posted June 24, 2020 08:26 AM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
You want to describe that more?
You started this thread.

Do you have a story to share?

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posted June 24, 2020 11:12 PM            

First, I tried a self-hypnosis tape to remember past lives. It did not immediately work (but then I strongly doubted in such things anyway). However, not long after I was walking near the beach when I passed an abandoned store...and I jumped because I saw a large man rather than my own reflection.

As I focused it was my own reflection, but the momentary image had been so clear, and the clothing and appearance strange enough that I'd have thought a Caribbean pirate (this was before Caribbean pirates became a big thing in cinema, btw, and I consider those pure entertainment devoid of significant accuracy).

For a short while (about a year) I worked on developing myself through occult methods (not because of this, rather this was just an experiment while using other occult exercises), and even after that I'd take the time to practice some exercises in the hope of it happening in a meaningful way. One was astral projection (which I believe I've successfully did once, but it was like only for a minute, I didn't have a clear mind, and I got pulled back into my body all too soon, but it was still encouraging). I felt the biggest problem is that there were parts of my anatomy that the energy just "wasn't flowing right" (and could even be painful) which I was trying to fix, hoping that when I could work through that then I'd achieve success at an astral journey with a lucid mind. And so, about 3-5 years after the self-hypnosis followed shortly after by the strange reflection experience, it happened.

This included an attempt to cycle energy (that could feel as electric) between a physical and astral body, and I may have worked in a little kundalini exercises to help (this was so long ago I can't recall if such exercises helped bring this about or if it inspired me to incorporate such exercises in the future). The astral projection failed, but I felt an incredible burst of energy shoot up from the base of my spine and burst through my head...and it felt like sparks.

As it went through my brain, vivid memories of being a French pirate operating in the Caribbean flooded my mind (and I remembered that reflection I briefly saw by the beach and realized that was, or had been, me), and my "internal voice" even turned male and thought in French (and the painful and energy blockages I felt suddenly made sense as they were linked to this other life). This would last for a couple of hours before I slowly regained my normal senses. The memories were not only vivid, but I was also aware of things I did not know then. For example, I had 2 wives (each with kids conceived by me) in different ports that didn't know about each other (and this was the biggest reason I couldn't settle down, because then I'd have to choose one and abandon the other), but now I suddenly knew one who thought of as a friend in that life told one of my wives the truth and they were having an affair behind my back...and I knew who they both were in this life, and it explained so much.

I knew that this life gave me the opportunity to help correct some of the mistakes I made back then, and I gave a surreal speach involving Creole French to one...the way she looked at me...it either reminded her of something she couldn't place (or could place all too well without my knowing) and/or it was just so strange (and she was likely a bit hungover) that she just didn't know how to respond.

And it was just the start. It would expand from there. And while I've considered ideas like maybe I just "grabbed a memory core" (that is, I accessed memories of another life but was not that person, and yet experiencing those memories would make it SEEM like my own as they did to the actual owner), it wouldn't explain how I knew to connect it to this life, nor how I met others who were able to expand upon it and they were also able to expand on those memories from a different perspective. (My cousin has a seemingly unique ability to remember previous lives by getting lost in music while playing his guitar, btw. I think that's a skill you can only be born with rather than learn, however.)

posted June 24, 2020 11:28 PM            

In my life foreigners I befriended etc felt like home to me. After my thinking broadened in my 20s I thought maybe the connections were reincarnated related. Learning to look at natals really provoked that notion.

posted June 25, 2020 08:59 PM            

My dad didn't want to be a father, he only did it because my mum wanted children, but as soon as I was born, we clicked. He adored me - his NN is conjunct my Moon/Venus/SN.