people who love them not only that but they hurt those people even put them in danger. Generally I am not attracted to the victim/savior type at all.

The thing you ask about a mother beating her child of course I can't watch and it hurts me to the point I want to kill that "mother" with my own hands after beating her to death exactly like she did to that poor kid.
It is very difficult to have kids because you. have to forget about yourself since they are dependent on you for many years and you definately need to be patient. Just because we are capable of giving birth it doesn't mean that we are capable of being parents. I wish people were forced to go through a trial period like a year or so by being responsible for an orphan for example while they were being watched in order to truly understand how difficult being a parent is. Choosing to not have a child if you are not parent material equals to saving a child.