posted October 26, 2020 02:41 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I've been missing my sister for this reason, or one of them. We played through games with each other, in the past. She got me started with gaming again, after mum died.

I've never used anything like kratom. I'm prepping to test a totally blended food diet, but I'm still going dizzy, and I'm disorganized, so I don't know if I'll manage it properly.

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yeah my younger brother is the only one of my brothers i can actually hang out with as a friend

i haven't really played many games in a while, can't remember which battlefield i played before this, used to be more into it played a lot of halo and gears of war at one point then just sort of lost my ability to really pay attention

but yeah it's nostalgic and nice to just sort of chill and do that kind of **** again for a bit

i like kratom when it's red vein because it has an opiate like feel to it and well... i was a junkie so 🤷‍♀️ it's as close as i can get without it being a relapse you know? for pain you might find lemon balm helpful that actually works too chills out anxiety as well

my stomach is ****** but it's like the least of my problems, hate dizzy sensations makes everything ******* difficult hopefully you feel better 💜

posted October 27, 2020 03:23 PM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:
@Plut0nian2

2 friends have it actually one has it with ketu the other just has jupiter in the 8th both are spiritually inclined and somewhat intuitive i havent seen the other side of things for either of them yet

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Do you know if they get money or material things or any kind of help/support easily from others?

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if you die during your 8th house saturn return come haunt me or something, maybe visit in a dream once and let me know

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😅 I can't promise anything, I don't know if I'll be able to do that or if I'll even be able to find you in the first place.

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just pain and some other issues going on, left side being a bit annoying, shaky, it's whatever

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Is it because you're not being careful and/or doing things you shouldn't do in order for your condition to be at its best possible? I vaguely remember a couple of things you said about your condition, I think you avoided it once I asked you what exactly it is (I mean what it's called) but I'm not 100% sure, if not could you tell me what it's called?

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and nah my younger brother is the most responsible of the 3 of us it's my older one who needs a babysitter

going to mostly just chill and play a bunch of survival horror games together because last time i saw him we played through soma and silent hill 2 together and there's a **** ton more we haven't played

it's basically like being 10 again except with alcohol

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posted October 27, 2020 03:25 PM            

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Originally posted by Hikaru29:
I've this and I think it's generally a good placement. At work I can easily get people to collaborate with me, even the more difficult types. I also have a wide network circle and I get along well with my seniors who'll help me along the way.

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posted October 27, 2020 04:38 PM            

neither of them get those things easily actually one has it debilitated the other with ketu which could be part of the issue

the offer to haunt me still stands if you can manage it 🤷‍♀️ open invitation

i don't know every detail of what's wrong because there's some testing i haven't bothered with and did heroin about instead and then just never gotten around to partially because i don't care

a fair chunk of it is issues that came up post lyme some of it isn't i don't like running down the list of issues because i find it uncomfortable and also because there are some things i don't have concrete answers on and can't rule out (one possibility is ms which my older brother just got diagnosed with so... that's a fun thought)

that being said so nice of you to call me out on that 😁 ******* plutonian intuition huh? no i haven't been the best about that lately could definitely be doing other things to manage it all better and i'm working on it because my body isnt really giving me a choice

you got me though 🤣 it's a ***** to be 100% on point with things though when there's a lot of other **** going on and other issues also being dealt with, those are excuses though and you're still right 😁 i'm going to make them anyway and complain though because that's what i do

made me laugh though, you're good

i watched it follows like that a while back with a friend he was telling me i should see it and that he was going to watch it too so we ended up watching it together, nice to do that

have friends ive watched youtube videos with occasionally

one finds all this weird **** and then we'll watch it together like mini docs and random news clips and music and really weird ******* people etc he puts together

posted October 28, 2020 02:00 AM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:
@Plut0nian2

neither of them get those things easily actually one has it debilitated the other with ketu which could be part of the issue

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You're probably right about the debilitated one but I don't see a reason for the SN and Jupiter in 8th H having a negative effect unless they are afflicted?

