posted February 18, 2019 07:37 PM            

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Originally posted by MoonMystic:
I'm not at all certain most modern or western astrologers use these as much. I am open to better understanding them for myself. Yours certainly sounds unique! Idk how a professional might see that. Maybe someone with a deeper understanding can reply.

Mine seems kind of clear to me. Mine is 1° cnj asteroid Lucifer. I see this as the energy of arrogance (falling from grace) which I struggle with always.

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posted February 18, 2019 09:08 PM            

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You're already a few steps ahead. Mine is also conjunct chiron so I'm trying to wrap my head around my ascendant, north node, and chiron all being tied into it 😣. If I am my own worst enemy, does that make my highest potential in this life my worst enemy as well?

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In terms of self growth, I'm humbled since learning astrology, at how very immature I truly am in terms of maturity.

posted February 18, 2019 09:45 PM            

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Originally posted by MoonMystic:
Dons2angelss
wrote: In terms of self growth, I'm humbled since learning astrology, at how very immature I truly am in terms of maturity.

(I'm a novice, pls only take what you feel might seem it fits, ignore me if I'm so off, k. *s* ) I might see your PoA nemesis as trying to
make you seem unlike how you wish to be perceived. Be it your look the world should see or some part of how you are in personality. Maybe at times you find yourself not as you wish to portray yourself to others? Might be a twin-like energy. As in animations, One shoulder an angel, the other a devil.
As for your Chiron, maybe having that particular conjunction, nemesis might remove the 'wounding'. As in creating an opposite type energy. So perchance there's real healing from Chiron in someway? I would hope so. Or Maybe your behavior senses this energy of Nemesis vs Chiron and you are more persistent than your peers with healing?

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Are you sure you're a novice? That part about coming off as a completely different person really struck hard. I never really thought about it that way and that's been my shadow for a long time. People always assume I'm the exact opposite of who I really am, mainly because of my looks. Here's the kicker, it's in gemini! The sign of the twins. I'm going to be mulling over this one for a while.

What you said about chiron makes a lot of sense too. It's conjunct my ascendant/nn and I've always read that this particular aspect causes bullying, or some kind of physical deformity or severe emotional scaring but I wasn't bullied, perfectly average physically, and nothing severe going on emotionally (we all have some degree of growth that needs to happen, I'm just saying I'm not emotionally crippled). I'm not persistent per se about healing other people, it's more like I'm just a beacon for it. People just seem to find me and I just so happen to be able to help them with whatever it is they need at that time, no matter what it is. Thank you for that analysis, it makes a lot of sense to me.