posted April 11, 2019 04:35 PM            

I’m not sure how long a Jupiter stationary rx last for but I do not like the energy.
During this time...
For weeks, I’ve been trying to get a strategy to aim for A’s in classes.
And things keep happening that screw up my plans.

First it was family. My grandma was very old went to hospital and passed away a week later.

It hasn’t even been a month, since she died. I could only turn it C quality work.
I’m still recovering. That’s all done now.

Well now it’s my job trying is trying to sabotage college. They keep dumping take your work home with you, projects. It’s really ******* me off.
My assistant always wants to hold me up when I say I have to go.
I basically had to bang my chest at her to leave on my terms.

Like why does so much have to dillebetaly get in the way of college? Jupiter is the planet of higher education.
As an Aries, Jupiter in Sagittarius is a higher education phase for me.

So I guess I have to re evualte this area of my life?
I am feeling so done being a teacher and a student at the same time. I can’t wait to just be a college student when I’m off in the summer. I can just do my school work put in quality effort. With out my job suddenly dumping things on me.

Also I’ve been so fed up with the little control I feel. That I’ve been practicing law of atraction and Feng Shui again.

Also as a Gemini rising this is in my 7th house. I’m traveling out of state with my boyfriend for the first time! I do like that part!

posted April 12, 2019 11:34 AM            

Lately,I feel I have a lot to say (Sag). Lol. A lot of "realizations".

posted April 12, 2019 12:43 PM            

My condolences on your loss, and some of the ripple-effects this adds in the amount of stress to your life. People are important. Your Grandmother .. Yes, you need time to Heal and Process all that... I know it's hard to Celebrate the Passings of Souls that have meant sooo much to us during our WHOLE lifetime; and whose DNA is still 'a part of us' and our legacy.

This loss is not something to be ignored or put on a back-burner.

Again. Mourning with you in this tiny moment,
and Sending you Love and gentle *hugs..*

I've noted before that when someone we have cared so much about passes on to the 'other side', that, there may be a brief kind of hiccup or a pause.... but then LATER... that Beloved One SHOWERS us with Blessings FROM their Having Lived and Been a Part of us.

I hope you will 'feel' her presence, and the love she held for you... and Receive the Sparks and Showering of Gifts that her energy sends.

posted April 13, 2019 02:04 PM            

I'm trying to apply for a graduate program and 3 days before my application is due, my boss says I gotta rewrite my research proposal but here is the supporting letter for your application.

Errr... Like WHAT! The original proposal I prepared took me a month to write it (it was during the recent mercury rx). There is no way I can produce a good quality proposal in THREE DAYS. So unfair.

posted April 13, 2019 08:16 PM            

Sending a * hug * your way. I'm sorry for your loss. (I also am guilty of not reading my first time on the thread. I was rushed for response due to my surroundings at that moment. I feel bad.) The positive side is she is now boundless and able to experience no more earthly pain.

I was born with it in rx. I was a premie birth too. In an era when 4#s was small, but made up for it fighting weight my entire life.
Happy to say this is my 1st house and I'm less inclined to over indulge or even think much of food lately. Perchance I can drop these extra winter pounds during his rx!

posted April 14, 2019 12:09 AM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
Stawr … {{{ }}}
I'm catching up a bit on some posts.
I'm sooo sorry that you lost your Grandmother.

My condolences on your loss, and some of the ripple-effects this adds in the amount of stress to your life. People are important. Your Grandmother .. Yes, you need time to Heal and Process all that... I know it's hard to Celebrate the Passings of Souls that have meant sooo much to us during our WHOLE lifetime; and whose DNA is still 'a part of us' and our legacy.

This loss is not something to be ignored or put on a back-burner.

Again. Mourning with you in this tiny moment,
and Sending you Love and gentle *hugs..*

I've noted before that when someone we have cared so much about passes on to the 'other side', that, there may be a brief kind of hiccup or a pause.... but then LATER... that Beloved One SHOWERS us with Blessings FROM their Having Lived and Been a Part of us.

I hope you will 'feel' her presence, and the love she held for you... and Receive the Sparks and Showering of Gifts that her energy sends.

Beautiful Legacy Gifts to you.

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posted April 19, 2019 08:14 PM            

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Originally posted by YellowGerbera:
It's been crazy for me - a mix of good lucks and bad lucks.

I'm trying to apply for a graduate program and 3 days before my application is due, my boss says I gotta rewrite my research proposal but here is the supporting letter for your application.

Errr... Like WHAT! The original proposal I prepared took me a month to write it (it was during the recent mercury rx). There is no way I can produce a good quality proposal in THREE DAYS. So unfair.

Anyway it is what it is. I hate retrogrades.

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posted April 19, 2019 08:28 PM            

Your paper sucks!
I have no control over anything in my life!!
LOL not a real conversation.

I can't wait for June, when I can just work on my sh1t for school in peace.