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the offer to haunt me still stands if you can manage it 🤷‍♀️ open invitation

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:P I'll keep that in mind or maybe better in soul since that's the only part that might keep existing after death.

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i don't know every detail of what's wrong because there's some testing i haven't bothered with and did heroin about instead and then just never gotten around to partially because i don't care

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Just why? Why heroin again? I remember that you stayed clean of heroin for a long time why did you start doing it again?
And to think I was about to ask you if you have stopped or minimized the amount of drugs you used to do because I sense that you're a bit different, even though the way you speak hasn't changed, it feels like you are being more present, lively, concentrated, warmer, a bit more connected to yourself? I can't really find the word that describes this feeling/vibe precisely.

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a fair chunk of it is issues that came up post lyme some of it isn't i don't like running down the list of issues because i find it uncomfortable and also because there are some things i don't have concrete answers on and can't rule out (one possibility is ms which my older brother just got diagnosed with so... that's a fun thought).

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How long ago did you finish your lyme treatment?
I read that lyme may have a few similar symptoms to ms but just in case I wanted to tell you that low vitamin D levels have even more similar symptoms to ms. When the neurologist I visited was suspecting ms she had me done a brain test (I don't know what exactly is called in English) in order to know if I have ms or not. Have you done that test?

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that being said so nice of you to call me out on that 😁 ******* plutonian intuition huh? no i haven't been the best about that lately could definitely be doing other things to manage it all better and i'm working on it because my body isnt really giving me a choice

you got me though 🤣 it's a ***** to be 100% on point with things though when there's a lot of other **** going on and other issues also being dealt with, those are excuses though and you're still right 😁 i'm going to make them anyway and complain though because that's what i do

made me laugh though, you're good

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It's indeed harder when you have lots of other problems, so I don't really see it as an excuse, but you still have to prioritize your health. Period. (my Pluto's talking).

I don't believe drug addicts are self destructive because majority of them doesn't really believe that they're going to destroy themselves and when they realise it, it's extremely difficult to stop because they are addicted. As far as I know when they stop they suffer for a long time even physically from withdrawl symptoms. That's why I consider drug addiction the most difficult and most tricky out of all the other addictions.
I know you started it out for fun so I didn't think much about it. But I'm sure you know that any health problem the more you leave it untreated the worse it gets, the more responsible you are by taking care of yourself, follow doctor's orders etc the better you'll be. In this case you know something was/is wrong, your body is clearly telling you and you know what to do about it, but you still don't do it the way you shoulh.. you are basically destroying yourself or better put in this case: you let yourself being destroyed. It's basically the same.
Self destructive tedencies are more of a Neptunian and Plutonian nature.
About a week or two ago I was checking the charts of people I know who have self destructive tedencies, especially addictions. That's because of a person I met online who was telling me that he drinks a lot, even though he doesn't really like the drinks themselves and he doesn't feel anything good when he's drunk, quite the opposite. He himself told me he was doing it because he feels like destroying himself for some unknown reason. I asked him how come he doesn't do drugs since it's the mosy successful way to do that and I was surprised by his answer which was "I've tried and they made me feel good that's why I didn't continue doing it". Basically not only he wanted to destroy himself but he wanted to make sure he didn't have any fun while doing it.
Because of him I checked the charts of the self destructive people I know (they are all men). The most common are:
• Mars-Neptune hard aspects,
• Moon-Pluto hard aspects
• Pluto in 1st or in conjunction with the ASC.
• Mercury/Venus/Mars in 12th H.

Also they all have Saturn-Sun or Saturn-Venus hard aspects but I don't think that it's enough by itself by any means. I know plenty of Venus-Saturn people and most of them don't do drugs or drink a lot.
Now I'm pretty sure you don't have any harsh Neptunian aspects, and I'm 100% sure you have no Pluto/Moon hard aspects because I would definately remembered that if you did. However I don't remember if your have Pluto in hard aspect to ASC or in the 1st H?

