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93nov
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posted November 10, 2019 11:15 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for 93nov     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Good morning everyone.

My birthday is tomorrow and I will be 26 years old.. so I thought I would try to dig a little deeper as a gift to myself and my healing journey. Anyway, I'm at a standstill.

Transit Pluto and Uranus have been causing HELL for me since 2015 and things have only gotten worse over the past few years and I don't see a silver lining or end in sight.

Transits always hit my moon first and then trickle down into the other areas. Does this mean I should just expect a life of misery and depression? I know everyone says you have to take control of your life and things like that, but I literally feel I have no control. I can't even control where I sleep every night, key alone my emotional and mental state.

The only positive thing that came out of all the meds so far is I was able to earn my college degree despite all the obstacles. If anyone has been following my posts, then you guys know how hard it has been for me.

My father is a narcissist and my mother is his faithful codependent. I have no friends (partly due to life changes and natural distance) anymore and my now exboyfriend is becoming more distant every day. I feel like I lost everything and will continue.

Please.. if anyone sees any hope or joy coming up, please share. If not, still share. Give it to me raw.

I have been to therapy, but that just makes me more upset because everyone says the same things and I don't think anyone really understands what I'm going through. A quick bandaid won't due and I'm not helpless or weak so I think I've tried just about everything within my ability. It's hard following the rules just to get to a better life when the rules change every day.


My father is emotionally and verbally abusive. He manipulates my mother and everyone else around him to cater to his needs and desires. My mother is like a little puppet on a string and I hate it. He's very intelligent so for a long time, I was unaware of what was happening. Even during childhood, I was always very smart and intuitive and could read people, but never the main person that I was being misled by. I really believe this one of the reasons why I'm so angry and confused at 26 years old. My father has been in and out of prison since before I was born so I was mostly raised by my mother with consistent letters, visits, and phone calls from him while he was in prison. He recently came from doing a 12 year bid. Before he came home this past time, me and my mother were basically roommates. I was free, independent, and on my way to do great things. Now that he's home, I've been getting kicked out every other day and just in a state of unrest and uncertainty.. it's been over 3 years now. I just want stability and peace so I can start focusing on my life and my career. I have no stability. & I always get charmed into forgiving my father only for him to go back to the same old behaviours. The only time we have a decent conversation is when he's drunk. I wish he was out of my life for good. I have tried staying other places just until I get on my feet but that brung its own set of issues eventually which landed me right back home.

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Kannon McAfee
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posted November 10, 2019 02:53 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Kannon McAfee     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Happy Birthday May your birthday pleasure overcome all the dread of another Monday.

Looking at your chart to see current and upcoming influences ...

You are probably already aware that Pluto's square to your natal Moon is not over. But it does no good to simply see this as a negative influence to attach dramatic descriptors to and stay apprehensive. Pluto square natal Moon is a period in which we find out what is inside us, what has been hiding below the conscious level in our attitudes, wants, needs, cravings. We feel greater passion to express our desires, but some of those feelings may be polluted with undesirable qualities and it is important to be honest with ourselves about it and change. This is not a matter of blame, but awareness and power to change.

Instead of focusing on that end of it, however, look at Pluto's conjunctions to natal Uranus and Neptune. Read my article about the Pluto-Neptune part:
http://kannonmcafee.wordpress.com/2019/07/22/plutos-transit-conjunct-parallel-nata l-neptune/

This can be a very creative time, but not if you focus on what is wrong and on what others are doing.

You've got a limited time of a couple years or less to utilize this window of opportunity with Pluto conjunct natal Uranus, which is a personal revolution -- but you must decide what kind of life you want and focus on creating it! Stay focused on what you don't like and how miserable it is making you and you'll set up a strong resonance that may remain for a long time.

Pluto's trine to natal Saturn is an organizing, transforming influence and can help with this. Most of the Pluto transits happening for you now are strengthening, supportive, empowering -- but they require a willingness to take charge through outlook and in-look first.

Uranus's transit opposite natal Venus & Mercury indicates to me that you're going through a process of learning to communicate in ways that are more outward, less concealed or polite; that more may need to be revealed about your pattern of relations with others before a light bulb moment to help you see better how to change the patterns.

Next year Jupiter's transit through Capricorn will be beneficial to you, but since it joins Pluto there it won't offer much more than temporary relief and will tend to dramatize present patterns, nudging you to decisions. But that requires taking action and taking on a mindset towards that now. What happens during windows of opportunity is largely a continuation of what we've been doing leading up to them. Jupiter expands windows of opportunity to bring more freedom, choices, abundance. But the effort is yours. Jupiter continuing up higher in your chart towards Midheaven will also help re-open the window of opportunity, extending it.

You are also experiencing Neptune's transit parallel natal Pluto. That transit allows a number of things, but therapeutically it allows access to the higher self and subconscious. I recommend hypnosis with a trusted practitioner. It is a prime opportunity to benefit from it. Talk therapy won't do you much if any good during these transits of Uranus opposite natal Mercury and transits by/to Neptune. Think in terms of art therapy, hypnosis, the subconscious or unconscious which needs to speak to cut through verbiage and irrelevant techniques or assumptions.


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mirage29
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posted November 11, 2019 12:56 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

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H20AC
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posted November 11, 2019 09:09 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for H20AC     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Happy birthday!!🎉🎈

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GalacticCoreExplosion
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posted November 11, 2019 09:30 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosion     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Joyous Solar Return.

Are you planning on moving out?

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93nov
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posted November 14, 2019 06:14 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for 93nov     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by Kannon McAfee:
Happy Birthday May your birthday pleasure overcome all the dread of another Monday.

