posted June 14, 2020 05:00 PM            

Basically my husband has Venus in LEO square Mars conjunct Uranus and Tr Uranus in his 12H is forming an astrological pattern with that square, Tr Uranus is Squine his VENUS and Quindecile (165) his Mars conjunct Uranus.

Tr Uranus is also squaring his MC/IC

Tr Pluto conjunct Jupiter is incojuncting his VENUS and forming a YOD with my Abundantia in Pisces.

His Venus rules his intercepted TAURUS in the 12H and conjuncts my Venus and Mars.

There is a lot of good coming out of this but there is also a lot of emotions coming to the surface around things that need to be healed I am thinking and he is not necessarily looking at things objectively and has some clear blind spots around himself and he is displacing anger unto me.

But I can also see how this transit is doing a lot of good, he is the type of guy to have a lot of courage and confidence in his creative side and abilities and starts projects no problem (aries is outside the intercepted Taurus after all), no issues getting started but then looses his momentum/flow and things don't get finished not bc he lacks ability but because he has issues finishing what he starts, for over a month now this has taking a turn and he is on top of things, finishing projects he started and keeping up with things. I think Tr Uranus is shaking up his angles IC/MC but also his intercepted 6H/12H and forcing him to break through barriers and overcome negative patterns but is also bringing forth his negative traits more to the surface and I am reaching my limit but trying to be patient ....

Squine, square and quindecile are all stressful aspects..on one hand he is more focused and following through with things more which could be the quindecile from uranus to mars stirring him into action and keeping him focused but tr Uranus squaring his IC is definitely resulting in increased irritability and anger and disruption in his mood impacting his home environment and I. Tr Uranus squine VENUS in the 4H which rules his 12H is making him project his issues unto me and not see himself clearly and making him unable to take accountability for his hurtful behavior, he is also unaware of his emotions and how his mood is impacting me or how he is hurting me.

With Venus in the 4H ruling his 12H and Taurus intercepted there is easy to blame mother subconsciously for everything wrong and transfer that tendency unto other women in his life and not take responsibility for his decisions and actions. Mother was not there for him, she divorced his father and then he passed away shortly after because of alcoholism and shortly after she sent him off to boarding school in another state when arguably he needed his mother the most while she re-married some guy who ended up cheating on her and she end up divorcing too. That interception of Taurus/Scorpio stems from the impact of his parents divorcing, his father's death and his mother abandoning him emotionally when he needed her the most and him not ever feeling truly accepted by mother or like he can truly connect with her (e.g. trauma stemming from emotional neglect and misattunement with mother).

He has chiron in the 12H and nothing more in the 12H, he doesn't tend to reflect bc it probably hurts too much to reflect and then this disrupts his mood which I then end up paying for but that is the only way out to go deeper, reflect, hold himself accountable for his anger and how he expresses it, recognize it comes from a place of pain/grief/unmet needs/not feeling he was important to his mother, important enough, worthy enough/feeling abandoned by her and to realize this is why he gets triggered by small things that give him a sense of control been messed with and why he doesn't like change. I bought a blanket the other day without him and he wanted us to buy the same blanket we had again and he had a temper tantrum, he could only think of himself and this makes him seem so self-centered and narcissistic but then he said to me later that he liked the blanket and that is nice that is soft and then he said "I just don't like change." All this seeming extreme self-centeredness and narcissism is at its core a trauma response when I dig deeper but is hard for me, is hard, his unresolved past trauma impacts me and us.

posted June 15, 2020 05:30 PM            

24H = 3H x 8H = pleasure x persisting = pleasure in persisting with something - (usually) beyond the point that others consider to be reasonable/rational.