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nice to do when getting together isnt an option

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posted October 28, 2020 02:43 AM            

i actually don't remember if she has it afflicted though ketu is seen as a malefic on its own so 🤷‍♀️

yeah your soul knows so if there's a chance it can visit maybe it will now 😁

i'm not on heroin again my bad i worded that stupidly i guess, i've been clean for 3 1/2 years well i mean i've used other opiates a handful of times in those years but none at all in the past year

i haven't drank in almost a year either just weed and lsd and shrooms, kratom i guess if you count it but i don't... recreational benadryl but i don't count that either that's more about sleeping anyway

i could pass a drug test right now, no **** , i'm hoping to change that in the near future (only with weed) but yeah i'm clean, i quit cigarettes too (quit them then started again while i was at my last job because i worked with s bunch of smokers and it was really the only way to get any breaks in that place and being around dying people all night is mildly stressful)

no coke or xanax or anything anymore either, i even threw away the mystery pills i hated that i had been thinking about taking just for the hell of it (they were supposed to be molly but were research chemicals but i didnt have anything else in the house so i considered it at one point)

last time i was high was my birthday actually, and that was just lsd 🤷‍♀️ weed earlier that same month so ive been completely sober (not counting kratom) since late august

breaks in between though like may- july i was using shrooms once a week or so then switched to lsd a few times more spaced out than that

but yeah no i've been much better with that

i just meant at the time, years ago, when i was told to consider that i ended up doing heroin instead and that all just sort of fell off

ive been dealing with health issues on/off pretty bad for about 7 years now? something like that, it's whatever... concern is noted, appreciated, and i'll ignore it til i can't

when it comes to drugs i actually go way back to being like under 10 (34 now) drinking cough syrup in the bathroom when i'd go hide while my parents were fighting with my older brother if i didn't want to get noticed and yelled at too for existing and that was infrequent

then when i was like 13 or so i started drinking infrequently and by 14 it was other meds and stuff that people dont really get into (like how much of an upper asthma meds can be...) then at 15 was when i started with opiates my ex fiancee's mother actually gave them to me liked the high so i used those on/for a while she introduced me to benzos too

that was on/off for years with like month long opiate binges here and there, mostly opiates sometimes benzos

then when i was 22 i smoked a lot of pcp laced weed for a bit was mildly addicted because i was using it whenever i was awake, gave myself hppd with that, mild withdrawal and that was alongside alcohol and benzos and opiates, muscle relaxers too

then from like that point to last year i smoked weed pretty much daily with very few breaks in between definitely went for years not being sober at all and not just weed but alcohol, muscle relaxers, psychedelics, benzos, opiates, coke, molly etc and so on

the heroin though was just like that ******* thing that got me you know? that drug that really made it undeniable i had a problem because i was using it to just not feel withdrawal which got so ******* bad i can still feel it sometimes when i think about it

there was a suicide attempt in there somewhere before the health issues and the heroin, mid 20's, didnt work out i told no one including my ex just kind of acted like it never happened

positive experience ultimately i think, then with the health issues that's been a double edged sword made me appreciate life more to some degree but i'm also still like this so 🤷‍♀️ suffering is a gift from god though right? 😉😁

i've just been through a lot of **** and i'm processing some of it and i havent been up for being poked and prodded at and stuck in waiting rooms that always have those ceiling tiles i feel compelled to count or i get anxious etc and so on

not an excuse even just like an "i dont give a **** and am not bothering right now" which i get is probably disconcerting to hear but is what it is

i say bits of things and there's no way i'd ever share everything i've been through entirely here so 🤷‍♀️ is what it is, but my point is i have a lot to sort out aside from this and my focus has largely been on that

i'll get to it when i get to it

this is my chart

that's fair i can enjoy people's company with them not being around physically too

posted October 28, 2020 11:57 AM            

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Originally posted by Plut0nian2:
That's nice, does it help as much with money? I've read that it's one of the top money aspects.

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posted November 03, 2020 11:33 AM            

I'm glad and relieved that you didn't start heroin and it's even better that you do way less drugs in general.

