posted October 13, 2018 11:07 AM            

I feel quite uncomfortable with this energy even though it is my natural emotional response. I feel like they're always scheming without me knowing or noticing. I sometimes feel terrified to deal with such people because I see great power in them. They can get into your heads--even more skilled manipulators than air signs. But at the same time, the discomfort makes me want to have some of their qualities. I feel that it is what I lack. I lack feeling. I lack the attitude of just being able to let go.

I know people here probably already know I don't like Pisces energy, but now that I think about it, it's probably mostly because I don't understand it. I don't get how they do things, how they can believe so fully in something, get their hearts broken, and still believe in the good in others. Even if they know someone needs to face the truth and make some changes for themselves. It is nice to be accepted for who you are, but it doesn't hurt to work on yourself to better yourself. I guess this is why I don't get it.

With my Cancer moon, sometimes, I think it makes me feel weak. I don't like to let people see it, sometimes even my partner. I don't like to ask for help or a shoulder to lean on even though I offer it endlessly to everyone close to me. Softness makes me feel afraid. I guard my heart very well and I am discerning when it comes to letting people into my life.