It's traumatic to read that your paper is C quality when you are going through saying bye to your grandma, she dies you do the funeral stuff, spend time w/ out of state family.
Then you go back to busting your ass.

I just have to do what I use to do when I am beyond burn out. Redbull diet!!
And then people are like "you should not drink those." "In case you haven't noticed I am suppose to be a machine and not a human being. I'm not allowed to process pain, emotions and feelings. I must perform excellence and have no slow downs."

posted April 23, 2019 05:37 PM            

Anyway I learned to accept that it's ok to be not great. Pass is a pass. Try to relieve yourself from unnecessary pressure and stress if you can, otherwise you will burn out! You can't study or work if you burn out!

Sorry about your grandmother passing away... It's never easy to lose your loved ones. I lost my father and grandfather during my final year of my master's whilst caring for my newborn baby. Although I didn't have to arrange for neither of the funerals, I felt like a zombie, thinking why this is all happening to me!! I think I got through it because of my baby. She kept me going. She kept me happy. She kept me sane even though she woke me up every 2 hrs to breastfeed lol!

Just remember though, student life is TOUGH. It's SUPER SUPER tough. The higher the degree is the tougher it is on you. There will be more self-teaching, self-disciplining, and self-learning. It's all depended on you to study and pass your course. I've been in school and working forever so I know this life.

However, just take on one semester at a time and you'll eventually finish your program!

posted April 28, 2019 11:50 AM            

With doing papers, I've found that it's not just the 'mental' approach that matters, but the 'flow' from the INSIDE that you connect with, that enbles the 'intellect' to have lubrication and added-meaning (the magic).
Turns thick grainy 'sludge' into more inspired ease-- the best you can.

I used to love it when the test in school was an essay. Teachers are 'bored' having to read one paper after another. Sometimes they enjoy a really fresh approach and Perspective. They'll grant you an extra "+" JUST because you made it 'easier' for them.

Papers that 'read-themselves' (you don't notice you're 'reading' it), are refreshing and informative to read.

With you're going through grief, and having all that extra stress, maybe you're just not plugging in to the inner-muse.

It will Come.

Give your OWN self, a Higher Grade, for the Complexity of your Life right now.

I remember someone once saying that The Universe gives 'extra points' to the soul who is going through hard things, and presses through and gets it accomplished, the Best they can.

Those teachers … really couldn't take that into account. .. And YOU can do that, as a Reward, for your innerself?? {{*hug*}}

posted April 28, 2019 04:45 PM            

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Originally posted by YellowGerbera:
Ah story of my life. I would literally have no sleep and spend hours reading and writing and I get a C. And the reviewer's comment is like Great work, like your ideas, excellent points. C. like what!????

Anyway I learned to accept that it's ok to be not great. Pass is a pass. Try to relieve yourself from unnecessary pressure and stress if you can, otherwise you will burn out! You can't study or work if you burn out!

Sorry about your grandmother passing away... It's never easy to lose your loved ones. I lost my father and grandfather during my final year of my master's whilst caring for my newborn baby. Although I didn't have to arrange for neither of the funerals, I felt like a zombie, thinking why this is all happening to me!! I think I got through it because of my baby. She kept me going. She kept me happy. She kept me sane even though she woke me up every 2 hrs to breastfeed lol!

Just remember though, student life is TOUGH. It's SUPER SUPER tough. The higher the degree is the tougher it is on you. There will be more self-teaching, self-disciplining, and self-learning. It's all depended on you to study and pass your course. I've been in school and working forever so I know this life.

However, just take on one semester at a time and you'll eventually finish your program!

You can do this!!!

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posted April 28, 2019 04:49 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
Stawr.. oy, about the paper feedback.

With doing papers, I've found that it's not just the 'mental' approach that matters, but the 'flow' from the INSIDE that you connect with, that enbles the 'intellect' to have lubrication and added-meaning (the magic).
Turns thick grainy 'sludge' into more inspired ease-- the best you can.

I used to love it when the test in school was an essay. Teachers are 'bored' having to read one paper after another. Sometimes they enjoy a really fresh approach and Perspective. They'll grant you an extra "+" JUST because you made it 'easier' for them.

Papers that 'read-themselves' (you don't notice you're 'reading' it), are refreshing and informative to read.

With you're going through grief, and having all that extra stress, maybe you're just not plugging in to the inner-muse.

It will Come.

Give your OWN self, a Higher Grade, for the Complexity of your Life right now.

I remember someone once saying that The Universe gives 'extra points' to the soul who is going through hard things, and presses through and gets it accomplished, the Best they can.

Those teachers … really couldn't take that into account. .. And YOU can do that, as a Reward, for your innerself?? {{*hug*}}

Your InnerSelf needs to Go Play.
Take Good Care of Her.

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posted April 29, 2019 01:07 PM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
Yes I will be happy with a C or higher the goal in mind is to be able to transfer the class.
Cs gt degrees! lol and in my experience no one checks your grades until after they hire you anyway.

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