posted October 25, 2018 04:57 AM            

I feel drained around June and now around October.
July only works for me when I‘m on vacation..

My most productive time is always around September to February. (minus October)

Now I looked in my chart and who would‘ve thought.. in October my Sun is in 12th house. In June/July it‘s in my 8th. Despite my chart being Pluto ruled and having my Moon in 8th house.. it‘s still a time, where I’m prone to negative thinking and dealing with negative habits.

posted October 25, 2018 06:35 AM            

I view it from the perspective of the work calendar. In that our lives are planned in and around that.

I notice that my worst time is in and around my birthday month(December). I really don't like spending time with family.

I am gay. And so I find that my sexuality is at odds with my conservative family. I can't be myself with them. So the holiday period is spent sidestepping the big elephant in the room. Not fun

So I really can't wait for that period to be over and for me to get back to work. January 1 onwards it picks up again. And I feel better away from them.

This is very odd in that I have Moon in Cancer. I love them from a distance. But I don't feel I can open up to them and have them accept me completely. As they are not dealing well with the sexuality issue am afraid. It clouds everything.

My favoutite month is Jan Because that is the month where we start over.

posted October 25, 2018 11:13 AM            

Summer is great too, I fee good att summer, emotionally. Only thise last summer it has been too warm to be Sweden, normally we hav 23-26 celsius in Stockholm. This year it was over 30 celsius for weeks! Horrible! I just can't stand heat.

BUT I get super anxious and so sad s soon as we reach midsummer! Its sick! I start to get seperation anxiety, bc soon summer is over, and darkness will be over us.

When August hits, I will be super sad, only thinking about the winter... Its awful, to think about the future and not savour the moment! Typical virgo and virgo rising sh¨¨¨t!

Autumn is sad , the more the leafs fall, the sadder I get. But I do enjoy the crispy wheather.

November and December is horrible.

posted October 25, 2018 01:43 PM            

December is Christmas season. I hate Christmas and Christmas music. Christmas is the worst day out of the entire year for me, because the Internet is most quiet on December 25th and i'm usually very lonely because of it. However, things might be different this year. I'm not yet sure. Christmas music will never be my cup of tea though. It's just not my kind of music and I hate being assaulted by it every time I go out to the store. Also, what do I want for Christmas this year? My mind always draws a blank on this question.

posted October 27, 2018 04:25 PM            

January: I like it when I can do introverted things like stay home and play video games, and watch shows and movies. Enjoying xmas gifts.

February: I've experienced lows during this month sometimes. One time it was a break up, another was being insanely fed up at my last job. But if in the right relationship, I find valentines day to be a great time to go somewhere and do something nice with a significant other.

March: Basically looking forward to winter being almost over, counting down winter and the school year being over. So I guess you could say March is a hopeful month. Sun starts to stay out longer, and that can help my frame of mind.

April: Though a lot is going on this month, I love spring time weather. I'm an Aries too. Usually it's finals and taxes...and planning my birthday that comes to bite me in the @ss. I am my optimistic Aries self.

May: Love the weather, up for having fun, school year is almost over.

June: I don't have to deal with my co-workers anymore for a while. I go on vacations. I get a ton of gifts from the students family.

July: Outdoorsy fun. I truly had a good July last month. When I was younger I would get sad if my social life got dull. But now it's like my social life got dull...that means I can finally clean my house!

August: I usually get a new job when looking around this time. I know this is my last month of freedom, and must prepare to go back to work.

September: It's just okay. This September it seemed like everyone was obsessed with celebrating and having fun. Like everyone was in this crazy friezy to go on one more short vacation, have a BBQ, have a pool party. Like what's wrong with just being by yourself and catching up on things you don't have time for on a regular weekend? I like to have plans to look forward too. But this labor day weekend was too much for me, and it was annoying af.

October: A clusterfuck of Libra birthdays on my dad's side of the family. I can get real moody this month. The Halloween season is kind of fun with my darker moods. But this is also the month where teachers get no breaks. Halloween is fun if I have fun plans, otherwise I don't have much love for this month.

November: I do not like the begging of November. Halloween is over, it's cold, it's gloomy, less sunlight. I begin to feel that seasonal depression is a real thing and that I am semi-prone to it. I've experienced some real lows around this time of the year.
But once it's Thanksgiving time I love it! I like the second half of November.

-I swear holidays are so important to me in the colder weather it brings cheer to what would be just a flat out depressing month otherwise.-

December: College finals, feeling pressure to be festive and get everyone a present and having no time off of work yet...can have me mental.
But once xmas arrives, it is so beautiful and I am so happy to give and receive. Have sometime off of work to enjoy my presents too.

So I must say, I love warmth. Though the colder weather can have fun holidays...I often feel cold and trapped from nagging responsibilities from working and school.
I have to pick Spring and Summer seasons do to the warmth, and experiencing more freedom.