Looking at your chart to see current and upcoming influences ...

You are probably already aware that Pluto's square to your natal Moon is not over. But it does no good to simply see this as a negative influence to attach dramatic descriptors to and stay apprehensive. Pluto square natal Moon is a period in which we find out what is [b]inside us, what has been hiding below the conscious level in our attitudes, wants, needs, cravings. We feel greater passion to express our desires, but some of those feelings may be polluted with undesirable qualities and it is important to be honest with ourselves about it and change. This is not a matter of blame, but awareness and power to change.

Instead of focusing on that end of it, however, look at Pluto's conjunctions to natal Uranus and Neptune. Read my article about the Pluto-Neptune part:
http://kannonmcafee.wordpress.com/2019/07/22/plutos-transit-conjunct-parallel-nata l-neptune/

This can be a very creative time, but not if you focus on what is wrong and on what others are doing.

You've got a limited time of a couple years or less to utilize this window of opportunity with Pluto conjunct natal Uranus, which is a personal revolution -- but you must decide what kind of life you want and focus on creating it! Stay focused on what you don't like and how miserable it is making you and you'll set up a strong resonance that may remain for a long time.

Pluto's trine to natal Saturn is an organizing, transforming influence and can help with this. Most of the Pluto transits happening for you now are strengthening, supportive, empowering -- but they require a willingness to take charge through outlook and in-look first.

Uranus's transit opposite natal Venus & Mercury indicates to me that you're going through a process of learning to communicate in ways that are more outward, less concealed or polite; that more may need to be revealed about your pattern of relations with others before a light bulb moment to help you see better how to change the patterns.

Next year Jupiter's transit through Capricorn will be beneficial to you, but since it joins Pluto there it won't offer much more than temporary relief and will tend to dramatize present patterns, nudging you to decisions. But that requires taking action and taking on a mindset towards that now. What happens during windows of opportunity is largely a continuation of what we've been doing leading up to them. Jupiter expands windows of opportunity to bring more freedom, choices, abundance. But the effort is yours. Jupiter continuing up higher in your chart towards Midheaven will also help re-open the window of opportunity, extending it.

You are also experiencing Neptune's transit parallel natal Pluto. That transit allows a number of things, but therapeutically it allows access to the higher self and subconscious. I recommend hypnosis with a trusted practitioner. It is a prime opportunity to benefit from it. Talk therapy won't do you much if any good during these transits of Uranus opposite natal Mercury and transits by/to Neptune. Think in terms of art therapy, hypnosis, the subconscious or unconscious which needs to speak to cut through verbiage and irrelevant techniques or assumptions.

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Thank you for your generous reply, Kannon.

Based off several interpretations I've read, Transit Pluto square Natal Moon is a period where outside influences could represent a repressed side of us that we are made aware of.. but I don't get what side of myself is being expressed and repressed by my father's behaviour. I AM well aware, NOW, how I adopted certain traits out of blindness.. but that's different..? What is Pluto trying to tell me? Every time I feel like I "cracked the code", the code changes. I feel like and have found proof that I am being manipulated and controlled. At first I thought it might be the "rebellious teen" scenario, but just way late, based off the unique circumstances (my father was incarcerated when I was 12 and released at 23, last year in college), but after assessing different events and arguments, that is far from the case. I must admit, though, it does get confusing because my father switches his narcissism on and off and he's quite brilliant despite his background and life choices so I get fooled more times than not. Once I let my guard down and start to soften up because he's displaying a calm, rational facade, his obnoxious and condescending ways return shortly after. It's like I'm living in constant chaos.


Pluto should be finishing up its Transit to my moon at the end of next year right?

TPluto conjunct Uranus/ Neptune is the easy part to sort through in my opinion lol.. It's the consequences based on my changed beliefs that's causing me so much grief and chaos.

My father used to be my best friend when I was a little girl, but that's only because I looked up to him like a superhero and worshipped him like a God. I hung onto his every word. If my dad didn't agree with it, I wouldn't waste my time with it. Now that I see him for who he is, (which is partly maturity and not just him being a full blown narcissist) he hated my guts and I hate his.

Transit Uranus is definitely making me feel awkward relating to others, but I just assumed that was due to all the uncomfortable chaos Pluto's been causing lately lol. Life is making me feel like a two year old with a hangover who got jumped by 3 bears in Gotham city. Haha.. seriously.


I've always just wanted a stable partnership with my little family at the end of it all.. but this chapter in my life (Transit Uranus opposite Venus/ Mercury) is making me realize I never actually had that. I've always wanted what I can't have, but is it wrong to want these things out of life?


Transit Pluto please go away..

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93nov
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posted November 14, 2019 06:15 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for 93nov     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by GalacticCoreExplosion:
Joyous Solar Return.

Are you planning on moving out?



I did once already, but that wasn't the smartest choice.

I plan on moving out again, but I want to make better choices this time around so I won't ever have to come back.

Plus, the issue isn't really my plans on moving out. I'm not lazy, I work hard, and I'm very goal-oriented. This issue is I can't focus on these qualities when my father is very disruptive, unpredictable, high-strung, and controlling to say the least. I don't know where I'm laying my head almost every night, let alone where I'm going to work. I just laugh at my setbacks now because they're expected.

Example: I get a job at Amazon. Job isn't on the busline so now father has control because he has the car.

I get a job on the bus line but now my "presence is disturbing" (his words) so now I have to walk around town for literally hours until work because I can't sleep in the extra room in the house..

At 26 years old, every aspect of my life is being manipulated and controlled.

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