You do have Pluto in 1st H, I'm wondering if except of self destructive tendencies it also gives a more durable body. That thought occured while I was reading all that stuff that your system has absorbed. I would have so many more health issues (if not dead) had I done less than half of the stuff you've done.

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concern is noted, appreciated, and i'll ignore it til i can't

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posted November 03, 2020 11:37 AM            

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Originally posted by Somna7H:
6th House Jupiter.
Gain while you are sick, hospitalised etc. Not sure about health aspect. Though we most seen health from 6th house.

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posted November 03, 2020 11:47 AM            

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Originally posted by Hikaru29:
Money came late probably because Saturn's in my 2H, but I did accumulate a fair bit and could have gotten more if not for the fact that I gave up certain opportunities. Not sure if I regret it because at some point I started to care less about money and more on personal fulfilment.

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posted November 04, 2020 09:43 AM            

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Originally posted by Plut0nian2:
Gain via working in hospitals and/or with small animals (as a vet gor example). That's what my friend does.

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Good. Unfortunately that's not my case. Thank you...

posted November 04, 2020 10:47 PM            

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Originally posted by Plut0nian2:
@Dumuzi

I'm glad and relieved that you didn't start heroin and it's even better that you do way less drugs in general.

You do have Pluto in 1st H, I'm wondering if except of self destructive tendencies it also gives a more durable body. That thought occured while I was reading all that stuff that your system has absorbed. I would have so many more health issues (if not dead) had I done less than half of the stuff you've done.

😅 that made me laugh, it kind of reminds me myself, not what you said but the way you said it. At the same time it makes me worried and a little bit angry because I take very seriously health problems, but I'll leave it at that because I understand that you can do whatever you want with your body and not whatever I want you to do, no matter what's right and wrong.

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yeah i mean ive been smoking weed this past week but that's about it unless you count half a glass of wine before deciding to just smoke instead and i dont

i'd be lying if i said i dont miss heroin because i do every day but 🤷‍♀️ i dont miss being addicted to it that sucked

i'm honestly surprised i lived through all of that because it's not like i was careful i was regularly mixing drugs, dangerous combinations, amounts where it just wasnt good

i'd have nights where i would actively force myself to stay awake for hours because my breathing and **** would be off to the point where it felt like i'd die if i fell asleep and couldnt push myself to do it

not even just with drugs as a kid i'd play chicken with cars and when i was really bad with heroin and gave no ***** even just crossing the street with me would make other people anxious

just dumb **** really

ive taken pills that have been handed to me without even asking what they were just like "oh a handful of pills nice" and then done that hasnt always gone ok but the one time it was really bad was a complete accident and i technically knew better i just figured maybe it was something good anyway and was willing to chance it

i've also used found drugs like found drugs outside and just been like "nice free drugs" and i mean like heroin and ****

posted November 05, 2020 02:35 AM            

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Originally posted by Plut0nian2:
Ouch.. not a fan of Saturn in the 2nd H. At least it got better for you. Do you have any other helpful placements when it comes to money? Aqua Mercury or 10th H planets or Pluto in 4th H?

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posted December 06, 2020 06:52 PM            

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Originally posted by Hikaru29:
Mars in 10th trine Saturn.

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posted December 07, 2020 12:39 PM            

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Originally posted by Leo-Cancer98:
Ooo double Saturn power 😊

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posted December 08, 2020 12:18 AM            

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Originally posted by GalacticCoreExplosion:
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In traditional astrology, Jupiter was said to be very well placed in the 2nd.
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2nd house Jupitor in Aquarious.

If speeding in icy conditions (I know it was my fault, I should have known better not to drive while mad).

Then skidding into a telephone pole and comming out of it without a scratch on the same stretch of road were 3 other vehicles had skided + 1 car fliped over..all resulting in fatalities.

If that wasn't beause of having lucky Jupitor then I don't know what eles to say.

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posted December 09, 2020 01:41 AM            

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Originally posted by Hikaru29:
Mars in 10th trine Saturn.

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