posted March 05, 2019 06:17 PM            

I have pieces Dsc. Neptune square Venus. Neptune to Sun and Mercury and Mc.
Or if we go by old rulers, Jupiter conjunct Venus.
I go the extra mile and some more for those I love. Showering them with affection and care.
I can’t with people who don’t show empathy for others, for animals or people in need. Or for themselves!

Anyways I often find that the empathy and care I saw in the other was , seing myself in the other... And that theirs were just a weak mirage...

posted March 05, 2019 06:45 PM            

To me its like the 7th is also an unconscious social contract one has with others to respond in a "particular" way.

I for instance feel like it is expected of me to take the lead or do things myself.That is if I don't "take charge" or actively pursue something, I will be held personally accountable for failure(Mars).

When I was younger,I was expected to succeed in things or beat the competition. It was a way of "earning" approval.So i guess it may have morphed to social "approval".

I also learned that I was expected to be "deep" like Huey from "The Boondocks".I had to look at what lies beneath and be the one to solve psychological puzzles.
( Pluto in 7th).

Also included therein was the perception that others expected maturity from me and so my interactions with people are more formal,proper and structured(Saturn).

Whilst there is also a part of me that feels like I am expected to look good/be aesthetically pleasing and make people smile etc.(Venus)

Mars/Pluto/Saturn/Venus all interating with the 7th.Its no wonder I steer clear of relationships. I fear so much projection on myself that there will be no time to be me.

I didn't see it before but I realize my Sun/Neptune/ Jupiter/Mercury in 9th serves more as a hologram than a definitive identity.